Jayden is 6 months old and I love that Michael has been here through it all. Him being here has made everything easier. A couple months ago once the doctor gave us the Okay, we did the DNA test to get Joes lawyer off our backs. Once he got his dna test he claimed it was wrong and claimed that we didn't actually do it. We had a judge and a lawyer there the whole time. They dismissed his case. We wouldn't even have to do the dna test. Jayden literally already looks just like Michael. The only one that looks like me is Harm.

"Do you have to go back to work?" I groaned getting on top of him as we laid in bed, ready to go to sleep. "Sadly but I won't be working as much. I'm going to try my hardest to slow down. Especially with us having to do this documentary next week. God I'm so stressed about it." He groaned I leaned down kissing him. He held my waist kissing me back until we heard a light knock on the door. We know that's Paiton, she always knocks , our kids just come right in. "Come in P." Michael said. She walked in rubbing her eyes crying. "What's wrong babygirl." I asked. She walked up to Michaels side of the bed. "I can't sleep, I had bad dream." She cried. Michael picked her up laying her between us. She clung onto Michael. "You want to tell me what happened?" He asked her. Her face got all serious, "Well there was this bigggg green scary monster chasing me down the hall, and he want to pick my boogers. Then I ran into the kitchen and the Cookie Monster was making cookies but they were bad cookies and he was a bad Cookie Monster." She said. Michael and I both smiled, giggling. "Well i promise you there's not monster trying to steal your boogers." He giggled. "I'm scared though." She cried. "You can stay with us tonight." He said. Michael has such a soft spot for her. "Does it ever like amaze you that we were told that i would never have kids and now we have 3 biological kids, 1 adopted and fostering another." I said. "This is definitely not how I pictured our life back then but I never imagined it'd be this great." He giggled. "Alright let's go to sleep." I yawned.
Paiton was out like a light. "Are we sending her to my moms during the documentary?" I asked. "Yeah she doesn't need to be exposed." He yawned.

The next morning I woke up to cartoons and all the kids in our bed, all 5. I giggled as I woke up. "Oh." Michael was cooing to Jayden as Jayden mocked him. Jayden gave us a toothless smile warming our hearts. "He's a pretty good size for a premie baby." I yawned. " yeah the doctors said he's growing like a normal baby." Michael replied. Once Jayden saw me he was all smiles. "Good morning baby boy!" I gushed taking him. I laid him on the chest, cuddling him. "Paiton, you need to practice your ABC's." Michael yawned remembering she has a test today. "I know them! I practiced last night. Aubrey said i got them right!" She smiled. We looked to Aubrey. "She did." Aubrey said. "Okay let me hear it." I said. She recited her ABCs and got them right. "Good job!" Michael high five her. Even though P is only 4 we want to get her started on this stuff because eventually she will go back to Natalie and go to a terrible inner city school that isn't going to care about her education. And honestly P is so smart for her age, even our home school teacher said she's very smart for her age and would recommend us pushing her further. We even have her sitting in on harmonys classes and she even learning that stuff.

We all got up and i took the girls into the bathroom doing their hair. Paiton always gets so excited. She has to stare at herself for a good 10 minutes. She has definitely blossomed into a different happier child.
"Amber, Natalie is on the phone." Michael hollered. Ben brought me the phone and Paiton was in the bathroom with me still. I put her on speaker. "Hey." I said. "Hi momma!" Paiton squealed. "Hi babygirl! Are you doing okay?" Natalie asked. "Yeah momma! We gets to go to school today and I have a test on my ABCs and I know them!" She said. "That's awesome babygirl. You know momma misses you so much." She said sad. "I miss you too momma." She smiled still looking at herself. "She's busy admiring her own reflection right now." I giggled. "Is she doing okay? She's not too much trouble is she?" She asked. "No not at all. We love having her here. Ben loves spending time with her. She loves going to school with Harmony and playing with our dog Franky. She's so smart, we've put her is Accelerated classes." I told Natalie. "Amber you know I can't afford to put her in private school when I get out." She said sadly. "And we know that. We're just trying to at least give her a shot at loving school before she has to go back." I said. "Okay babygirl. Momma has to get off the phone. I got my lawyer to desecrate my time. I'll be out in 4 months." She said. "Love you momma." P shouted. "Love you too baby. Bye." She said hanging up. Paiton ran off to go have breakfast as I sat in the bathroom thinking. I'm not ready for Paiton to go back home. Tears started covering my cheeks, "babe- woo, what's wrong?" Michael asked. "I don't want Paiton to go back to Brooklyn." I cried. He sighed, sitting next to me. "This is why I knew it was a bad idea to take her. We both got attached to her." He said softly. "She's not even going to have a chance out there. She's so smart and their not even going to care." I cried. He hugged me as I cried. "Natalie gets out in 4 months." I sniffled. He kissed my forehead. "She has to go back to her mom baby." He said. "I know." I said drying my tears.

My whole day I was trying to find a way to keep Paiton here, but I know she has to go back to her momma. "Amber! I passed my ABCs test and counted to 20!" She squealed running to me as I was preparing dinner. "Good job P! I'm so proud of you!" I hollered hugging her. I don't ever want to let go of her, she'll be gone before I know it. there's gotta be a way to keep her closer.

The rest of the night I was thinking up this plan..... hopefully Michael will go for it. After we laid the kids down, we stood in our room getting ready for bed. "What is it?" He asked. "Huh?" I asked. "You're thinking really hard about something." He said putting pj pants on. I sighed, "Okay. And you can say no." I said "oh god." He giggled. "What if when Natalie gets out, we move her out here. So P is closer to us and to put them both in a better environment." I said. "You're making me feel like I can't say no." He admitted. "I don't mean-" " I know you don't. Your heart is in the right place. It's just we can't help everyone." He said. I bit my lip trying to figure something out. "I know. I really do understand but it's just my heart won't stop aching for her to not leave us and it wants her close. If I could turn this feeling off i could. I just can't stop thinking about." I said. He sighed shaking his head. "Let me think about it. Do you know how many legal hoops we're going to have to go through to get her out of state. She's going to be on probation." He said. I hugged him, "thank you baby." I sighed then kissing him. "Don't get your hopes up. This literally maybe impossible." He said. "I know baby." I sighed. He held me close, staring into my eyes seductively. "You know it's been over 6months since we've had sex." He said biting his lip. I giggled. "Is someone sexually frustrated?" I asked rubbing his chest. He nodded as he then picked me up, throwing me on the bed making me laughing. He got on top of me playfully pinning my hands above my head. He kissed on my neck, lightly biting making me moan. I took his shirt off then started taking my clothes off as he got the hint and striped his clothes. "Condom." I said. "Got it." He said as he pulled his night stand drawer open grabbing one. He slid on his condom and we went at it. "Ouch Michael!" I hollered. "Slow, it's been a while. I didn't give birth vaginally this time. Damn." I said. "Sorry baby." He moaned as he slowly slid in me. I scratched his back moaning. "Shit, why did we wait so long to have sex." I moaned as he started thrusting in and out of me. Eventually we finished our love making and just laid, tangled in each other. " babe." Michael said. "Huh?" I replied. " when you were on those pain med after having J you kept telling me you wanted a tummy tuck." He said. Why is he bringing this up. He thinks my stomach is ugly. I covered myself. "No baby, it's not like that. It's just I see you staring at yourself in the mirror and I notice you try to wear tight shirts that hold your stomach tight. I feel like you don't feel comfortable any more." He said. Tears filled my eyes. "Please don't cry. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything." He said cursing himself. "No.... you're right." I said wiping my tears. " Baby. I just want you to love yourself. I want you to love you the way I love you. I love everything about you but I want you to love everything about you too." He said pulling me close. "I notice that stuff. I notice the way you look at yourself." He said. "I hate my stomach." I admit crying. "Okay that's okay baby. If you want a tummy tuck or something let's do it." He said. "I've lost most of the baby weight and I still look over weight." I cried. He held me as I cried, "You're perfect baby, but if that is something that bothers you then let's do something about it." He said. "Okay." I replied. "But i want you to know. I don't care what you do. I think you're perfect either way." He told me. I nodded then kissing him.

Today's the day. The day we start filming. Paiton is staying with my mother while we do this. We asked all of the kids if they wanted their faces to be shown and they agreed. I was a nervous wreck. The camera crew was here and Michael was talking to the director. It was someone Michael has known for years. "Babe, come meet the director." Michael hollered. I walked into the living room, "hi mrs. Jackson. I'm David Andrews." He smiled shaking my hand. "It's nice to meet you." I smiled. "Is it weird that I'm almost more star struck to meet you than I was when I met Michael." He laughed. "I think a good portion of the world is going to be that way." Michael said. "Today we're just going to film. You guys are going to go about your day like you always do. Tomorrow we'll start going through interview questions." David said. "They know to not go in the bedroom at the end of the hall right?" I asked. "We went over them not going in Paitons room or having any film in the documentary that contains her name. It'll be like she doesn't exist." Michael said. I nodded.  "So let's get this going." David smiled. I turned to Michael, "Do i look Okay?" I asked nervous. "You look beautiful baby." He said kissing me. We did as told and did our best to go about our day. This will be Jayden's first appearance, and we decided to try to put him in Michaels baby carrier.

We all couldn't help but laugh. Jayden was even giggling a little. He walked around like that with Jayden for a little bit but he eventually took it off. Harmony was off the wall the whole time. Running around, getting into everything. The kids kept trying to prank the camera guys and honestly we were having fun with this. Letting people in our lives like this is actually kind of scary though. Like no one should live like this.

Michael wasn't shy about showing his affection to me during their filming, I was but he literally acted like they weren't there. He smacked my butt like usual, kissed me, whispered dirty things to embarrass me. I think i was more nervous about the interview because we knew that was going to raw.

Sorry guys. I know this chapter was a bit boring.