October

I saw him today. I did I really did. Kyle. And oh my goodness I feel like crying. I don't know what to do he was talking with my other best friend, Olivia. Well I guess Kyle isn't my best friend. So I shouldn't call him that. Anyways Olivia and him were talking at lunch. I didn't even know he was coming to lunch. They were standing in the corner and talking in hushed voices when I walked by. Olivia saw me, but then she grabbed Kyle by the arm and dragged him down behind her. She smiled and waved at me, but I don't know if he even knew I walked by... What did I do? Did I do something wrong? Is there something going on that I don't know about that I should? I don't want to go to the lunchroom anymore. I think I'll just skip and hang out in the bathrooms if my friends are going to betray my like that. It's really not fair that I should have to put up with this shit, cuz I shouldn't. I really don't. Maybe I'll just give up on everything. On everyone. Maybe I'll just quit and lose myself in my music forever. Maybe I'll just be done. This is all so stupid anyways. I don't really want to deal with this anymore. I just want to be done. Maybe it's time to just move on and leave the past where it belongs...in the past.

Welcome to the real part of Junior year.

Kay