Chapter 45

I slept peacefully with my girlfriend in my arms.

It would have been a perfect way to wake up if it hadn't been for the fact that I was jolted awake by a phone rigging.

I tried ignoring it, as if acting like it didn't exist could make it go away.

Unfortunately, life didn't work like this.

Lexi was waking up, and I could feel her fingers brushing against my side, which just made me hug her tighter.

"Is it yours?" Lexi asked me softly.

I yawned, a little ticked off that I'd been robbed of this peaceful sleep, and kissed the top of my Pumpkin's head. "Yeah," I replied weakly.

"Aren't you going to answer it?" she asked, a hint of amusement in her voice.

"No," I replied with a chuckle. The phone stopped ringing. Sweet peace again.

I wasn't a fool though. I knew it wasn't over, because I knew exactly who was annoying enough to call me in the morning.

And Josh was a relentless bastard.

Lexi sat up a bit, looking at me with the sweetest smile, making my whole chest ache, and stroked my cheek. I grabbed her hand, kissing her palm.

I wasn't sure, how exactly it was possible to love someone this much. Just waking up next to her was setting my heart on fire.

I kept wondering if I would ever get used to it. I really didn't think I would. Loving Lexi and being loved by her would always feel wonderfully impossible.

Lexi intertwined our fingers together, and let herself fall back on my chest, hugging me tightly, our hands pressed between our chests.

I really really wanted to kiss her.

My phone started to ring again.

"I'm going to smash that phone," I grumbled while Lexi asked, "seriously, who is it?" her tone amused.

I wasn't that amused.

I was more like annoyed.

I let my annoyance show on my face, and answered my girlfriend. "It's Josh. I was supposed to call him yesterday."

Josh wanted me to check in with him after every football game. I'd been too busy to call him, so now he was being his annoying self, even though he clearly knew what I'd been doing yesterday. He could cut me some slack.

Annoying me was entertaining him.

I lifted myself a bit, to reach for my phone on my nightstand, my arm still around my Pumpkin, not letting go of her.

It felt like if I let go of her, she was going to get out of bed and start her day, and I didn't want to get out of bed yet.

I wanted to stay here for a little while longer.

With her chin on my chest, while looking up at me, Lexi pointed out, "if you don't answer he's probably going to drop by."

She was not wrong. Josh definitely had a flair for the dramatics.

"I hate him," I just stated, and answered the call. "Yeah?"

"Blake why haven't you called me," Josh all but shrieked in my ear.

Ugh. He was lucky I was in a good mood and, that apparently, he was my best friend and I liked him. There was less of that liking at the moment though.

I let out an exasperate breath, running a hand over my face, Lexi still laying on my chest, looking amused. "Just calm the fuck down Josh. I'm alright okay, stop freaking!"

"He sounds like a needy girlfriend," Lexi mouthed to me.

Ah yes, Josh often felt just like that.

"I was all but calling every hospital around asking them if they had you in their list. You know you have to answer when I call Blake," Josh was ranting, and I was letting him be his ridiculous self as much as he wanted. "Jesus, you scared the living crap out of me! What the hell–"

Apparently, I had enough patience to let Josh rant, but my girlfriend didn't.

She grabbed the phone from my hand. "Hey Josh, you needy girlfriend, thanks for the concern, now will you leave us alone and stop calling every five minutes?"

"Wait, what?" I heard Josh reply.

Lexi and I were quite close after all.

"Stop calling, it's getting annoying," she repeated.

"Lexi? What the... Oh you naughty little girl. You put on your birthday present, didn't you?" Josh said, his tone cheeky.

Lexi did not look particularly pleased and passed me the phone back.

"Yeah, I'm not dealing with that," she said, making me laugh.

I pressed the phone back to my ear and told my best friend, "Again, thank you for your concern, Josh, now if you'll excuse me, I only need one needy girlfriend and she's getting annoyed with you."

"Hey!" Josh shouted immediately, but I just bid him goodbye and hung up on him, throwing my phone far away from me.

This seemed like the right move, because my girlfriend had a content smile on her face as she rested her head back on my chest and closed her eyes.

"You think he's going to call again," she asked, her voice muffled as she was pressed up against me.

I nodded, running a hand through her hair. "Most definitely."

Right on cue, my phone started to ring again.

We both groaned.

"If you shut it off, do you think he's going to come over?" Lexi asked, not looking convinced.

"Most definitely," I replied without missing a beat.

Josh was a persistent man.

"He's annoyiiiiing" Lexi whined, making me chuckle again, and holding on more tightly to her.

I'd been trying, as much as I could to not make a big deal of my barely clothed girlfriend in my arms, but it was getting harder and harder, no puns intended.

I could ignore the phone. Even if Josh did actually decide to be a pest and drive over here, it would take him a little while to get there.

I was glad he was feeling good enough to be his annoying self again.

But also. My girlfriend was in my arms right now and she had her legs pressed against mine, her fingers digging in my skin, just a thin layer of cotton between my chest and hers. And sure, no one was as obsessed about chest as Lexi Grayson was, but I wasn't exactly unaffected by hers either.

This was painful, in the best kind of way.

"I know. He probably just wants to know how good you look in the French maid outfit," I teased her, trying to keep my voice levelled.

The box was sitting there on my couch, so close yet so far.

"Oh, he's never seeing me in the French maid outfit," Lexi said, a little wickedly.

"He better," I replied and decided to just say fuck with whatever I'd been feeling lately.

Lexi wasn't Kendall. Lexi would never be Kendall.

And my phone had stopped ringing.

I scooped a hand under Lexi and flipped us around, Lexi squealing in surprise at the change in position. I pressed my lips against hers, shutting her up.

I wasn't sure what I was ready for yet. Not sex. But I was ready for more than we'd been doing so far.

And it definitely felt like Lexi was ready for more too.

Her eager lips, and greedy hands were proof enough.

I'd been so caught up in my head, in my own problems lately. Enough with all the thinking and mopping, and on with the doing and feeling.

My hand slipped under Lexi's shirt, well my shirt really, and trailed up her torso.

Lexi wasn't stopping me and I didn't want to stop.

Her fingers dug at the back of my head, tangling in my hair, keeping my face close to hers as we kissed with more intensity, my hips pressed between her.

While one of my hands kept part of my weight off of Lexi, the other curled around one of her breasts.

Unsurprisingly, her shirt was becoming an issue and not just for me, because Lexi grabbed the hem and pulled it off of her, being a little messy and in a rush, making me grin down at her.

"Shut up," she just said, making me chuckle again, but she pressed her lips back against mine, effectively shutting me up.

She still had a hand behind my head, but another was going to my chest, predictably, nails dragging against my chest, going down my abdomen.

My breathing was coming in more quickly, feeling hot all over.

I was clearly not unaffected by our precarious position, Lexi's breath just as ragged.

Without any kind of control, my hips started to move between Lexi's legs, almost unknowingly rubbing at just the right spot, making Lexi gasp and still.

I stopped moving. "Oh, wait, sorry, is this okay?"

"No, I mean, yes, this is fine," Lexi mumbled. I saw something pass in her eyes, I wasn't sure what though. "It's just... you know, I never... well I never anything really."

Ah.

"When you were dating Alex, nothing happened?" I asked softly.

They'd dated. I got the fact that they never actually had sex together, but I could understand something happened between them, just out curiosity, maybe.

"Look, he never even touched my boobs. If Alex was trying to convince himself he wasn't gay, he really did a shit job at it."

I looked down at her, her cheeks bright pink, but I was pretty sure it wasn't just shyness about our conversation that was the only reason behind it. "And alone. Nothing? Ever?" I asked, in a whisper.

This was probably the worst time to have this conversation, when my I felt like my whole body was on fire and it took all my self control to not let it move of its own accord.

Lexi blinked slowly. "No," she breathed.

"No?"

She shook her head. "No."

I wasn't sure exactly what took me over, but it kind of felt like I was going to be the one that would be in charge, and I guessed I just lost my mind for second, so I grabbed Lexi's hand and pulled it between us all the way down to between her legs, where I'd just pressed myself, guiding her fingers around, staying over her panties though.

"Not this?" I whispered in her ear.

She let out a few loud breaths, before saying a weak, "no."

I made her rub her fingers a little bit more, making Lexi's breathing come out louder, and then asked. "What do you prefer? This?" I did it for a few more seconds, and Lexi said, nothing, just bit down her lip, her face flushed with heat.

No one had ever seen her like this. This brought on a surge of desire more potent than I thought I could feel.

I took our hands away, pressing them against my bed, and with my other hand, lifted Lexi's leg beside me, giving me more room, and pressed myself between her again, hardness against softness, and moved again.

"Or this?" I whispered in her ear again, and moved deliberately more slowly, but with more force.

I'd be lying if I said the pressure didn't feel good. But I knew it could feel better. Just two little pieces of clothing separated us from something a lot more pleasurable, but I wasn't exactly ready to jump from just making out with my girlfriend to... well sex.

And Lexi had never experienced anything before me.

Having her admitting this made me realized again, the gap in our experiences, but also, the kind of pressure I had on my shoulders.

Everything was going to be a first for her with me. I should absolutely not mess it up.

And I should not rush it either. There were a lot of things we could do before actual sex. A lot of things.

Lexi wasn't saying anything, but let out a little moan, making me go a little wilder.

I trailed kissed down her neck, all the way to her breasts, kissing and licking the skin there, feeling almost unhinged, my hand around her thigh grabbing more tightly as I kept moving against her.

All I could hear was Lexi's breathing coming out in gasping moans.

She'd never done this. And I'd never done this either. Not like this. Not with someone I loved. I'd never done this specifically with anyone really.

My lips were in her breasts, kissing skin, licking mounts, dragging on skin, my girlfriend going wilder by the second, my hips moving more quickly. It was hard not to think about how it would feel if we weren't wearing anything right now. How unbelievably good it would feel.

My hand around her thigh went up and up, to her ass, squeezing the skin, pushing her more closely to me, and then gliding my hand between her legs from behind, going to the sweat spot I wanted to lose myself in one day, rubbing my knuckles there, feeling the damp fabric of her underwear. Lexi had started to move against me too, like her body knew what she wanted. It would be so easy to push it to the side and feel more of her, let her feel more of this...

"Blake, wait, fuck," I heard Lexi say, but it registered in my brain just a little too late, because when I looked up, she let out a louder moan, her head tilting back, mouth gapping with pleasure, her body stilling.

"Yes, Pumpkin?" I said, while Lexi just stayed silent, making me grin, trailing kisses up her neck.

I thought there would be no release for me, and it would have been fine, I was quite content having apparently seen Lexi's first real experience in what it felt like to feel pleasure, but Lexi took me by surprise when she glided her hand between us, slipping inside my boxers, making me moan. Her hand wrapped around me.

I was going to collapse.

The fact that she'd never touched me here before, and that I was already quite feeling unhinged after what we had been doing, made me lose any kind of control way too fast for my own pride. She only had to move her hand around me a few times and I was letting out another moan, louder this time, face pressed against the crook of her neck.

Silence in the room. We were both breathing heavily, the weight of what had just happened kind of hitting me in waves.

I had not planned on doing any of this. I definitely did not regret it though.

Lexi was kissing my temple, hand stroking my back. I was kissing the dip at the base of her neck, nuzzling the skin there.

"Just so you know, I won't accept this only happening on my birthday," Lexi suddenly said, breaking the silence.

I burst into laughter.

Yeah, I definitely wouldn't accept it either.

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Happy Monday my little Pumpkins. :D

Hehehehehehe. So? How are we doing? Everybody fine?

At first I was actually going to skip the morning wake up call, but the Patreon crew said I should add it and I realized this was the perfect time to make this happen. mouhahahaha.

Y'all know Blake and Lexi don't actually have sex until like, a few more months, but that doesn't mean nothing happens. A lot shall still happen actually.

And well, Blake needs to deal with his issues too, so yeah.

Hope you liked it! ;P And also, sorry for the late upload. Unsurprisingly, I fell asleep at the foot of my bed. And I shall be going back to sleep now.

So byyyyye! Thanks for reading this chapter! I looooove you guys! See y'all next week! <3