I am beyond stressed out. School begins in less than a week. The only people I know are the Cullens and they only have one more year. But hopefully I'll make some friends. This is Bella's last year too thank God. I can't help but stress about it. I'm starting to get cramps in my neck and in my back. "Why so tense baby cakes?" Emmett asks me. "Oh just stressing about school and all. My neck and my back are killing me." He walks over to me. "Want me to rub your back?" I nod. "Please don't break any of my bones." Emmett chuckled. He starts rubbing my shoulders. It hurts at first but then it gets gentle. I start to feel this awful pain in my heart. I'm not having a heart attack it just hurts. "Emmett my heart hurts." I say. "Do you need to go to a hospital?" He asks worried. I shake my head no. I start to realize I miss Jake. I know he did me dirty but I still love him. I need to see him. "Em I've made a terrible mistake. I need to go see Jake." I say. "If that's what you want to do then do it. If you think it's right then go." Emmett hugs me. I can tell he isn't mad by the tone in his voice. "You want me to take you?" He asks. "No. I think I'll run." And with that sentence I run off into the woods. I ran until my legs were sore. I've got to tell Jake I'm sorry. This is probably killing him to. No matter what it takes I've got to make this right. I run all the way to his house. I knock on the door. Mr. Black opens the door. "Hello Abby. My God what happened to your face?" I forgot about my scars. "Oh its nothing. Where is Jacob I need to see him." I choke out. I'm out of air. "You just missed him." Mr Black says. "Where did he go?" I ask. "He went to his sisters in Hawaii." My hand covers my mouth. "Do you know when he'll be back?" I ask. "He's spending the school year with her. He should be back next June." I hold back my tears. Oh Jacob. "May I go back to his room. I left something when I was here." I ask. "Of course." I walk back to Jake's room. I didn't leave anything I just wanted to take one of his shirts or something. I look on the bed and I see his old gray hoodie. I grab it and go back to the living room. "Bye Mr Black." He waves bye. I go back to my house. Aunt M greets me. "Hey my favorite niece." She says. "Hey aunt m. I'm going to go up stairs. I don't feel to good." She nods and says she'll check on me later. I go up to my room and get out paper and pencil. I fill out an envelope with Jake's sisters address. I'm going to write him a letter. I can't wait till next June to talk to him. I start the letter
Dear Jacob,
Where do I start? I am so so sorry for everything I've done. I don't care about you kissing Bella. Maybe the only reason Emmett and I kissed was because I missed you. My heart is hurting and I need you. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. But no matter what happens I want you to know I am and always love you. Anyway have fun in Hawaii.
Love Abby. Ps. I stole your grey hoodie. I put it in the envelope and take it out to the mail box. Before I put it in I kiss it. I go back inside and lay on my bed and wait.
**ONE WEEK LATER**
Today is my first day at my new school. I'm over filled with joy. NOT! I've got Jake's hoodie on. Jordan is letting me ride with him to school. On the way he asks "You ready for school?" I nod. The truth is I'm not ready. All I can think about is Jake. I wonder if he got my letter yet. We pull up at school. I get out of the car and grab my stuff. I take a long look at the school and take a deep breath. "Ok Forks High. Here I come." I walk straight into the school unaware of my future here. I'm also unaware of my future with Jacob.