Jenny's P.O.V

 I had bad feeling about it in the first place. All I can't understand is that why Zayn seems to be so calm at first and then becomes so uncool in the end. A sharp pain rises up in my chest. I run. At least that's all I can do. I'm an opportunist and probably the most stupid Directioner... One thing I must thank him for saying that: He makes me realise that I'm making the same mistake as I once did to him... I am breaking Niall's heart and I'll make no move in this hopeless attempt of forgeting Zayn, who I now know that can never for once leaves my mind.

 "Don't run Jenny." Niall calls out my name. I turn around and see that he's already holding me. "I'm sorry it turns out that way. I never thought-"

 "Niall don't say anything." I put my finger on his lips. "I want you to know this."

 Niall smiles awkwardly. "OK."

 "I-I want to break up you.” I close my eyes. One thing I know is that I cannot say it when I look into his eyes.

 “Is that because Zayn has asked that question?” Niall bitters.

 “No. It's not Zayn's fault." I reply instantly. I don’t want to ruin their relationship. Niall's lips press into a thin line. There's guilt in his eyes. That expression causes a sharp pain running up my brain. I have to say something. "It's no one's fault. It's mine... I did everything wrong. You know that I- did something with Zayn. I am not supposed to be here today to piss him off. And I-"

 "Jen, why does it always Zayn? You cried for him, you felt guilty because of cheating him, isn't that enough? You left him, isn’t that your choice? You choose me, isn’t that your decision?" Tears begin to well up in those gorgeous blue eyes of his and I thought I could almost fully feel his pain.

 "I'm a jerk. I'm a bitch, just like Zayn has said to me earlier. I... have feelings for Zayn, but I made the decision of leaving him. I made wrong moves. That's how my life has always been. And another wrong thing I regret the most was that I made you think I love- you.” The word escapes my mouth like a breeze.

 "You don't love me at all. Don't you?" Niall, again, makes my heart stop beating. Please Ni, don’t do this! "It was my fault. Is there something wrong with me? If so, I can fix it"

 "No Niall, I told you. You’re perfect. Let’s make it clear. You were the first person to see my bright side, but Zayn was the one who makes me shine. And I could have fallen in love with you several times, but Zayn had stolen my heart for once and forever. I suppose I have no heart left to give to you. I want to be with you, but I love Zayn. You are prince Charming, but unluckily, I'm not Snow White. I'm sorry. I don't deserve you." I can believe that I has taken all courage to say that to him. That's really how I thought.

 To my surprise, Niall puts back those tears and begins to grin. "If that's how you really want, I guess I have no other options."

 "I'm sorry Niall." I says under my breathless breath.

 “I let you go.” He puts his hands in the air and winks at me. “The decision of your own happiness is all yours now Jen. I wish you the best!”

 I cup my hands on my face. Goodbye to you, the sweetest boy I've ever met. You'll always be in my heart.

 Maybe this should be my decision too, to let go of this love and never look back.

Zayn's P.O.V

 We are all sitting still in the room. The boys are really worried about Niall. He left before I had realised what I've said. I'm a real jerk. I thought I could steal the one he loves. Even if I could, I shouldn't. And I said nasty things to Jenny. She doesn't deserve it. She may use me to get to know Niall, but that is her decision and my best friend's love. I understand how it feels to lose someone I love... It was my mistake to try to ruin their relationship. I wish that he could make up with her. I wish he wouldn't be home tonight, or at least got home hand in hand with her. I truly hope so despite the ache in my heart.

 Niall comes in pushing the door a loud thud. The boys look up, finally they would stop sending me death glares. Niall throws himself on the seat. We all know for sure he failed.

 Liam sits himself down uncomfortably next to Niall. He places his hand sternly on the blonde’s shoulders and whispers consolations. "It's ok Ni. If she leaves you that way, she doesn't deserve you."

 Niall curls up and groans. "Guys, can you leave me and Zayn alone?"

 The boys all widen their eyes at me and then decide to leave.

 Niall turns and stares at me. "We broke up."

 "I'm sorry."

 "She said the same." He informs plainly

 I remain silent. Niall's eyes are full of pain. I don't know whether my love is as big as his. What have I done? What am I to do?

 "I couldn't control myself, Niall."

 "You called her a bitch." Niall snaps. I can't believe he can be so loud in saying that. If my friend accidentally or purposefully calls my girl inappropriate words, I will go for the kill.

 "What should I do to get you guys to make up?" I know it hurts. But am I the one who turns it all into this sucks? I have to fix things up.

 "Generally, you can't." He responds bitterly.

 "Generally?" I narrow my eyes.

 "She's not in love with me herself." Niall looks at me straight in the eyes. I think I can read them well enough... but I'm not sure if the information he’s sending through his eyes is correct.

 "If she's not, how can she dates you-?" OH snap! It dawns on me as Niall sends me a 'you think' kind of looks. "She likes me?"

 "No." Niall's voice stiffens, and then softens. "She loves you!"

 I was afraid he was going to say that. Jenny suddenly walked out on me, suddenly became my friend's girl, and all the mean things I said to her, everything is becoming clearer that I am the one to blame.

 "Then why did she leave me all of a sudden?" I stutter.

 "Why don't you ask her yourself?" Niall smirks through his tears and makes his way to the room. He then turns back an gives me a thumb-up. "And I'll be alright in case the boys ask. You know they can be quite annoying sometimes."

Jenny's P.O.V

 A day has passed since that day. I've called my mom. I told her that I missed her so much and I would be back with her in no time. Today I would inform the boss about my intention. I want to catch a train and go back to my home-country as soon as possible. I miss everyone. I want to forget everything that happened here. All of my good luck and bad luck I had will soon vanish into thin air. I might miss this place, sincerely, but that’s what makes me want to leave more than anything.

 I had a whole night up thinking about Zayn. The misery I caused One Direction, my love band. I made my decision. I don’t care if it’s right or wrong anymore. I want to quit the game, if it’s still counting.

 I am standing in the bus station when someone’s voice lingering in my head. I turn around and catch sight of a suspicious boy. My jaws drop in surprise as he pulls my wrist violently, signifies me to go with him. I think I know that boy!

 We get some space and I begin to struggle for him to get off me. My mind is still frozen at times.

 “Get off me, Zayn.” I command weakly.

 “So that you can chicken out one more time?” Zayn mocks. “I know about your intention Jen. Please don’t leave!”

 “I can’t. I don’t belong here. All I can do here is getting into trouble. Niall will hate me. YOU hated me-.” I suddenly have nothing to say. I try to hide my sob. Really hard.

 “Niall doesn’t hate you. He never does!” He looks at me in the eyes. “It’s true. I HATED you. But I don’t now. I’ve been running in a circle. Love-hate-love-hate-love…”

 “So where are you now?” I interrupt. “I’m in a hurry myself!”

 “I think I’m in somewhere between love and … more love.” He grins awkwardly. The way he does that chokes my heart.

 “I don’t get it.” I scratch my head. “I left you.”

 “And I almost forgot to ask you: Why did you leave me?” His face becomes more serious.

 “I- you want to hear the truth?” I pause, Zayn nods. “OK I lied. I’m no out-going at all. Yes I’m not a nerd either. I’m a neutral. And I said I was not a Directioner. That was a lie. I think I will bother you if I said that I . I want to make good memory, that’s why I left.” I burst into word. The image I want him to remember is over. I have nothing else to lose now.

 “You’re really stupid, Jen. You’re a complete fool. You think I didn’t know? I can see right through you from the moment I laid my eyes on you. It’s just that after that, I don’t know what you think…”

 “I messed up…” Words leave my mouth unintentionally.

 “You did.” He agrees non-hesitantly. “But I still love you, more and more everyday…. So there. It’s your choice now.”

 I remain silent. That’s the best I can do. I messed up so many times. What if I did it again?

 “I don’t know. I always make the wrong decision.”

 “What if you did it again, huh?” He smiles painfully and rubs my messy hair. “Nothing’s gonna change my love for you, Jen. I thought you knew it.”

 “I don’t know. I’m confused, and scared.”

 “ I have faith in you.” Zayn smiles gently. “Don’t you trust me?” He pushes out his hands. I stare into his eyes. There’s something in it that’s always got me fallen. I can’t even stand properly right now.

 “Yes- I do.” I burst into a smile, and then cry into his arms. I’m indecisive, insecure, and I’m not perfect person, but now it’s the time of my life. I’m one lucky girl and I accept the challenge life has. As long as we find each other.

 “I love you, Jenny Foster.” Zayn whispers into my ears.

 I sniff his strong scent, like I did the first day. “I love you too, Zayn Malik.” I mutter. I don’t care. At least I dare to challenge the difficulty. Zayn is all I need now, and all that matters.

 “And I’m sorry for calling you a bitch the other day.” Zayn jokes.

 I retort. “Thanks for reminding me of that.” I hit his arms and he groans in pain. “Now you’re a jerk, Zayn. A bitch and a jerk, we’ll be the perfect match.”

 Zayn bursts out laughing and rubs his nose against mine. “Remind me again, Jen. Who says you’re not playful?”

 In the end, we exchange kisses. Sometimes British call them ‘snog’.

 … As long as we have each other…

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First, Zenny fic is longer than I imagined and this main part is less fluffy and shorter than I expected. So sorry Jen! I was thinking of making it longer, but you rushed me. So deal with it if anything goes wrong ;))

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