Alright, so I doubt I'll publish this. Well, I might, it just depends on what I'm feeling.

So you've seen how I pretty much think I'm a piece of shit, yes? Well, I genuinely think that I'm not a person that deserves to exist. Like each time someone compliments me or something like that, I don't know what to say, no my confidence is boosted like a motherfucker. But then I think I did something wrong or I think it was horrible, and my confidence plummets. Just this never ending loop of, I'm a fucking piece of shit and oh I'm actually useful and not a piece of shit.

So just wanted to say thanks for being there. I pretty much hate myself, but not to the point of suicide. I think I'm horrible, selfish, and a lot of other bad things.

Oh look now I'm thinking I'm an attention seeker.

So yeah. None of this is sarcastic, joking, none of that. Like the reason insults don't affect me is because I tend to agree with them. Cause if someone says I'm horrible at singing, I'll just say something like 'yeah I know lmao'.

Sometimes I think I'm really good at something, then I think I'm absolutely horrible at it and I should just stop.

So thanks for the good things you say. Really helps motivate me to actually get off my lazy ass and do shit.