A day before Anjalis marriage

Siddharths POV

It's Sinking in finally. I may not meet Anjali ever in my life. May be this is my fate. Our fate. We were not destined to be together. We were not meant to be. It's her marriage tomorrow. I don't know what she will be going through now. Definitely she'll be sad. But soon she'll realise what she did was right. I know she will be mad at me. And now she hates me more than anyone. i never ever want to go in front of her. But my heart is leading to me somewhere. May be it's an eager. To see her after 6 years.

I looked at the gift box I've kept for her. It was the same saree which I brought for her that day. Amma compiled me to go and meet her atleast for the last time. I felt it right. She would definitely slap me at the moment. I don't have the guts to face her. But I'll definitely go. Atleast to get a glimpse of her.

I took out the letter from my pocket. My last letter for her. I controlled my tears while writing these. I read it almost 100 times again and again to know whether I have ever hurted her with words. I read it again.

Dear Anjali ,

I want you to remain calm when you read this letter. If possible be calm afterwards too. I know Anjali. Ive done a big mistake. A very big mistake. I let myself go in flow even after knowing that I'm doing a very big mistake. Im sorry. I'm really very sorry. That's all I can say. I know you are angry with me. And you never want to see my face again in your life. Trust me. You won't see me again. Im writing this letter to inform you something. I'm leaving to Delhi for rest of my training. And I may not return back to Hyderabad. This was my last visit. I'm leaving Ma in my uncle's home. She's weak and tired. I feel guilty that I couldn't look after her like the way she wanted. Believe me Anjali. Things would get worse if I stay here anymore.
You're father was right. I'm a soldier. My life is for my country. And I feel proud for that. You'll be never be happy if you are with me. I cant see another Samaira in you. So no tears. Be a good girl.
Naveen is a nice guy. I got to know many things about him. He's lucky to get you. He'll look after you better than anyone else. I'm leaving you here with your parents and Naveen.
No parents will wish to see their daughter as a widow. I'm not upset with your father. Indeed he have all the rights to take every decision in your life. That's all he did.
You're in my heart forever Anjali and no one can take your place there. Youre the only girl I loved. And I'll do so till my last breath.

Happy married life. Take care. And keep your charming smile always.

Love Siddharth.

I let my tears flow. Ma stormed inside the room. I immediately wiped my tears and tried looking normal.

"Siddhu. You didn't go yet?"

"Just leaving Ma"

I folded the letter and kept it inside my pocket. I took the gift box and got up to leave. Ma came forward and held my hands

"Are you doing the right thing"

I nodded my head and smiled. Ma side - hugged me tightly

"You be happy always. Okay? That's all I want" she said. I hugged her back.

"I know ma. I'm following my mind more than my heart. "

She nodded and smiled.

"You're getting late siddhu. Better go early."
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I walked inside the big mansion which was completely decorated. Anjalis relatives stood in different corners. All of them engrossed in a conversation and seemed to be happy. My eyes searched for her everywhere. To get a glimpse of her. I didn't find her anywhere. In fact I found Krishna uncle , looking at me with a hell shocked expression. I know what he'll be thinking. Why I'm here now. An uninvited guest. That too his daughters lover here in her house a day before her marriage.

Krishna uncle excused himself from his friends and came towards me hurriedly.

"Siddharth" he said surprised "when did you come?"

"Last week uncle"

He took me aside and we both sat on his living room. I was silent. He was scared. I know why.

"Uncle I.."

"When are you going back?" He asked intrepting me.

"Day after tomorrow." I said. He nodded.

"I..came to meet Anj.."

"See Siddharth. I don't want to create a scene here. I know why you came here. Anjali had moved on in her life. Wish her happiness. She had got over you. Now meeting you will undo everything. Tomorrow is her marriage. I want my daughter to be happy always. You're good Siddharth. Not that I don't like you. But you should understand me. As a father."

I took few deep breaths.

"What you want me to do?" I asked.

"Please don't ever come in front of my daughter ever again. She's happy with her new life. "

I nodded.

"I just came to give her this" i said forwarding the box to him. He took them in his hands.

" I don't want to spoil her life uncle. I just came to meet her for the last one time thats all. I should leave now. Convey my wishes to her"

He nodded. I looked up for the one last time in the hope of meeting her. Nothing happened.

I took steps towards the entrance. I fought back tears.

Bye Anjali Krishnamoorthy...

As I walked out. First heavy drop of rain hit my cheeks. Soon it began to rain. Was this our fate? I didn't knew. But something held me back in taking steps ahead.

I heard a loud yell from her house. Everyone rushed inside to check what has happened.

"Anjali... Anjali.."

That's all i could hear. I didn't stir from my position. The rain started pouring down. My heart beat raised. Without thinking once or twice i ran inside to check what happened.

"Whats wrong?"

"Anjali had cut her veins"
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After 6 years I saw her. Lying in a pool of blood almost lifeless. My heart stopped beating at the moment I saw her. My hands started shivering. I felt my knees going weak. When I lifted her in my arms. I wished she would open her eyes and look at me.

What the hell did you do Anjali?

I cursed myself more and more when she lay on my lap. Her blood stains sticked to my hands and shirt.

Why God? What sin did i do.?

When they took her inside the operation theatre. Her strong hold in my hands reminded me that she's the reason why I'm living now. I love you Anjali. Don't do this to me. Please come back to me.

I saw her whole family around. Hoping and praying for her. I saw Naveen. He was equally tensed.

Why on earth I've decided to leave my love alone?

I didn't knew

Minutes passed into hours. My eyes glued to the operation theatre. I just want her back. No matter whatever happens. She's mine.

The room door opened. And the doctor came outside. Everyone including Naveen got up.

"How's she?" I asked before anyone could utter something. I saw krishna uncle's gaze on me. I ignored him.

"She's fine. Thank God that you brought her here at the right time. Otherwise we couldn't do anything."

A sigh of relief passed over me
That's all I wanted.

"Can I meet her?" Anjalis mom asked through tears.

"Yeah. But only one. And please don't disturb her now. She may be regaining her consciousness within sometime"

The doctor left. I stood still. Anjalis mom stepped forward. But krishna uncle stopped her. Then he came towards me and held my shoulder.

"Go Siddharth. She needs you" he said.

For a moment I couldn't believe my ears. I because deaf all over.

"I failed to understand my daughter. I forced her for a life which she didn't want. I never thought that she'll never be happy again"

Tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Go Siddharth" he said.

I looked back to Naveen. He looked at me smiled and nodded his head. I smiled back and opened the door
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I saw her lying in the bed unconscious. I took heavy steps besides her. Broken , i sat besides her and held her hands. Tears rolled down my cheeks which fell on her hands. She stirred from the sleep which made me alert. She moaned and struggled to open her eyes. And when she passed her eyes across me. I felt the whole world had stopped. I saw her eyes shining with tears. I couldn't stop my tears too.

I didn't knew that our first meeting after 6 years will turn out like this.

"Siddharth" She sounded low

I couldn't hold back anymore i pulled her towards me and hugged her tightly. She hugged me back ducking her face in my neck.

I thought I would have so much to say when she gains sense. I would scold her. Shout at her. And say how much I love her. And i couldn't live without her. And I could be happy only if she remains happy.

But not a word came out from my mouth. I hugged her as tight as I can. Her tears made me go weak.

"Siddharth" she said again

"Shut up. Stupid girl you're. What the hell did you try to do? Huh"

"Siddharth..I.."

"Shh! Shut up and Hug me tightly"

She smiled through tears.

"I'm sorry" she said hugging me more tightly

I broke the hug and held her chin. Our eyes locked. She stared at me. I caressed her face

"Siddharth" she said again.

"I love you Anjali. Please never ever go leaving me. I can't live without you. I never can't.."

She cried again and held my cheeks.

"I won't. I promise I won't"

We hugged again.

"I love you Siddharth" she said placing her head in my chest.

"I love you more" i said hugging her tightly.

I always wondered where life is leading us. When I felt i may loose everything around me. Little doors of hopes opened up. And I travelled through the path which was destined for me. With her. My love. And that was my journey.

My journey towards her

♡ Nila ♡