AMBERS POV******~~

Being in a room filled with people you dont know is scary. Every one was looking at me like they'd known me. I was relieved when i saw Michael. It really creeped the fuck out of me when those kids called me mommy. I'm 19years old. I dont have kids? and wheres my brother?!

Is this some type of sick joke? We did not get engaged 8 years ago. and apparently i gave birth? What the fuck is going on?! I mean i do kind of hurt down there.... What the hell. I started to cry as Michael pulled me into his chest. Everyone else left the room.

The doctor shined a light in my eyes and checked my temperature. Then started to ask me question.....

After all the questioning, i got the 'real' answers. I live at a ranch, with my husband michael, 3 kids and im 27?

I just want my brother. I want him to hold me and tell me this is all a dream. but no one will tell me where he is.

" Wheres Levi?" i asked, knowing somethings wrong.

" Do you really want to know, and go through all that pain again?" he asked.

I started sobbing, '' I just want me brother." i cried. Michael hugged me tight. I felt myself shaking. I was so scared. i didnt know anything. After a while of Michael holding me, calming me down He asked me if i wanted to see our baby girl. My mind wanted to refuse but my heart was eager to meet her. I nodded my head. He kissed my forehead then left. 5 minutes passed and he returned with a infant and 2 young kids.

The two young kids sat on the couch and Michael place the infant in my arms. when my eyes met hers. All my worries went away. She was beautiful.

" Oh my gosh." is all i could say. She was perfect. She yawned a bit then sticking her tongue out.

" This is our baby?" I asked surprise Michael and I created something so perfect. "Yep, Harmony Katherine Jackson."

" Do you want to meet the other two?" he asked I nodded quickly wanting to meet the other perfect creations Michael and i made. Michael took Harmony,placing her in a carrier. He picked up the other two.

" This is our oldest, Aubrey Anne Jackson, . Shes 4 years old." he said I reached for her wanting to hold my first born baby girl. I placed on my lap carefully examining her. I noticed as her lip quivered and her eyes filled with water.

" Awh, dont cry. Come here." I cooed, holding Aubrey tight.

" You scared me mommy." she cried.

" Im so sorry baby girl. Mommys just having a little bit of trouble remembering things.

Being introduced to your own kids is hard. I can see it in Aubrey and bens eyes they want their mommy. I'm trying my best to mother them. I mean it's coming a little easier than I though.

Now the breast feeding, no way! can't believe this shit. this is so weird to me still. doesn't it hurt?
As the nurse helped me which was weird as hell having some random chick touch my boob. but I knew I had to do this for the baby and Michael. once we got Harmony to feed, it wasn't that bad. Michael sat next to me on the bed. he had his arm around watching harmony. my eyes met his, he kissed me lightly

"I love you." he whispered. those three words warmed my heart. I felt like as long as he was here everything was going to be alright.

Harmony finally finished eating she fell asleep in my arms. Her little fingers held onto my pointer finger.

" What was it like when we found out I was pregnant?" I asked

"Well.... it was a miracle. I got back from touring that day. you kept throwing up and you wouldn't tell me why. then eventually you handed me a long black jewelry box that had a pregnancy test in it. I was so happy.... I couldn't believe how easy and fast it was this time. you were crying....happy everything was finally right. " he said as he reminisced.

I was confused about something's he said.

" Why was it a miracle? and why were you 'touring'? I asked

" Amber, we werent together all those 8 years. we split up for a while. you had a hard time getting pregnant, we split. you actually ended up getting pregnant then. While I was perusing a music career." He replied.

" What do you mean I had a hard time getting pregnant?" I said with concerned voice.

" We tried for about 6 months amber. Then you went to the doctor and they told you ,buoy have slim chance of ever getting pregnant." he answer. a tear slipped from my right eye. I wiped it away.

" Why are you crying?" he asked concerned.

"This is all to much ." I said.

" I know. just try to go with the flow. your memory will come back. do you want me to get some food for you?"

" Yeah but I don't want hospital food..."

" Ill have Bill and Javon get us food, what do you want?" he asked.

" Um McDonald's sounds amazing right now actually...."

" What do you want to eat?" he asked.

" Umm... A McChicken and a double cheese burger. With a large fry!" I smiled.

" Okay, Ill call Bill and let him know." he giggled.

The kids woke up, rubbing their eyes. Michael asked them what they wanted. They both got a 10 piece McNugget and a Hi-C juice. 

" Mommy, can i hold baby Harmony?" Ben asked.

" Sure baby," I helped him climb up. He sat in my lap, and i place my arms under his, holding Harmony.

" Mommy, ill make sure no body touches her." he said with a dead serious expression.

" What do you mean Ben?" i asked with a slight giggle.

" I wont let anyone hurt my baby sister." he said.He was being so serious. Michael and I shared a glance. 

" No one will ever hurt you baby Harmony." Ben said kissing her head.

" Ben kiss her head again." Michael said getting his camera taking a picture of Ben Kissing Harmony again. 

I kissed Bens head, he was just like his daddy. Levi was always protective over me. especially when we were little. He got into fights all the time because people would tease me.

Bill brought in the McDonald. It was so good to finally eat something besides Hospital food! I chowed down on the food as did Michael and the kids. 

The nurse came in and got Harmony to bathe her, 

" Mommy can i lay with you?" Aubrey asked

" Yeah, " i replied i pulled her up, laying her on my upper body. She hugged me tight, laying her head on my chest. I play with her brown curly hair. She yawned closing her eyes," is someone tired?" i giggled.

" Yeah, its bed time." she said nuzzling her head into my chest.

I looked at the clock and it was 8:30pm already. Michael was laying on the couch with Ben laying on him. Both the kids were sound to sleep. Michael was having a hard time keeping his eyes open. It was cute Haha.

"Pst!" i sizzled

he looked at me, i patted the bed signaling him to lay with me. He smiled getting up carefully, then laying Ben down, he came and grabbed Aubrey laying her on the couch with Ben. He draped a blanket over both of them.

" I have to pee before we go to sleep, real quick." i said sitting up. I swung my legs over, Michael grabbed my arm help me stand.

" Can you walk?" he asked.

" Yeah ill be fine." i said. I held my hospital gowned together in the back as i walked to the bathroom. I shut the door, looking at myself in the mirror. I nearly scared myself. I havent looked in the mirror all day. I do look different. My hair use to go down my back but now its a little below my shoulders. I look a little chubby too. I looked a bit pale. They did say i lost a lot of blood.I looked down to my hands. Im married but i dont have a wedding ring? This is all to confusing. There was alight knock on the door.

" You alright in there?" Michael asked

" Um yeah, im fine." i replied. I did my business, then washing my hands. I took a look in the mirror. Images start flashing through my head. One was of Me and Michael screaming at each other. then i was crying on the floor with a letter. the next was me rubbing my belly when i was pregnant with Aubrey. I remembered giving birth to Aubrey. My chest started to hurt as i remembered Michael leaving me. Then the image of Levi's funeral flashed through. I remember bring Ben home and Michael and Arguing and screaming and crying. Then it stopped there. I couldnt remember anything else. My breathing was heavy. I cant believe he left me! I choking on my tears.

I heard the door creek open,"Baby are you okay."

" We didnt split up, you left me." i said as tear hit my cheeks.

" Is that all you remember so far?" he asked.I nodded,

" I did leave. i regret it. every second. But we worked things out. were together again." he replied.

" How do i know your not lying." i asked

" Amber, we just had a baby. And plus the fact you would never have sex with someone if you werent together with them." I sighed.

I still felt betrayed. " I cant believe you. After all you put me through. You left me? After all the times you hit me, beat me, slamming me into the wall, leaving holes. Making me bleed every where. You left me. And i was stupid enough to go back to you? What was i thinking?" i said to myself staring in the mirror. Michael shut the bathroom door leaving. I wiped my tears. I exited the bathroom. Michael was packing the kids stuff. " Where do you think your taking my kids?" i shouted. He turned around with a few tears on his face.

" You need some rest Amber. Im not going to stay here and listen to bash me and im not leaving the kids with while your on bed rest. Just call me tomorrow and tell me how your feeling. " he said

" Daddy whats going on?" Ben asked.

"Were going home." he said then leaving with our kids. I chewed on my bottom lip, i cant believe i brought the past up like that. I knew he was a changed man. Hes right i need rest......