; feel like i'm glued on tight to this carousel

i can never escape
my thoughts, they gape
i tried to keep them down with tape
but they will always be awake
they take
up my life
the thoughts of my mother
how i could've even had a brother
if it werent for the all abortions
the way she killed my father
even after his death
actually the night of his funeral she slept
with his best friend, oh all the secrets she kept
now i'm felt to wept
all this is making me go into debt
maybe i should've leaped
off the face of the earth

so since this is the last book i'm trying to make it as depressing as possible😂 a lot of you like it i guess.
i hope you like this.