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(Monday, August 15th, 2022)

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The grip around my throat tightens as black spots begin to outline my vision.

"Get the fuck off of me." I choke out. "Or I'm gonna kill you." I warn. "Ah-" My brain starts feeling floaty as my legs start thrashing, desperate to get free, and I feel tears forming in the corners of my eyes. Please, God, please—

"Crimson. Crimson" Hands shake me awake and I gasp, flying up. "Hey, hey, it's me." Denni whispers gently and I cough, rubbing my chest as my eyes adjust to her and my den. "It's 5." She tells me and I nod slowly, checking to make sure I didn't wake Briar I find her face down on the couch with one arm draping off, sound asleep with Maverick snoring at her feet, paws on her legs. Good. She's a heavy sleeper, thank goodness. "Are you okay?" She snaps me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah, yeah, just surprised me is all." I tell her. She looks like she knows that not entirely true.

"The alarm went off a few times after I hit snooze... more than once." Denni admits. Right. The alarm I apparently didn't hear.

I stretch my tense limbs, chewing on the flesh inside my mouth as dread sits in the pit of my stomach. Near death experiences are nothing new. And neither is having to relive it. I knew I shouldn't have taken half a pill last night. But I don't want Uncle Jack to worry, or keep himself up at night over me.

"Ugh." Denni grumbles. "I'm gonna cry, it's so early."

Yeah, we knew not heading out yesterday like most people would bite us in the ass. But it was nice to catch up with Briar outside of an appointment. Even though her birthday is this coming weekend, we saw an opportunity and took it. Besides, Raw isn't my show specifically, so I don't have to arrive as early. But Denni does, and I do anyways. So here we are, dragging at 5am.

"We can get coffee at the airport." I look at her. I need it.

We part ways, letting Briar sleep. I throw some shit in a suitcase before moving to my bathroom, pausing in front of the mirror.

My hands hover near my neck as I swallow.

I'm gonna kill you.

Worthless!

Useless!

I grip the granite sink, clenching my teeth. Get it together, Crimson- fuck! I smack something right off the counter which I then realize is deodorant once I blink several times. I'm not fucking doing this today. I stare at myself blankly in the mirror. Today is going to be a good day.

I inhale before moving to turn on the shower, letting the bathroom drown in steam and the water boil, because if a shower doesn't melt my skin— it's not warm enough, and peel my clothes off before getting in. I'm sure Denni is already ready to go. I wish I had her speed and gumption in the mornings, I really do.

The water washes away everything from last night, and the past fifteen minutes, and I push it out of my mind, forcefully. It's not like it's the first time... and it won't be the last. But it's been one of the worst in a while, and I let myself get too comfortable.

I swipe the pills out of one of the cabinets once I'm out of the shower and flush the rest of the bottle. I don't have time for that shit.

"Bitch, are you awake?" Denni hollers, causing me to jump. "Because if you fell asleep on the toilet or in the shower-"

I roll my eyes. "I'm awake!"

"Just checking." She huffs. I haven't even bothered to check the time since I finished packing. I can't help but crack, the corners of my lips turning up. Somehow, rather I'm mad, losing my mind, or just cranky Denni brightens my mood. She always has. Even when we were kids. That's why I keep her around I tell her, otherwise no one would like me and I'd always be bitchy.

I can't recall a time in my life Denni wasn't there. A lot of my childhood is blocked out... and almost none of it was anything worth remembering. Truthfully I don't think I'd remember almost anything if wasn't for her. She's the only good parts I can remember. Which is what I remind myself when I wake up every morning.

I'm here. I'm awake. And I'm living the dream. If it was all bad, I'd have nothing to wake up from. She always says I take of her, and she'd be nowhere without me, but I think it's entirely the other way around...

"Well, hurry your ass up then! I wanna get coffee before have to board." She appears in my bathroom door way, hands on her hips, the thought of me in a towel in front of not occurring at all the amount of times she's seen me nude. Which is why...

"Okay fine." I shrug, dropping my towel. "If you're gonna rush me..." I want coffee too...

Denni scoffs, waving me off. "Whatever makes you go faster." She sings, plopping herself on my bed as I quickly throw on some biker shorts and the shirt Damian gave me. I'm not above repeating a shirt, and since thankfully washing machines exist... I can wear it for Damian today. I add some tinted moisturizer on my face, it being too early for me to care to do anything else.

Finished, I hover over Denni and pop my hands on both sides of Denni's cheeks, laughing as they make a funny sound. "Okay, I'm ready, let's go."

I feed Coraline who was meowing in the kitchen at me as if she's never been fed before, we grab our bagel sandwiches Uncle Jack made for us last night, and he said he'd make Briar her favorite breakfast before she left later, blueberry pancakes, so we left her peacefully in the den with Maverick.

Thankfully, our Uber was waiting at the gate of my driveway thanks to Denni, because I did not even think of it the entire time I was getting ready... oops. This is why I can't be trusted to travel alone....

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After a three hour flight, we finally made it to Washington D.C. and I can stretch my legs once again.

"So you have to meet with Hunter, right?" Denni checks, going over the rest of our day.

"Yes." I nod, racking my brain through how the rest of the afternoon and evening are going to go, remembering how last Monday went...

I smirk, more than happy to give Raw a show once again... even thought I'm on SmackDown that didn't stop me from being interviewed by surprise or having an after dark match, and I'd love to kick someone's ass again tonight.

"Hunter wants to meet at 1:20 before most people start arriving at 2, but I'd like to circle the arena before then, check it out." I tell her. Even if it's not my show, or I'm not wrestling, I still like doing my little routine either way.

She checks her phone. "Sounds to me like we have some time." She hums.

"As long as I'm not late" I point to her. "Or I think Hunter will actually have my ass."

"Don't worry." She smiles, a bit too devious like. I raise a brow. "We will make sure you make it on time."

"We?"

"Yeah, we, you got a problem with that?" A sarcastic Aussie voice hits my ears and my mouth parts as Denni's smile stretches from ear to ear.

"You didn't think we'd let you step foot out of this airport without seeing us first, did you, CK?" An arm swings of my shoulder and I reframe for gasping or screaming out loud—

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𝟶ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀʙɪsᴄᴜɪᴛ𝟽sᴘᴇᴀᴋs!

Hello, helloooo!! Welcome back to Crimson Ustulationnn & Happy Monjey Night Mamiiii!! <333

First of all I just wanna say THANK Y'ALL SO FUCKING MUCH FOR 25K+ READSSS?! Ik I say this every time & probs sound like a broken record, but this genuinely blows my mind & I cannot thank y'all enough the excitement, love, & support yall have shown this book. I appreciate all the reads, votes, & comments & look forward to updating every time so I can read y'all's comments & your reactions!!

Sooo... y'all got another taste of Crimson's nightmares... more in depth this time🫣 we are slowly but surely uncovering more Crimson lore...

Also, can we talk about Denni for a moment🫶🏼 I feel like my girl does not get enough recognition or love. The moment where Crimson talks about how much she means to her just came out so naturally & I love it so much. (Also can we talk about how they're just leaving Briar to chill & sleep lmao, & Uncle Jack is gonna make her her fav breakfast when she wakes uppp, hello HOW CUTE?!)

ANDDD THE ENDINGGGG... BC WHO WOULD I BE WITHOUT LEAVING Y'ALL ON A GOOD CLIFFHANGER🤭🤭 HEHEHE... I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE PLANS I HAVE FOR CRIMSON FOR THIS RAWWWW!! (And I came up with new one today... & y'all are in for a treattt!!)

Sooo... until Elimination Chamber... hehe... I hope y'all enjoyed this chapterrr!! Pls don't be afraid to comment your thoughts, questions, & reactionsss!! And see y'all Saturday ;)

(ALSO WTF WAS THAT ENDING TONIGHT?! HUH?! AND WHERE TF IS MY GIRL JG ATTT?! MOTHERRR COME HOME😩😩)