Kyle is really fucking hot whether he wants to admit it or not. Kyle, that picture you sent that you complained you were ugly, ugh, it literally like I could just kiss you then and there. I don't really want to because I'm scared. But Kyle if those eyes wanted to make out with me id be all like yeah baby boy Kyle lets go because I don't care at all anymore you're just actually that hot. When I look at Kyle I just feel myself immediately looking into Kyle's eyes. They're just so gorgeous and Kyle y. I feel like I'm falling through Kyle's soul but like, I don't need the ground. Unless the ground happens to be in Kyle's arms. In which case, heart start beating a thousand times a second cuz I would love to sit on Kyle's lap. Even though I did not at lunch. I don't really know if Kyle wants me to or not. I just want to cuddle with Kyle. I hope Kyle can come over very soon. And I hope that someday I can convince Kyle to take my first kiss away from me. I would take good care of Kyle's first kiss and I know that Kyle would take good care of mine. I want so badly to just taste Kyle's yummy looking plump lips. I want to give those lips of Kyle's the love that they deserve. I want to cherish that moment forever when it finally happens. If it happens, I think Kyle would have to become more comfortable with cuddling and hugging first. And he's so damn hot. I honestly wish that he would flirt with me sometimes. My boo I am going to call you my boo now cuz that a cute pet nick name thing. Cutie my ass he's just everything. He's so gorgeous. Such a gorgeous boy Kyle is. But a man. A man sounds way more hot. And Kyle is hot. I don't like to think of guys as hot but he is. And I wish he could see that. But hey at least he's not totally full of himself He's my kitty. Cuz sometimes he wants attention and to cuddle and is all up in your face but he's also really independent and grumpy and wanted to be left alone. .but seriously I don't think we would ever get married. But also I think I'm too yeeks for that, ill admit if I didn't like Kyle id probably let myself get to know that girl and flirt with her a bit but I'm just not interested. I have everything I need with Kyle. My baby boy. My bitch ass. My friend. My everything. My almost boy friend. Always and forever a space between those two because that is probably the way it should be. I love him. My Kyle. Forever. I want to be his. But I want that to be our thing. Not what someone else tells us. I don't want to be property. And I can still be his without being property. I want to be me. Just me. But not just mine. Ill share a bit of myself with him. This is weird now...

We drive eachother nuts, we really do I know that. It's kind of maddening but at the same time I feel like we learn from it i don't feel like writing at all anymore...

Night

-kay