All right, a boring seesaw game.
Someone has to get off this seesaw...

You were so excited to be back at university. The two weeks of vacation was heavenly, but the shows weren't that stressful. You could still do assignments and email them to your professors.

Your friends were delighted and congratulated you on your new wheels. Your dad bought you a car. He gave the keys on your birthday sealed in an envelope. The only thing you had to do was to go and choose your colour wheels.

You didn't have a chance with all the Blackpink appearances to go. You wanted to share it with Jisoo, but you can't afford to expose yourself. So, you decided to go with your two best friends.

You got yourself a new model Elite i20 Hyundai. You feel like an adult. Very proud of your first baby. Tzuyu and Yerin took lots of photos of you the day you went and got the car. The car bought in Incheon a few minutes from Yonsei.

You drove your car all by yourself with your friends as your first passengers. They ģave you cute car gifts-a Blackpink keyring. Cute carpets. Car refresher and steering wheel covers.

You took a pic with the car and sent it to the Pink bunnies chat room and one to your Dad.

Pisces girl enters the chat,

Pisces girl: Look who's got their wheels 😊no more subway and buses for a long time.

Taes💜love enters the chat.

JenSuga: OMG, congrats...aw, we can't get any licences yet.

RosePetal: Whoa, you look so cute in it. I'm so jealous.

JenSuga: You must take us out for a ride when you come to stay over.

Taes💜love: You must teach me to drive Ji-ho... I also want my car.

Pisces girl: Don't fret. You'll get yours soon. You must do your license when you go back to Thailand.

ChiChoo, join the chat.

Chichoo: hi guys ...isn't my sis, great. She got her wheels, and I don't even have a learners permit.

Pisces girl: we'll go to all the places of your choice for a day, ok. But not too far. I'm a bit nervous. See you, guys. Have to get back to my "normal life."

JenSuga: I also want an "everyday life. Why I'm I the only child?

RosePetal: At least you get everything you want when you ask for it.

JenSuga: Oh, really, I'm still waiting for my dad to buy me my Yacht. I found out one of the Bangtan Boys owes his Yacht. It's not fair.

Pisces girl: It's only a tabloid rumour.

Taes💜love: it will still 'would"ve been cool if they own one. I hope it Taehuyng. Just think him and me alone on the open ocean-a romantic getaway.

Pisces girl: That will be very romantic. What if you meet your real soulmate? I heard a rumour, but it might be just fake news that Taehuyng found his soulmate.

Taes💜love: I don't care; if they reveal the girl, ill stop watching, but my poor heart only beats for V right now.

Pisces girl: well, good luck with that. I still think all the Bangtan Boys are already taken except Jungkook, of course. I still need to drive my friends to uni. They are quickly ordering food for us, so bye-bye, girls.

Pisces girl left the chat...

....💛....

You felt very nervous after you've driven into the entrance gate. It was knowing that you can't postpone the inevitable. Praying that your friends will forgive you and not be mad at you. You girls stayed for four years at the SK. Global Housing was also suitable for International students.

You parked at the residence parking bay and switched off the car. Tzuyu and Yerin were super excited that their friend got her wheels.

Tzuyu giggle," We almost got a ticket when Ji-ho parked at a loading zone.."

You pulled a face," you could've told me a policeman was standing nearby!"

Yerin chuckled and took out her shopping backs from the boot," what's the fun of seeing how you cope with a situation like that."

Tzuyu pointed out casually, " ...but looking like a celeb can get you anywhere!"

The girls chuckled and walked up the stairs to enter. They scanned their student resident cards and walked up to the elevators. They were laughing and bickering.

It's still early, and the girls wanted to hang out for a few hours. You told them you just quickly going to refresh, charged your phone cause you need to make calls later to your family and than come to their room.

Your room is in the private hallway for single rooms, so after two turns, you press in your room code and enter your room with relief.

You love your room. This is your domain where you feel that nothing can disturb you. Your whole room is decorated in white and grey with fairy lights, thanks to your YG connections. The stylists all gave your ideas on how to make it a heavenly theme.

You put all your shopping bags on your sofa and undress so you can take a refreshing shower. You used your intensive hair repair shampoo and conditioner due to the excessive dyeing. It smelled wonderful. Strawberry and cream. Flavoured products.

After you've showered, you clothe yourself in comfortable wear if you had to go for dinner later tonite.

You blow-dried your hair and see relieved how your hair returned to the dark red colour from "black dye s

The girls didn't notice that your hair had shades of black interwoven in the plaits you made that morning. You had your hoodie up most of the time.

They were too excited about the car than anything else. There's something that you brought for the girls to ease their wrath.

You quickly checked your messages. There are messages in your group chat. It's the Blackpink girls that wanted to know the outcome of the revelations.

Pisces girl enters the chat.

Pisces girl: wish me luck. I'm going to tell them now. I'm so nervous.

Taes💜love enter chat

MinYoongis💋wife enters the chat.

You looked annoyed at the new entry. Jennie changed her profile name. Really!!! Yoongis wife! You just sigh with annoyance.

RosePetal enters chat

ChiChoo enters chat

Chichoo: Don't worry, we keep our fingers cross.

RosePetal: they won't discard you, you'll see.

MinYoongis💋wife: they will even love that you're part of us. They are Blinks!

Taes💜love: if all else fails, go to plan B.

Piscesgirl: Okay...will tell you later what happened. I think I'll take my phone with me. I'll charge it in their room.

Taes💜love: congrats on your first magazine cover as Ji-ho

Piscesgirl: thanks...I'll bask in it when I'm done with the most stressful reveal. I'll talk to you guy later.

Chichoo: good luck sis...oh, did our Eomeoni contact you or called her back.

Piscesgirl: I'll call her tonite when I'm sleepy, so half the things she'll say will not register anyway. Bye girls.

Piscesgirl leaves the chat.

MinYoongis👄wife leaves the chat.

Taes💜love leaves the chat.

ChiChoo leaves the chat.

RosePetal leaves the chat.

You saw two email notifications and one from someone you don't know. You've decided you'll answer it later when you back either crying or rejoicing.

You took the package and left your room. You did not forget to put on your black-rimmed glasses. You are a little bit short-sighted. But can still see without glasses.

You locked in your passcode and walked down the hallways passing laughing students on your way. You greet each other, wave here and there.

You knock at the girls' dorm, and they open it with laughter and giggles seemed they had a pillow fight.

You chuckle and say teasingly, "Oh, you started the fun without me."

Tzuyu giggles with her hair dishevelled " sorry Ji-ho but this girl ate my black bean noodles last night. I found my container empty. now, she has to pay."

Tzuyu chased Yerin around. Yerin was squealing and jumping from bed to bed and then tackled on the floor with Tzuyu sitting on her stomach.

Yerin chuckled and tried to reason with a very adamant Tzuyu hitting her with one of the fluffy pillows "ok, Unnie...I'm so sorry...I'll ask you next time...but I was so hungry and I ...I just wanted to have a taste.."

"And you ate it all after one taste", Tzuyu retorted back.

Yerin pouts," I am sorry...but I was so hungry, and you came in late last night. I forgot to tell you."

You just shook your head to the two roommates and placed the package on one of the desks.

"Ok, you two...Yerin ...tonight you will buy us dinner..no excuses... apologies to Unnie" You stood with your hands on your hips. You were gesturing to them to stand up.

Yerin pouted and stood up when Tzuyu released her.
She smiled and apologised. You made yourself so comfortable on Yerins' bed.

Their room is so cosy and beautiful in light pink and grey hues. At your uni, the girls made sure their rooms are well decorated. You came third in the best single dorm room in the 4th year division. Yerin and Tzuyu won first place in the twin dorm room division.

" So, Ms. new car owner, how does it feel not to be constrained any more?"
Tzuyu smile while putting her hair in a ponytail. She took a seat on the fluffy carpets while Yerin relaxed on Tzuyu s bed with her laptop open.

You smile and shrugged," Ask me when I'm tired of driving".

Tzuyu quickly jumps up again and brought out cans of soda and snacks she bought this morning.

You looked at all the snacks, "Wow, girl...You emptied the supermarket. Are there still left for the rest of the population of South Korea?"

Tzuyu giggles and throw your favourite snacks at you...You caught it just as it almost lands on your face.
She knows you love Lottes Happy promise custard cake and Lottes coconut chocolate Pepero and Torms Farm flavoured nuts and almost.

You smiled and start to munch on your chosen snacks.
Yerin asked for the Peanut Squid Chips, Lotte Mic and match chocolate pies in banana and matcha. It's also Tzuyu favourite snack.

Tzuyu opened up her Pringles the Buttered Caramel flavour. She loves it the most and ver sweet Tteobokki chips.

Yerin took a bit from her yummy pie and asked you to pass her a can of Cherry Lotte Milkis Chilsung. You remember that You made a commercial for Chilsung a few months ago. You hand her one can and took one for yourself. You prefer the muskmelon flavour. Tzuyu had to settle for the grape.

You talked about random stuff for a few minutes before you build up your courage. You decided to throw some of the empty snack packages in the bin under
Yerins' desk and look nervously at your friends who bicker about who wears it better at the Seoul Awards between Red Velvet or Twice.

You cough a little to get their attention. You wring your hands and start playing with one of your rings.

"Erm, guys...I need to tell you something...that will shock you out of your socks...hopefully, you'll still live when I'm done, "you nervously uttered.

Your two friends looked at you with confusion.

" What you talking about?"Tzuyu asked, wiping her hands with Yerins sweater.

Yerin grabbed her sweater, annoyed," hey! Get yourself a serviette...queen of dirty!"
Tzuyu just smiled unbothered, " did you cheat on your exams?...cause that will surely kill me on the spot of shock."

You furrow your brows," I'll never cheat...I'm a registered genius, so no!"

Yerin looked at your nervous state and took a sip from your drink. You just shook your head at that," don't be so worried...You look like someone who wants to tell their cheating boyfriend that she's pregnant."

You just grabbed a pillow and threw it at her," what the hell, Yerin. I don't know a man like that...it's serious!"

"Tell us then...it better be epic coming from you", Yerin beckons you on. Tzuyu just looks at you with a worried expression.

You've asked the Blackpink girls how to approach the subject. They gave some pointers, but you're still afraid. These girls are your lifeline. They are your sanity in this crazy world. You are more than just friends, and they are your sister's. You can't lose them. YG will have the big reveal in the coming weeks, and you had to do it sooner before you exposed to the world.

Your schedule will be full-final preparation for graduation. YG new actors, trainees and debuted reveal. Her debut "Allure magazine" cover as herself. GoanChart awards.

You deeply inhaled," I'm living a double life since freshmen year" you wince as you look at their faces that show more confusion.

" What do you mean double life?..are you a secret agent or undercover cop" Yerin ask with disbelief.

" more serious than that...I'm a twin," you started carefully.

" So, you told us you have a sister...ok, you are a twin...so what? "Tzuyu ask.

You sigh, you look into their narrow expected eyes " I don't have a normal "twin sister" ...my older twin is Jisoo from Blackpink!"

It looks like it took time to register until They both jump up " What"! How!"

You beckon them to sit. The girls looked visibly shook and can't comprehend what you just uttered. It's unbelievable. Maybe you're too stressed about the passing exams or the Jisoo look-a-like situations you had.

They both plopped down on the floor with shock.

" D...did you just say...J...Jisoo is your sister" Tzuyu stammered.

You winced and nod.

"But Jisoos' last name Choi?" Yerin frown

" When she debuted, my mom thought it would be best for all of us and our privacy If her last name knows her. I can live my life, and she can live her life," you explain.

"OMG!!!" Yerin scream," You are too identical. You are twins! Ji-ho your rascal. Why didn't you tell us...don't you trust us? She suddenly sounds sad.

"I do trust you, but we had to keep it secret. Even my family had to move and settle here in Seoul. There were times I wanted to tell you guys... you're Blinks, and I wanted you to treat me normally...I am sorry...I'll understand if you don't ever want to be my friend anymore...but I didn't know what to do...I was under contract" You look remorseful.

You look at Tzuyu, who haven't said anything, she just looks intently at you, and your heart sank. Tzuyu will never forgive you for lying to them.

You frown when she quietly stood up, took her pillow and suddenly attack you viciously. You shriek and running around the room.

Tzuyu, with annoyance, " you silly...stupid..moron...we love you..we would've understood...this is for not trusting us with the most fantastic news...You rascal...!!!!" She is still hitting you as you laughingly tried to stop her.

" I'm sorry, Tzu...I was and still is under contract...if you don't stop, I can't tell you more juicy stuff" you tried to reason with her.

Yerin was in stitches when she saw you under Tzuyu radar of attack. She's still in shock of your revelation.

"What! You met the rest of the girls.?.. we are devoted Blinks, and here we have an insider...You have to tell us everything, and you need to prove it..."

Tzuyu pants with all the energy exerted from the pillow fight.

You chuckled, "ok... ok, can I just breathe... Yerin, please hand me my soda...thanks" you took it out of Yerins hand and took a big gulp.

"Aye Tzu... I hope Mino behave. I don't want to be under attack when you got a belt in your hand... your a vicious woman," you said.

They watched you with excitement. " Common ... Ji-ho tell us how Jisoo became Blackpink", Yerin asks impatiently.

You smile," Well, because were identical twins, we both Blackpink!"

The girls' eyes widen in total disbelief," What! How?

You smirk at their shocked faces. You hope they can handle it. You let them first drink soda to calm them down. You told them when you audition both for YG how you as twins auditioned. You did both auditions for the two of you. Jisoo was very nervous, so you did the vocal, luckily the dance was later in the afternoon, and you danced. They were in awe listening to this surreal story.

Tzuyu, with wide eyes," so you audition when you were 14 years...You were very long in training" you nod.

Yerin shook her head. " So, why didn't you debut with Jisoo."

You look at them sadly," although I can sing and dance, I didn't want to be in the kpop business. I really didn't like it as a full-time career, but Jisoo loves the whole concept of fame and being out there. She's the extrovert, and I'm the anti-social introvert. I wanted to be in Kdramas. I love acting. That's why I left and enrolled in uni."

Tzuyu looks at you with renewed eyes," Wow, Ji-ho. You could've been famous. Just think twins in black ink."

Yerin frown," didn't you feel strange with a sister that got all the attention and got to live this fabulous lifestyle, and you're the dull student..here with boring friends-"

You look at her with a mock offensive look," Hey, we are not dull...do you know how fake the artists are...they smile, but you don't know if they are genuine."

"It must be difficult not to tell people you are related", Yerin say sympathetically.

You smirk, "Well, not if you are a twin and you got to attend and perform on award shows" you rise your eyes at their looks of elations.

"OMG!!!" they both squealed.

"You brushed shoulders with the kpop idol's...that so exciting...does Blackpink knows when you switched," Tzuyu asked.

You nodded and told them. YG offered you a contract, you declined and told them you passed the college entrance exams and you're going to study further.

" but something bizarre happened. Blackpink was already forming, and in their final stage of being revealed and ready to debut, Jisoo got frequent asthmatic attacks now and then after energetic dance performances. Once they had to shoot their debut music video, "Boombayah", she got a burst appendage. She landed in the hospital, so I was contacted by YG management when they previously found out about our twin switches," you laugh," we did that a lot, predominantly during her dance practises. Or when she wants to go somewhere."

"Oh, gosh! Did she recovered.?" Yerin asked. You nodded.

Tzuyu smile widely," so, YG management contacted you. Wow."

"Yes, My mom and Jisoo concocted something, and then YG offered me a lucrative contract as Jisoos stand-in. Nobody knew. And I got paid, and I got to experience the famous lifestyle and meet great people," you grimace.

"You seemed not to like it very much?" Tzuyu pointed out.

"At first, it was awesome, but it interfered with my college work. I did the mv for Jisoo. It's me in the debut video."

Yerin and Tzuyu jumped up with excitement. "So you are just as good as Jisoo."

You smugly pout, "not to praise me, yes, I'm better. If I'd accepted the contract, I would've been the first member revealed, not Jennie. I would've appeared in Big Bangs videos also."

The girls were beyond excited. You prove it 1st by putting on a back tract of "playing with fire" they watch you in total awe as you start singing and dancing the steps flawlessly. They jumped up and clapped hands and then showing them your private photo gallery on Yerins' laptop. You went into your account. It's encrypted with a password. As they sat next to you on the bed with your phone connected to Yerins laptop, you explain all the events. You show them your family photos in London.

Yerin and Tzuyu were beyond mesmerised. They are amazed that they lived with a Blackpink member for four years, and no one in Yonsei even knew.

" here we are at the Seoul Awards...we won and performed our songs...last week at the Goan Chart awards-"

Tzuyu looks at you in awe," So you knew that Luan guy from the yacht for real."

You deeply inhaled," yes, I met him at the SM training workshop camp in 2013 before my debut...but I was already adamant about concentrating on my studies to enter uni. I decline the contract, but my mom and Jisoo forced me to go on this week camp in Jisoo place...the trainee girls taught I was Jisoo."

Yerin sympathetic, " so Luan still thinks you her"

"Yes...and it complicated my life tremendously...You know all the mob, paparazzi and privacy invaders that I've had to endure when the girls' debut last year." You sigh.

You show them cute never before seen photos with the members in the Blackpink house. They loved the images of Jennie trying to make a cocktail. Lisa cooking skills.

They watch and look with interest and visible excited. You've urged the girls to keep everything a secret. They must take a vow of secrecy.

You show them pics during the appearances you attended as Jisoo.

You laugh and giggle at Jennie and Roses funniest pictures you took when they slept on the plane or at hotels.

Then they saw a long-forgotten pic with "the one that must not be named" Your blood runs cold as you felt paled. My gosh ...You forgot about this pic.

They look at your paled face and nervous eyes. You quickly unplugged the phone and jumped up.

"Wait!" Both girls shouted when the photos disappeared

Tzuyu shocked, "W..was that Suga...Min Yoongi from BTS!" they look flabbergasted.

Yerin with wide eyes," Y...You knew Suga as close friends."

You nod but say with a strangled but controlled and steady voice, " Er...yes...erm ...we were some kind of friends at that camp he knows me as Jisoo."

"OMG, you met BTS!!! Suga hugged you tightly..! " Tzuyu gushed. Their friend was the only known girl with a photo of the stoic, cold and emotionless Suga.

He looked liked he adored her in the photo. Wait! She looked at you, intently "... Ji-ho, is there something between you guys?"

You're eyes widen more, "N...no, where did you get that idea? We only talked at the camp when they debut we lost contact. They are very famous now...You know the shipping culture...they ship him with Jennie, and she is really in love with him."

"OMG, aren't we going to talk about you're hugged by one of the most sought after guys, even as Jisoo. He hugged you....wow!" Yerin looked over, excited.OMG!!!

You, with a warning tone in your visibly shaken voice," guys, never please... ever disclose this info...nobody, absolutely nobody, must know...Blackpink and BTS can never know...please ...please, I'm begging you ...even if you drunk...don't ever...it will be a big scandal...if anyone finds out. You're the only one that knows..." You plopped down on the bed as they look at you with questionable eyes.

Yerin softly, " Ji-ho is there more to your friendship."

You shook your head, "Er...we got to know each other, and we had one date on Luan's cabin boat-"

Yerin shocked, "OMG. ..You dated Suga!"

"N..no, it was only one date. It was not allowed among kpop trainees...we took a risk to go on one"!

Tzuyu with gleeful face, " Risky or not Ji-ho...Suga liked you enough to risk a date with him...he liked you."

You wiped your face," The problem is he liked me as 'Jisoo ' and not as Ji-ho, and he can never know...OMG..he'll kill me!"

Yerin clicks her tongue," that's so sad...so Jisoo doesn't know about you two."

You shook your head."When Blackpink debut Jisoo was too extra, overconfident, arrogant and downright rude...he didn't like her attitude at all and to crown it all..they accidentally touch, and they didn't bond as soulmates so he never bothered to talk to us. Bangtan usually ignores Blackpink."

Tzuyu smile, "this is a Kdrama plot?"

You say dryly, "you think."

Yerin shook her head," And Jisoo doesn't know you dated for a day..." she looks at you, teasingly "...so you hooked up with Min Yoongi?"

Tzuyu also waits for your answer with interest.

" my lips are seal...sorry...You know too much about this, to begin with," you teased back.

Yerin whined," Oh common Ji-ho, that is the juiciest details that you can't withhold from your best friends...just tell us ...is he a good kisser."

You blushed beet-red, and your friends started to tickle you to get the answer out of you " -c..come on, guys! it's embarrassing talking ...about such intimate stuff!"

"Please tell us?"Tzuyu pleaded...this is so cool. They friend with Suga, who could've thought.

"Please Ji-ho ...the whole world is waiting for BTS to reveal their soulmates...are you soulmates?" Yerin shook your shoulder.

"No, I never came into contact with him even accidentally...so I don't know", you sigh ", and I could never talk about them with the Members...although Jennie's infatuation annoys us gravely."

You suddenly look sad," if he ever found out about Jisoo and me. He will hate me, and I lied big time, and he hates liars...and I will instead be gone before he finds out."

You suddenly felt cold shivers running over you.

Tzuyu and Yerin both hugged you," Oh Ji-ho!"

A/n: Another update. You came clean to your friends. Do you think if the truth gets out, Yoongi would be forgiving?