Hello everyone! :D

Yes, this chapter gets a little personal, but it is important, so if you want to skip it, you might miss out on some important things .w.

So, without further ado, 

The Reason I Haven't Been Writing.

So, you all probably noticed that my uploads were getting slower and slower until it eventually just flat out stopped.

WELL, There is a reason for that .w.

((WARNING: VENT (I haven't done this before so I'm not sure if this counts as a vent??)))

1. I have been moving! :D 

2. Internet was scarce for a while until we finally got some ^-^'

3. YOU KNOW THAT TIME OF YEAR-- EXAMS AND PROJECTS MAH DUDES--

4. And, finally, this topic (which was the most impacting and personal), My love life.

"WAIT," EXCLAIMS THE READER READING THIS, "DARK HAS A LOVE LIFE OUTSIDE OF COFFEE LUVING SLOTHS??"

Yes, I do.

Buuuuut it's not what you think XD

(I've also been getting headaches and allergies because pollen just loves me -w-)

BUT ANYWAYS,

MY LOVE LIFE!

YAY, LET'S GET DA DIRT--

OR SO YOU THOUGHT---

I don't have one .w.

That's the thing .www.

At my age, people are starting to get hooked up and get together as couples.

HOWEVER, I, DA MAJESTIC AND BOOTIFUL DARK, HAVE NOT PARTAKEN IN ANY SUCH ACTIVITY.

UNTIL THE SECOND HALF OF 2017.

OHOHOHO, YES, SOMETHING DID HAPPEN!

BUT IT WAS A BAD THING D:

Long story short, someone confessed they had feelings for me.

I accepted.

then immediately broke up afterwards .w.

theeeen that person got really depressed and that made me sad too ;w;

IT'S REALLY COMPLICATED--

"DARK!" SAYS THE READER. "WHY WOULD YOU ACCEPT A CONFESSION, BUT THEN IMMEDIATELY DROP IT LIKE IT'S HOT??"

WELL READER, HERE IS THE THING:

I still think I'm too young to even hook up .w.

At my maturity level, I consider myself still at the age of immaturity.

Back then, I thought I was mature enough.

BUT OHOHOHO, NOPE.

Our 'relationship' only lasted a day and in that day, I say I handled it rather poorly.

See, my idea of a relationship is kind of different from everyone else's, you know?

From what I've seen and asked, many of the people around me imagination relationships with complete devotion and treatment, putting your partner in a high pedestal than everyone else, and being able to do things couples do (hold hands, kiss, etc).

Love to me?

It's something that doesn't have to do anything with kissing, holding hands, etc.

I find that love is the same thing with trusting another person with basically who you are as a person.

You have to find the right person to trust because you never know when they will betray you.

(that's probably why I highly dislike the love at first sight cliche--)

I don't know, my perspective is really hard to explain. 

But, back to the confession,

It was kind of one sided.

This person, which has known me for a long time, extended their own trust and basically all they were to me.

And I, in response, was supposed to do the same.

However, I didn't.

So, our relationship suffered and things have been going downhill from there.

Now, how does this contribute to my writing?

Well,

I write mostly romance on this account .w.

So, every time I sit down at my computer, completely ready to start a new chapters, I hesitate and stop writing because... well, I'm reminded of all that.

(Also, writers block is a big meanie .w.)

That's what I wanted to get off my chest.

It's been personal to me and has been honestly been dragging me down since the end of 2017.

I hope to move past this dread as fast as I can, but it won't be easy.

I just hope you all will still look forward to the chapters that will come.

Thank you for listening.

-Dark

(p.s. sloth is still best sloth, so hai pepe x333)