When her life falls apart, a young woman is pulled into an intense journey of passion, mysticism, and self-discovery in Drake's haunting novel. Three years after losing her scholarship and being disowned for loving the wrong girl, a young woman is starting over with nothing: no name, no money, and no sense of who she's meant to become. A chance meeting with an unassuming librarian leads her into a world of arcane knowledge and erotic ritual, where the line between teacher and lover begins to dissolve.

The world of this BDSM romance is symbolic, fluid, and psychologically charged. Scenes take place in dreamlike interiors, timeless chambers, and a crumbling version of 1980s Ohio, all stitched together by hunger—for knowledge, for freedom, for wholeness. The BDSM dynamic between student and teacher isn't merely provocative; it is where the novel confronts its most urgent questions. With graphic scenes of edge play, including blood and breath control, the novel doesn't shy away from discomfort but uses it to probe deeper issues: Can surrender be a path to sovereignty? Can pain unlock transcendence? Names shift. Roles blur. The protagonist remains unnamed, mirroring her fluid identity and resistance to easy definition. The story's queerness, chronic pain, and spiritual urgency pulse beneath every ritual and philosophical exchange. At its heart, this is a novel that asks not just what we're willing to suffer for truth, but who we must become to survive it.

Uncompromising, dense, and erotically charged.