i'm tired of running away in shame
no one calls me coward
but they know im insane
i shouldn't stop doing what i love
just because the voices in my head
say i'm not good at it

i don't care if my heart breaks
when i write these words on this blank paper
it cannot possibly break much more than it has already
when i found out that

you love another person
fucking 'nother person
you tell me you love me
but i'm just one of too many

make me feel like it's my fault
that you're cheating
just because i loved someone else
while i was with you
but honey, we both know the truth
i tried to leave but you wouldn't let me

ah, you told me you'd be miserable
and kill yourself, that's pitiful
told me it's okay if i dated him
while i was with you

funny how you put yourself
in that situation
and come around here
trying to use manipulation

i'm sorry, babe, i'm the best at games
i've lived my whole life with family
friends and exes who lied to me
you're never gonna be better at it
all these completely flawed people
taught me the best things in life
they're never true and that's right

i'm not ashamed of what you've done
i know it's not about me
you're the one who had no balls to admit
that you're fucking some other girl
you're just selfish

least when i loved others
i told you and warned you
never hid my feelings from you
but honestly, you don't know a thing
about trust and loyalty

you cry about being alone
but you treat people like shit
that sounds like a problem
that you have to fix

you don't know yourself
so you put this façade that makes you look better
than any other guy
you're a fraud

and right now it hurts to write
but thanks, you're forcing me
to vomit my words on this poetry
just to let go of this fake love
i'm throwing this shit into the cemetery

lovely, don't you come and try to find me
when you're feeling lonely