CANCER Dying!Armin X Reader
Sorry if my Armin is a little OOC. (out of character) He isn't my favorite, but I do love him. I find him hard to write, that's why I don't have an Armin one shot. I'll try my best to make this good.
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"You know I always said that I'd end myself if I ever came to the point where I needed someone to change my diaper." He managed to say in between shaky breaths.
I looked down at my hand which were holding his. Only a few months ago we had gotten married. Shortly after that he was diagnosed with stage three pancreatic cancer. It progressed faster than the doctors thought it would. He went through so many intense chemotherapy treatments, yet none of them have helped. That was why he was laying on his death bed telling you to pull the plug. He had morphine in a drip bag to try and relieve his pain. What he wanted me to do was make the drip flow faster into his bloodstream. It would slowly put him into a coma and kill him.
"Armin. . . I-I don't want to do this. . . But I don't want to see you in pain anymore." I cried and watched tears fall onto our connected hands. I couldn't live with the fact of killing my husband. He met the world to me and losing him to cancer was enough, but killing him was worse. I couldn't do it. I'd report myself to the authorities if anything.
His tired eyes looked into mine. The bags under his eyes were worse than yesterday. He hardly sleeps anymore, and neither do I. All I did was sit next to his bed and help out when the nurse comes.
"(F/N). Don't do this for you, do it for me. Please." I saw a tear run down his face. He really wanted me to do this; to end this.
I managed to avoid his gaze. It broke my heart to see him ever more broken. I knew that I had to do this so he could be at peace. Did he expect me to move on and find love again? I didn't know, but I did know that it would be a long time until I loved someone again the say way I loved Armin. He was my world, my life. He helped me with all my problems since we were kids. Everyone knew that we were going to get married, but no one expected him to be diagnosed with cancer at such a young age and not be able to survive it.
"Fine. I'll do it," my voice shook and my breathing was erratic. "I love you, Armin." I leaned forward and planted a kiss on his forehead and then his lips. It was a sweet kiss like one you give for your first kiss with a partner. We both cherished it as tears spilt down both of our faces. They mingled and mixed into a salty puddle of wet love.
I pulled my face away from his to look him in the eyes once more. "I love you too," I smiled at his heart wrenching, bitter sweet words. "I want you to find new love. Don't forget about me, but I want you to be happy. I love you so much. I wish I didn't have to leave you so soon." His voice was shakier than before and it broke my heart more.
I stood up from his hospital bed and walked over to his IV drip. He closed his eyes and tried to relax as I looked at his frail body one more time. My hand reached for the bag and the drip line. I turned it to the highest that it could drip. It seemed like it was going to flood his blood. Just before he was completely out, I walked back to his bed and gave him one last loving kiss. A goodbye kiss. I secretly wished that it was me on my death bed instead of him, but it was his time and we had to accept that.
When I knew that he was info his coma, I walked out of his room and out of the hospital. I didn't want to look bad. There was no way that I could. This was too painful. 'Don't look back. Accept it.' Rang in my head. It was done. Over with, but somehow I felt as if there was still more to come out of this. Whatever it was could wait because I was stressed and didn't want to deal with anything after that.
As I got into my car I let one final tear fall. I looked up iont the sky and said, "I love you, Armin. Please watch over me."
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I feel that was kind of bad. I'm sorry. Please forgive me.
I kind of got the idea from Life Is Strange. (If you have heard of the video game) You'd have to play it to understand.
But feedback please! Thank you! Love you guys!!!
Oh. Sorry it was short.
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