Chapter 18

'Knock..knock..'

"Hey newlyweds, wake up, I made breakfast! I have to go to the office! Jin, Jungkookkkkk!!!" Jimin shouted from outside Jin's bedroom door.

Jungkook slowly opened his eyes and smiled, looking at the side where Jin was sleeping in his arms hugging him.

"Jin wake up"

"Hmm" Jungkook kissed Jin's forehead and slowly lifted Jin's head and laid it on the pillow, he got up and washed his face in the bathroom.

Looking at himself in the mirror while imagining what happened last night made him smile.

"Jungkook.." Jin woke up when he felt his side empty.

"I'm here" Jungkook shouted from the bathroom, not long after the door opened and there was Jin there with his messy hair, his lips pouting while rubbing his eyes, making Jungkook smile.

"Look at my boyfriend, so cute even when he just woke up" He pulled Jin's arm bringing his body towards him. They stood in front of the mirror and Jungkook hugged him from behind, resting his head on Jin's shoulder.

Jin only wore his sleeping pants, no shirt on his body making the hickey clearly visible there, Jin looked at Jungkook through the mirror and suddenly tears fell down his cheeks.

"Hey what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Jungkook immediately turned Jin's body and grabbed his arm.

"I..I'm disgusted to see myself in the mirror" Jin dropped his head on Jungkook's shoulder and Jungkook immediately hugged him, rubbing his back gently

"What are you talking about Jin?"

"He touched me... he—"

"Ssh.. only I can touch you, is it because of your hickey? you feel disgusted with yourself?" Jin just nodded.

"Jin, you know why I love you?" Jin shook his head.

"Because you are different from the others, I know these words don't mean anything, but it's the truth, the first time I saw you at that time, I was sure you were the end of my life story, that difference that completes me, sorry that in the past as long as we were dating I too indifferent to our relationship and not good at communicating, many problems occur but I just ignore and don't care, I run away from the problem and make our relationship fall apart. But I realized after breaking up with you, I couldn't do it alone, I didn't lose half of me, I lost you, you were that important to me Jin and when you accepted Tae as your fiancé, I was devastated, I felt I had no reason to live because you were the one- my only life. The only person I want to spend time with. I'm angry, I did a stupid thing to leave you and choose to move to America. But that day, when you came to help me, the day you said you loved me, the day we first had sex, I realized that's where I belong, with you in happy and sad whatever it is I will spend my time with you"

After expressing all his feelings, Jungkook didn't hear any answer from Jin, he thought Jin was asleep but when he wanted to let go of his hug, Jin held him and hugged him back very tightly.

"Since when did you learn to talk all this time?"

Jungkook just laughed a little at the question.

"Then wash your face and have breakfast together." Jungkook let go of his hug and pecked Jin's forehead.

Just as Jungkook was about to get out of the bathroom, Jin grabbed his hand, making him stop and turn his head towards him.

"Thank you"

"For what?"

"You are here for me"

"With pleasure Jin" Jungkook kissed Jin's hand and left him in the bathroom.

After finishing breakfast they sat together on the sofa cuddling each other while watching a movie.

"Jungkook"

"Hmm"

"When are you coming back to America? You can't stay here, surely this will make your work pile up there"

"Maybe later tonight I will coming back to America, do you mind?"

"Hmm, of course, I don't want you to leave, I still miss you, but.. I can't be selfish by forcing my wishes, you promised to come back soon so I'll be waiting for you"

Jungkook kissed Jin's head which was leaning against his chest.

"Jin, I'll be back as soon as I get back, how about we prepare for our wedding?"

Jin woke up from breaking free from Jungkook's arms, looking at him seriously.

"Are you kidding?"

"No, I thought we discussed this last night."

"You asked me to marry you after having sex, I thought—"

"Am I kidding?" Jin just nodded.

"I didn't give you a ring like Tae, but I already tied your heart with this" Jungkook pointed at the necklace around Jin's neck.

"Jungkook.." Jin hugged Jungkook tightly.

"Why are you being this romantic? how can I live without you if you are like this?" Jin dives his head into Jungkook's neck.

"Then stay with me, stay with each other." Jin nodded.

Suddenly the sound of the bell ruined their romantic scene, as soon as they turned towards the door, the sound of the bell kept ringing. Jungkook decided to go and open the door while Jin was still sitting in his living room staring at Jungkook.

When Jungkook opened the door his eyes opened wide when he saw someone standing in front of him, it was Taehyung.

"HOW DARE YOU COME HERE!" Jungkook grabbed Tae's collar.

"Where's Jin? I have to meet him, I have to apologize to him"

"NEVER MEET HIM!"

"Jungkook listen to me, I know I was wrong, I was drunk and—"

"Jungkook..Tae?" Jin stood behind Jungkook looking at Taehyung.

"Jin.. I'm sorry Jin"

"Jin come in" Jungkook gave the order, but Jin just stared at Tae with tears in his eyes.

"Jin!!" When Jungkook turned to Jin, he saw Jin crying silently.

"Let go of him Jungkook" Jin said in his weak voice.

"But-"

"Let him go, let him talk" Jungkook took off Tae's collar, and Tae went straight to Jin, holding his hands in front of Jungkook.

Without saying anything, Jungkook went to Jin's room and left the two of them with anger on his face.

"Speak"

"Jin I'm sorry, I was drunk that night, I was angry, I was disappointed that you chose Jungkook and canceled our wedding plans, I love you Jin, I can't live without you, I want to be with you, please give me a chance, I will fix everything, I promise" Tae cried while holding Jin's hand, when he wanted to approach Jin to hug him, but Jin stepped back.

"Stop, Tae what about me? You love me, you can't live without me, you want to be with me, but what about me? I love Jungkook, I also can't live without him, I want to be with him. I know I was wrong to give you access to my heart that day, I admit that at that time I was jealous of Jungkook. You're a good man Tae, so good that I didn't have enough reason to leave you, but there was one strong reason to let you go at that time, your child and that girl. I don't know how you guys are behind me, I also don't know how your past is, but I know they need you Tae, at least your son needs you and you can't be here with me, I forgive you, but if you come here to ask me back, I can't. i'm sorry"

"Jin-"

"Tae you have to go, we're over. Don't hurt yourself by keeping your hopes up on me, because I can't live up to your expectations."

"I love you Jin" Tae held Jin's hand and kissed it, his tears wet Jin's hand.

"Go Tae, be happy for me" Jin approached Tae and hugged him, but when Tae wanted to return the hug Jin immediately let go.

They stared at each other until Tae finally left Jin's house. Jin immediately knelt down and cried, covering his face with both hands. Until Jungkook came out of the room and approached him, embracing his shoulder making Jin drop himself onto Jungkook's body.

"I hurt him Jungkook" Jungkook just silent hearing it.

"I hurt him!"

"You regret hurting him? you..you still love him right?"

Jin woke up with his words and looked at Jungkook.

"Why did you tell him to leave if you can't hurt him?" Jungkook looked at Jin with teary eyes.

"Jungkook.. it's not like that, I.. I didn't mean—"

"Meet him if you regret it, I want to get some fresh air" Jungkook got up and before he left Jin held his hand

"Jungkook, where are you going? listen to me, I don't regret anything, it's not what you think"

"I don't think about anything" Jungkook chuckled and pulled his hand and go away from Jin's house.