1.

"I'm done with it" Jisoo waving his hand into the air to break the awkard silent, he have been standing here, in the middle of the room with not so happy Seungcheol in front of him. He didn't know why they begin this argument, but later, they both seem to loose control and end up screaming at each other. And the last thing Jisoo was remember that Seungcheol was yelling that he sick of him. He was unable to move an inch as he watch how Seungcheol's face begin to pale

"No, please, I didn't mean it...Please, listen to me" Seungcheol was trying to explain with him, but Jisoo didn't even look at him when he walk past the eldest. The smell of warm orange that he used to love on Jisoo flied through him and Seungcheol heard the door of their bedroom shut out loud. Seungcheol let out a long sigh as he sat on the edge of the couch. What was all of this? And mostly, what did he have done?
Wasn't they just good yesterday and even this morning? Seungcheol thought to himself and he also tried to crack his tiny, stupid brain what he have done. And the reality just hit him on the face when he saw Jisoo go out of their room, with bag on his shoulder. The eldest tremble to standing, trying to hold on Jisoo's wrist but the latter quickly push it away.

"Soo, where are you going? It's late"

Jisoo was wearing his big black coat because the weather was freaking cold at night in Seoul, and due to his friend's house was quite far so he have to keep himself warm. Put on his shoes, he was doing shoelace as he reply "get out of this house"

"What, no, why?"

"Dude, you just scream at me and yell that you freaking hate me, remember?" Jisoo rolled his eyes as he stand up, fixing his coat. "It's happened 15 minutes ago"

"No, that's not what I meant, Jisoo" Seungcheol sighed as he begin to walk past the younger, blocking his way, make Jiso frowned

"Then what do you mean? For god's sake, tell me what do you want because I'm tired of this" Jisoo sighed as he shaking his head, knowing that he have to tell this sooner or later. Choi Seungcheol was surprise

"Jisoo..."

"Do you ever love me?" Jisoo look up right into Seungcheol's shining as star eyes. Choi Seungcheol was always like Jisoo's cat like eyes because when he smile, it would curved up like a half moon, breath taking. But this moment, he is only saw sadness in Jisoo's eye. He was not know how to answer this question because well, he actually don't know. That's even make Jisoo flash a sad smile at him. "Thank you for your time, Seungcheol"

"Jisoo, can we not doing this right now?" Seungcheol bring his hand to cover his face, he was in mix feeling, a part of him didn't want Jisoo to leave, and a part of him feel that he should let the latter go. But what does he want? "And please don't go, this is our house"

Jisoo let out a scoffed that make Seungcheol feel it was full of bitter "House, this ain't my house. You asked me to move in with you and I agree. I thought you are move on, but I was wrong, this house, is full of memories between you and Jeonghan. Even when you sleep next to me, you still called his name for god's sake" He didn't even know when his tears was falling on his cheek, the fact that he have been blindly in love with Seungcheol for a years and he got nothing. He still can't have Seungcheol's heart, he can't have Seungcheol's love. So what the point of staying. Quickly wiping those tears away, he slight walk past Seungcheol to open the door "You was only using me, Seungcheol"

"No, I didn't"

"Don't lie, Seungcheol"

2.

He messsed up. Choi Seungcheol admitted it.

His relationship with Jeonghan was last longer than he thought, it started when they are still in college, until two years when they graduated and got a fine job. At that point, Seungcheol was already know Jisoo as Jeonghan's best friend and he have no idea that Jisoo have feeling for himself. He was busy with his propose plan to Jeonghan. But quickly turn down for unknown reason. He was desperated and wanted to forget about it so he came to a bar. Little did he know, Jisoo appeared later and the last thing he remembered that how soft Jisoo's lips was when he lean in for the kiss.

From that day, Jisoo was the person he want to meet whenever he missed Jeonghan, they will end up having sex here and there, whenever Seungcheol want. And Jisoo was no complain. Firstly, Seungcheol did mistaken him and Jeonghan, specially when they are best friend, some of their habbit is like each other and that make Seungcheol only consider Jisoo as another version of Jeonghan. But Jisoo was different.

Jisoo will be the one that waking up in the morning before him and making him breakfast, western style since he as living in LA when he was young. Jisoo would wait for him hour and hour just to give him his lunch box. Jisoo would never ask if he coming to his house or not. While Jeonghan didn't. That's make Seungcheol feel himself being loved and care.

"Move in with me" Seungcheol remember how surprise Jisoo was on that day, they was naked under blanket in the midnight. Jisoo was next to him as their bare shoulder touch, looking up at Seungcheol with question eyes. He shrugged "I just want you here"

Jisoo was no hesitated at that moment, and the next day he move in with Seungcheol.

"I will kill this bastard"

"No, Jeonghan, please" Jisoo was trying to hold his friend to murder the man he love by grabbing tightly on Jeonghan's arm and pull back to the couch. Yoon Jeonghan with his ryan pyjaman flipping his hair as he sat down next to Jisoo, huffed, clearly annoyed

"I step back to give you guys a chance and now what, he hurted you"

It was true that Jisoo and Jeonghan still friend after what happened, you wonder why? Yoon Jeonghan was no dumb, he clearly can see his friend have feeling for his boyfriend at that time. And he know exactly that there is no future for him and Seungcheol so he chose to break up, because they don't have same feeling for each other anymore. Beside, as Seungcheol's ex boyfriend, he know whenever Jisoo have problem, even when they are was on date, Seungcheol would come to Jisoo anyway. Jeonghan thought they will have the happy ending, but no. Jeonghan have to wake up at freaking 11 pm while wearing facial mask to see Jisoo with red eyes in front of his door is not what he want.

"It's hurt so much, in here" Jisoo hold his palm against his chest where his heart was, he force a smile when Jeonghan look at him with painful eyes

"I'm sorry, if I knew this happen, I would never put you into it"

"No" Jisoo smile, a tears rolling down on his face "it was nice to live with him"

"...."

"Though I can't have his heart"

"Don't be silly, that bastard don't deserved you" Jeonghan rolled his eyes as he wrapped his arm around Jisoo body "come on, cheer up, I will introduce some guys to you"

Hong Jisoo let out a soft laugh "thanks" but he thought he will never love someone as much as he loved Seungcheol.

"Are you fucking stupid?" Soonyoung snapped as he heard the story from Seungcheol. It's was nice of Soonyoung when he ask what happened with his friend and Seungcheol was stupid enough to told him what happened last night with the hope that he will feel less guilty. Instead Seungcheol earn death glare from that tiny eyes. Also Lee Chan, Soonyoung's little boyfriend was also give him a long disappoint glance. Soonyoung rolled his eyes as he continue "obviously you love Jisoo hyung"

"I..."

"You what? You always talk about him" Soonyoung copy his face and his smile (which was quite not like original), his voice "~ Jisoo made me Pasta today, you guys have to see it but don't even think about eating it. He made it for me"

"I'm not"

Lee Chan take his turn as he make a face "Guys, Jisoo was late catching bus and no taxi at this hour. I need to pick him up"

"Well, that was for his safety"

"Then you are worry about him"

Seungcheol have no reply because he did. He did care about Jisoo. He remember one day when they was at their house, with him was in living room doing something with his laptop and Jisoo was in kitchen. The next second he heard a little yelp from there and quickly got up. He found Jisoo's finger bleeding. The latter assumes it was okay but Seungcheol wasn't listen. He frowned as he saw how deep the cut was and Jisoo's face full of pain. He felt something on his chest, then he quickly got up and comeback with band aid. He remember how red Jisoo was as he keep his head low. Seungcheol was never did this to Jeonghan but he did to Jisoo. He feel uncomfortable when he saw Jisoo was in pain. Because he like Jisoo's beautiful smile.

Seungcheol guess that he actually care about Jisoo.

TBC