Today fucking sucked. Today actually fucking sucked. Why? Because today I think I lost my very best friend. No, not kyle...but Olivia. It seems to be a thing about Olivias. None of them can be trusted. All of them are secretly hiding an ugly self behind a beautiful mask of... ok ok I know its a bit much but I'm upset ok? Really fucking angry because she just does not understand. She doesn't understand that she's the one in the wrong here and no matter how many times I try to explain it she just doesn't get it. It isn't about kyle. Not anymore. It's about the not listening. The stuff that makes me feel like she doesn't care at all. How she's backing away and just not being truthful. And I know this isn't on her but also how so maniy ofhters have left me this year because there are good things happening to me. Yes, I kay finally had some good stuff happen in my life. I know I'm a stupid, ungrateful undeserving little brat but please, everyone deserves some good right? I just don't understand why everyone has to up and leave. Thankfully Alyx and Kyle are on my side. Im starting to think that all girls suck and I should just have guys for friends from here on out. Yeah... sounds like a plan...Imma cry now...

~Kay