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ROAD
CHAPTER THIRTY SEVEN
❝ARE ROADS MADE IN ADVANCE FOR US OR CAN WE MAKE OUR OWN, I DON'T KNOW. BUT HERE I AM WALKING ALONG IT AVAIN. WHY AM I STANDING ON THIS ROAD, IS THIS REALLY THE ROAD I SHOULD TAKE. WILL MY DREAM COME TRUE AT THE END OF THIS ROAD?❞

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      Rosé bowed her head apologetically as she began walking out of Tom's trailer. She smiled and greeted Camille with a cheek kiss and a small hug. "Hey Camille, it's so great to see you. I thought you were heading over to Hawaii," she attempted at a conversation. Even though every fiber in her body ached at the sight of the beautiful Camille Abbott. Almost as if the presence of this girl reminds her of everything she's not.

      Camille returned the gesture and forced a small smile on her face as she greeted her boyfriend's best friend. "I'm actually flying out tonight, but I thought I'd stop by and see Tom before I do," the model explained herself softly. She then greeted her boyfriend with a simple peck before he pulled her into a tight hug.

      A disruptive cough caught the couple's attention making them both looking over at Rosé with worry clouded in their eyes. Tom furrowed his eyebrows and patted her back as if to alleviate the irritation. "I told you to bring your inhaler with you," Tom complained as he rubbed her back. He sighed, "Just because you're fine now doesn't mean you shouldn't bring it with you."

      Said best friend simply nodded her head obediently. Tom half expected her to curse him out again, but to his surprise she did neither. Rosé bid him a farewell before speaking to Camille one last time, "It's so good to see you again, Cami. I hope you have a safe trip to Hawaii."

      When they were left alone Tom placed his attention solely on his girlfriend. He smiled and held her in his arms, his hands on her lower back. The actor leaned down and pressed a kiss on his girlfriend's forehead, closing his eyes and taking in the sweet scent of her perfume. Strawberries and sweet vanilla.

      "How was your flight bubs," he whispered as he placed his head on her shoulder, his face buried in the crook of her neck. Tom quickly pressed kisses against the soft, pale skin as Camille shuddered from the sensation. He couldn't help but smile proudly knowing that she was reacting like that because of him. He pulled away and brushed away the hair in front of her forehead to press another kiss on her forehead. "You look paler than usual, have you been eating alright?"

      "Dieting again. This time it's the low-card dieting and it's kicking my ass," Camille complained before she pouted her lips. Tom chuckled at the sight and kissed her nose earning a scrunch from the beautiful model. The actor shook his head as he held her closer, "That means you and I need to order takeout back to my room and stuff that cute belly of yours. Your manager isn't here, is she?"

      "No, told her I was going out for Starbucks or something."

      "Hopefully our quick date is longer than a trip to Starbucks, Miss Abbott."

      They were okay, at least that's what it seemed like to him. They should be okay, they should've been, and they weren't. The two have never gotten into larger fights that escalated into something terrible. The incident with Rosé wasn't even considered a fight, more like a misunderstanding. And that's what Tom loves about his relationship with Camille, their abilities to talk things out before things got any worse.

      In many ways it seems that they're the perfect couple, and they are. They're more than compatible with their burning love for dogs and tea. They're inability to not laugh at just anything, their habit of losing focus at the absolute worst time, and more. There was nothing more than Tom enjoyed than their late night blanket forts back in London or dog walks with Tessa and Mickey (her cute Great Dane), or even their stupid movie marathons for Harry Potter, Star Wars, even all the seasons of Gossip Girls.

      There should be no hick ups in this relationship of theirs.

      But he knew that look anywhere, that saddened expression that took over her cute face. Her lips would part as if she had something to say, but she couldn't find the right words. Her eyes would lower with sadness and hesitance, something he hated because Camille has always been an outspoken, bubbly girl. And that look of utter defeat that she wore sadly, almost as if she had fought a war and declared her surrender.

      "We need to talk." Those words were never a good sign of a happy reunion. Those were words that have burnt out relationships, ended the beating hearts of love, and suffocated the dying passion between two people. 

      Those were words that indicated the end.

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fdimensions1996:
i know we haven't talked in days and i'm sorry
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fdimensions1996:
because if i don't tell you this i think i'm gonna break and you need to know
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softtofu:
you're scaring me
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softtofu:
what's wrong
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softtofu:
what happened?
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fdimensions1996:
my girlfriend is here and i think we're going to break up
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fdimensions1996:
she's mad and upset and i know that
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fdimensions1996:
she thinks i'm going to break up with her
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softtofu:
are you?
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softtofu:
why would you want to break up with her?
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fdimensions1996:
because i think i like someone else and i have no idea what to do
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fdimensions1996:
please help me
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softtofu:
i don't think you should ask me for help theo
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softtofu:
are you happy with your girlfriend?
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fdimensions1996:
i still am
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fdimensions1996:
but this other girl also makes me happy
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fdimensions1996:
i like them both a lot and that's so messed up of me i know but i don't know what to do
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fdimensions1996:
do i continue dating this amazing girl who makes me feel so alive or pursue this girl who takes over my mind and tells me what i need to hear, even when she's not here
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softtofu:
theo why are you asking me this? how can i help you?
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softtofu:
i'm a terrible friend i know, but i don't know what to tell you
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softtofu:
i can try to help you but what do you want me to say?
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fdimensions1996:
tell me to break up with my girlfriend
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tell me that it's okay for me to feel this way
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theo i don't think i have the right to tell you that
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fdimensions1996:
you do
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fdimensions1996:
you have every right
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fdimensions1996:
because i like you reyna
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fdimensions1996:
like, like-like you, and i have no idea what to do
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fdimensions1996:
should i just break up with my girlfriend or should i not even bother and act as if this never happened
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softtofu:
stay with her
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softtofu:
don't pursue me
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softtofu:
i'm not worth it
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softtofu:
stay with her theo
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it's for the best i promise
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A/N;

I DON'T HAVE HOMEWORK TONIGHT SO I'M TRYING TO SQUEEZE IN AS MANY UPDATES AS I CAN SO HERE'S ONE OF THEM. ALSO, PLEASE LOOK AT THE 'VOTE FOR ME' PAGE AND HELP THIS BOOK WIN AT LEAST IN ONE OF THE CATEGORIES! I KNOW THERE ARE BIGGER BOOKS ALSO NOMINATED AND THAT BLURRED LINES DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE, BUT I HOPE TO AT LEAST TRY!

Dedicated to jasonsgraces! Thank you for the support, I appreciate it so so so much!

Much Love Guys.

( written: august 29, 2017 )
( published: august 29, 2017)