August 31st

In this day and age, one of the most well loved and important things is technology. We let it rule us and everything we do. We carry our phones around in our back pockets and we are always on them. We are so impatient that we can not even wait five minutes for the lunch bell to ring. No, we feel the need to pull out that phone to text our questions. Our comments. Our concerns. It drives our teachers crazy. Hell, it drives me crazy but I'm no different than anybody else.

See that's the thing. Everyone in this society is always fighting to be different. We are all trying to prove that we are something we are not. That we are different. The funny thing is, those who try hardest to be different end up doing, wearing, and acting along with the crowd. Or, at leasts that's what I've noticed. We wear the same shoes, the same jeans, the same hoodies and so on and so on. It's just what we do. I'm pretty sure all humans do it, but I am also pretty sure that no other animals care.

Society. It's all in how we act and how we look to them. The other people around us. Not how we look to ourselves. This is why things like mental illness are quite often overlooked. Because no one wants to be accused of being weak or having any weaknesses at all. But society rules over all. A girl cannot be anything in this society if she doesn't wear the right clothes. Or talk the right way. Or have a boyfriend. But even if she does have a boyfriend is it the right boyfriend? Or is it some scum that nobody really likes because that does not actually count somehow. Being a girl in this society is more than just difficult. I'm pretty sure it's practically impossible.

Anyways, I plan on studying that this year on the side. How people react and things like that. You know, aside from all my other classes. English is my favorite subject. I love to write. My friends say it's like my drug. And thats why I am starting this journal. Because I want to keep up with my writing. Just remember, I never said I was particularly good at it.

Junior year here I come,

-Kay