SAY YOU LOVE ME
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
❝SAY YOU LOVE ME TO MY FACE, I NEED IT MORE THAN YOUR EMBRACE, JUST SAY YOU WANT ME, THAT'S ALL IT TAKES, HEART'S GETTING TORN FROM YOUR MISTAKES.❞

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sethoconnor: he loved war more than life
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misskelseyeast: serIOUSLY YOU'RE RIPPING OFF OF THOSE SIX WORD STORIES FROM TWITTER

username1: her hair color is what i aim for in life 😍

username2: okay but this no one photographer knows this random girl too like who tf is she??

username3: bUT LIKE WHAT IS HER SKIN CARE ROUTINE??

rosegoldcha: thank you for the balloons seth 😌

username4: omg but i thought she was dating tom holland?

username5: killer shot seth! loved the lighting and the angle and the focus! you're getting so much better!

sethoconnor: misskelseyeast your hobby must be attacking me isn't it

sethoconnor: rosegoldcha you said you wanted balloons so of course i'm going to get you some balloons

username6: okay but where's her lips? honey you got nothing going on for you 😂😂

username7: WHO'S TOM I WANT SETH AND THIS GIRL TO DATE

username7: what's her name again?

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      She was screwed and she knew it. Rosé had yet another day off and decided to spend her time with Seth who was still in Germany for his gig. Noah was still on set working and her mother was hard at work. She didn't know anyone else who was free other than Elizabeth Olsen, but it's the Elizabeth Olsen, how can she possibly ask the goddess herself to hang out?

      Seth offered to take her out into town seeing as how she hasn't really gotten the chance to explore Germany. The only time she's left the vicinity of the set, the hotel, or anywhere close to it was last night with Chris, Anthony, Sebastian, Scarlett, and Noah, and that was just for dinner.

      And with Falling Dimensions being officially finished she honestly had nothing else to do. The WiFi was bad enough, she couldn't stand staying in her hotel room any longer, and the feeling of being lonely irked her to no ends.

      What was meant to be just a small lunch ended up being a whole day full of exploration. In their friendship group of four they had this rule for hanging out. Phones were to be turned off and put away. Rosé didn't mind, she honestly could care less about having her phone off for the next few hours knowing that whatever business she had could wait.

      Oh how wrong she was.

      "Fuck, fuck, fuck!" she cursed to herself as she ran down the street. Her lungs ached and burned as the distance grew shorter. Her body desperate for air, the inhaler in her purse begging to be of use and to put her out of her misery. But Rosé couldn't stop, no, not when she had screwed up.

      The youngest Cha twin bursts into the restaurant earning the attention of almost everyone inside. But she could care less as her eyes scanned each and every face until they laid on the ones she wanted to see the most. The faces she knew would be full of disappointed, so much distrust. And she wasn't sure if she was ready to see it in the faces of her mother and brother.

      As soon as Rosé caught sight of the table where her brother and mother were sitting, Noah stood up abruptly and stormed over to her. The older twin didn't hesitate as he grabbed her by the wrist and took her back outside the restaurant. But before they left Rosé didn't miss the saddened look on her mother's face.

      Noah Cha was almost never mad. It was almost biologically possible for him to ever get mad. The only time he has ever gotten mad, or the last time he had gotten mad, was when the pet store had screwed up and sold him expired cat food. That incident led to Kimchi getting sick for a whole week which led to angry Noah.

      He was never the twin to lash out or get mad irrationally. That was more so Rosé when she was younger, and even now there are times where Rosé couldn't help but get mad easily. But then she always had Noah to calm her down, to distract her, to get her mind off of her problems.

      He always brought her back.

      "I'm sorry," Rosé breathed out quickly. She rushed her words and her lungs burned, but she was far too stubborn to pull out her inhaler. She had to make sure Noah knew how she felt. "Look, I'm so, so sorry! I swear I didn't plan on this, Seth and I went out for lunch and I lost track of time. I know I'm two hours late, but there were no taxis and traffic was heavy and I just ran here — "

      "Are you done?" Noah's voice was never harsh in the ears of Rosé. Yes, he had a deep voice that intimidated others, the type of voice that demanded to be heard. But it was never used for his sister, no, he only used it to protect his sister. "Are you done giving me these bullshit excuses?"

      "Noah, please — "

      "You had one job! We had one job!" Noah shouted. His voice rang so loud that she jumped. Rosé hung her head low knowing that she couldn't face his eyes, because those eyes are also her eyes. And she knew what rage looked like when it burned brightly in her eyes, but she wasn't sure if she could face the look she gave others.

      "This was Mum's birthday! The first birthday in two years that we could actually spend it with her!" Noah exclaimed as he waved his arms around. The vein in his neck bulged out of anger and his face slowly burned with heat. "You know how important it was for her! You knew it too! How could you do this?"

      "I — I'm sorry. Noah, please . . . Don't yell at me, not you. Please."

      "Just get out, okay? I'll . . . I'll deal with this. I can't look at you right now."

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why did you lie to me?
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fdimensions1996:
i don't think i understand what you're saying
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fdimensions1996:
is everything okay? what's wrong?
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softtofu:
why can't i do anything right? why am i such a screw up?
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softtofu:
i'm losing my mind and i don't know what to do and you're the only person available right now. my brother's mad at me, my best friend's sleeping, my other friend is working. and the one person i want to talk to the most is far away from me
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fdimensions1996:
i'm here i promise. what is it? what's wrong? talk to me
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softtofu:
i don't know what i'm doing with my life anymore
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softtofu:
i don't know why i'm here i don't know what to do
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fdimensions1996:
don't say that please
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you're so amazing, you're important. the readers love you, we love you. so don't say that okay? just talk to me, yeah?
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fdimensions1996:
i'm here for you i swear
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      Tom was getting anxious as he waited for a response from his favorite author. Nothing. The last message she has sent to him was over an hour ago and the anxious feeling in his chest never went away. Not one bit.

      Right when she had messaged him he had just gotten back to his hotel room after a date with his girlfriend. Camille was to leave Germany in a few days and Tom wanted to spend as much time possible with his girlfriend before she left for her next shoot in Athens, Greece. It was right after he had gotten out of the shower that his phone was buzzing with a new message.

      He laid on his bed and faced the ceiling as he tried to patiently wait for another message from softtofu. His fingers tapped the surface of his bare abdomen as he tried to pass time. The internet connection wasn't the best at the moment and there was nothing interesting playing on the TV. As far as he's concerned Noah and Rosie were out with their mum for a birthday dinner.

      And Tom didn't want to bother his cast mates. He hasn't gotten the opportunity to bond with them yet and he wasn't sure if he was ready. Maybe it was his hesitant nature. Immediately he smiled as he thought of Rosé. He could already imagine teenage Rosie on the set of The Avengers with a confident smile and a charming laugh as she whisked the love of the cast.

      Slowly he was drifting off to sleep when a loud banging shook him out quickly. Thinking that it was his manager or that there was some sort of emergency, he threw on his shirt before he walked over to the door.

      But when he opened the door he wasn't expecting Rosé to run into him and throw her arms around him. Her face was buried in his chest as her hands clenched the back of his shirt, almost as if she was scared that he'd somehow disappear.

      She's crying, he realized as he felt her tears soak through his shirt. Immediately his instincts kicked in and he wrapped his arms around her shoulders and pulled her closer. He closed the door behind her and pulled her into the room.

      They stood in the center of the room as the only noise prominent became the soft cries of his best friend and the air conditioner. Her crying never ceased and it broke his heart to hear her cry like this.

      He hasn't heard her cry for so long and he remembered why he hated it. The last time he heard her cry was through a Skype call a few months ago. Her boyfriend at the time was caught with another girl and the guy had no shame whatsoever.

      And for the first time Tom saw red. He wanted to fly to Sydney, find the lad who had broken his Rosie's heart, and give him a good slap. He was never one for violence, no, but there was this protective instinct when it came to his best friend. It was almost as if violence was the only way he could protect her. He wasn't much help. Noah and Rosé have always been very intimidating, independent people. Hell, if they wanted to they could scare people by just saying their name.

      Tom pressed kisses to the crown of her hair, something she'd used to do for him when they were kids. His mum always laughed and took pictures of when it first happened. Little Roseanne forced Tom to sit on the floor whilst she stood up to kiss the top of his head.

      "You have to take my side," Rosé choked out as she tightened her grip on his shirt. She looked up and Tom swore that the sight of her tears rendered him speechless. The little baby hairs on her forehead clung to her skin from the sweat, the makeup she delicately applied was smudged and runny, and her big, doe eyes filled with tears.

      "What? Rosie — "

      "Promise me. You're going to take my side, not Noah's," she begged. She started panicking and he could tell by the way she clawed at his shirt. "You're going to take my side, right? Please?"

      Tom nodded quickly before he pulled her head back into his shoulder. he started shushing her as her cries got more violent and louder. He clenched his eyes shut in an attempt to block it out. "I'll take your side, I'll always take your side, Rosie. Always."

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sethoconnor: but she always loved him, and that scared her.
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A/N;

I can't believe I'm updating again. What is my life coming to honestly? I blame this all on Sof, I don't know her reaction gets me hyped up

I'M SPOILING YOU GUYS WITH ANOTHER UPDATE AND THIS VIDEO OF ROSÉ SINGING IRRESISTIBLE BY BEYONCE AKA THE BEST THING TO EVER EXIST

https://youtu.be/fQfjtpAxFN0

Dedicated to luminite because her social media fanfics are honestly beautiful!

Much Love Guys.

( written: august 14, 2017 )
( published: august 14, 2017 )