I never knew ,with losing him

I will lose myself .

With all stupid things I have done ,

He was one big mistake of my life .

His words were sugar ,

But they now taste bitter .

The games he played , made

My trust on trust to shatter .

I am so broken now ,

cannot find the pieces of my heart .

He threw them away easily

Like it was some dirt .

His presence in my life

just like phantom rains .

He was half my fantasy , half deception

Felt like we were in opposite trains .

Had a feeling this will not last ,

But still I gave everything .

I pity myself , even when expected

It hurts , aches , pains and it does sting .