Once you fall into it, you just keep falling.

For instance, when i try to escape, i think about how I shouldn't be telling people this and how I should just keep it to myself and how I look like an attention whore and how I probably don't even have depression and I'm just looking for friends and pity and then I keep falling into the pit of self hatred as I continue to go from one thought to another of why I shouldn't be around and why I'm fucking stupid and worthless and useless and p just-

Oh hi tears how are you today