Stella's POV:

The raindrops were already beginning to evaporate into what were the light, distant clouds of summer time.

I'd wear shorts once in a while, and thanked the sun for making me look like a normal teenage girl and not like the pale vampire-looking Stella I'd always been.

Moving to New York had probably been the best decision of my life.

Nevertheless, there were some things I missed about England every now and then.

But I could always travel with Harry.

It was quite ironic, really, how Harry was the one I'd been trying to get away from yet here I am, dating him.

Yeah, we hadn't really told anyone because of the hate and lack of privacy.

Well, the increased amount of hate, since I had already started getting tons of it.

We'd been going out for two months but it felt wrong sometimes.

And it was also quite ironic how the person I tried to get away from is the one person who will take me to England, the one place I tried to get away from.

But at the end, life is always surprising you.

I'd lost Ty, the one thing I did want.

My first, and only best friend wasn't my best friend anymore, and it was my fault.

Sometimes I'd cry at night, frustrated because I'd imagine a thousand other ways this whole situation could've turned out to be if it wasn't for that stupid mistake I'd made.

Not that kissing Harry was a mistake, but I felt I'd led Ty on and then just burst his bubble of hope.

In all sincerity, I did like Ty. And the only reason he hadn't kissed me was because I'd always back out, while I let Harry kiss me without hesitation.

I was drowning in this ocean of confusion and the worst part is I had no one to go to for advice.

Sure, I could go to Ann, but I needed Jane.

It had been nearly three months and she still wasn't allowed to see anyone.

I was starting to think maybe this wouldn't work out for Harry and I.

But I wouldn't know.

Ty and I hadn't talked at all, and when I saw him at Starbucks yesterday with Ann, something inside me boiled.

But it was my fault.

I'd hurt him. And now him and Ann were probably together.

Or at least that's what it looked like.

I'd tell Ann a few things, but I never told her how Harry asked me out. I didn't trust her enough. I know she tells most of the things to Ty, and I didn't want Ty to find out.

It would just hurt him more.

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"I'm going to to see if I can talk to her today." I said, looking into the camera.

"Well I hope she's better. I'm sure she'll be fine. She's strong." Harry said, giving me an encouraging smile.

I wish I could hug him. But I couldn't. He was a couple thousand miles away.

"Yeah I hope." I said, my tone emotionless.

"Man, I wish I could be there for you." He said and I just faked a smile.

"It's not your fault. I'm fine, I've got friends." I lied.

The truth was, I had friends but none of them knew about Jane or my past. Ty was the only person who knew.

I had no one to go to.

"Well talk to you later, I've gotta get going. Bye Harry."

"Bye Stella. I miss you."

"Miss you too."

And then I ended the call.

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I walked in the hospital, the same sickening feeling making its way to my stomach like every other time I visited this place.

I hated the fact Jane had to spend every single day in this place. It wasn't fair.

She didn't deserve this. No one does.

"Kelsey, let me see her." I demanded.

Kelsey was the one at the front desk, always telling me I couldn't see Jane.

I had had enough of that.

I don't care what they tell me, I'm going to see my sister.

"Stella, she can't s-"

"No. I'm not putting up with this anymore. I haven't seen her in months and she's my sister. Let me see her now."

I said angrily.

She looked quite shocked at the way I had spoken to her, since I'm always so polite and quiet.

But not this time.

"I'm sorry but I can't. If you want to speak to the doctor-" She started, but I started walking away.

I ran to her room and barged into it without a care in the world. I had to see her.

The second I saw her, part of me regretted walking in.

Tears formed in my eyes.

She looked worse than ever, if that's even possible.

"J-Jane?" I said, almost whispering, afraid that if I spoke too loudly she might just break.

She smiled weakly, her eyes barely open.

"Stella, hi. What are you doing here? You're not supposed to see me." She said.

"No. I had to come. I needed to see you. I miss you." I said, my voice shaky.

She just looked at me.

I walked over to her and held her hand.

Her eyes screamed pain, but her features were calm.

I knew she wouldn't make it. We both knew it.

"I don't want to lose you." I said, my tone emotionless.

We were both silent for about twenty minutes.

Suddenly, I noticed her eyes struggled to stay open.

I looked at her heart beat monitor and realized it started slowing down.

I realized my  heart beat started speeding up.

Fear filled me up and I quickly stood up.

"Jane no, don't do this. Stay with me please." I pleaded, although I knew my words were no help.

"I-I'm sorry." She whispered, almost so quietly I wasn't sure if she said it.

I studied her features more closely, and it hurt me seeing her this way. So pale, almost like if life had been sucked out of her.

"Stella, I think I'm not going to make it." She admitted and my throat tightened, trying to fight back the urge to cry.

"Please no, I'm so sorry I couldn't save you." I said.

"You're strong. It's not your fault. I love you Stella. You made all these months a lot better." She said, and I tried to fake a smile but this time I was too upset to even fake it.

I wiped away the tears from her face softly.

I suddenly felt a pang of anger hit me.

I was mad at my parents for not telling me. I was mad at the doctors for not letting me see her more often, for not saving her.

Weren't doctors supposed to know how to save people? They were liars.

They didn't know how to cure cancer. If they did, Jane wouldn't be dying.

I was mad because Jane wasn't going to be here with me anymore.

But I was even madder at myself for being so selfish.

Jane was probably having a much harder time than me. She was the one who was sick, not me.

She was probably even more frustrated because the doctors didn't save her. She didn't have any company when I wasn't there by her side.

At this point, I'm sure she wanted all of this to be over. She probably just wants all the pain gone. All the loneliness, and constant fighting against this horrible sickness to be all over with.

And yet here I am, feeling pity for myself because I want her to stay with me.

That's Stella for you.

"Stella..." She started.

I looked at her, waiting for her to finish.

"I love you." Was all she said, before her eyes shut.

All I heard after that was a beep. I looked at the heart beat monitor, only to find a straight line across the screen.

The sound of that beep was something I'll never forget.

It brought peace to my sister, but it brought such sadness to my heart it cannot be explained.

"I love you too." I whispered, before breaking into silent sobs.

Jane was gone, and this time I couldn't bring her back.

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THIS IS SO SAD IM SO SORRY FOR KILLING JANE I THINK IM GONNA CRY

BUT HERES THE NEXT CHAPPY I HOPE U SORTA LIKED IT DESPITE THE SADNESS

I WAS HAVING TERRIBLE WRITERS BLOCK SO I APOLOGIZE TO ANYONE WHOS ACTUALLY READING THIS

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