WILL YOU HAVE ME? WILL YOU LOVE ME . . . !
© 2022 ━━ dear suho . . . on the outskirts
ep. one and two of true beauty

THE BELL had rung as mr. han told the class to do their homework, the moment the break had started sooah and one other classmate were all in jugyeong's desk space.

"i saw you at the front gate today." sooah abruptly starts as jugyeong smiles.

"really?" she beams happily, while smiling at sooah.

"hi new girl," the other starts with a smile as well. as jugyeong awkwardly waves back. sooah takes out her phone opening it up and scrolling through it.

"can i get your number?" sooah asks, haeun playfully rolls her eyes at sooah's very desperate attempt to befriend the new girl. she knew sooah was like this and was very charismatic, the girl was very good at making new friends. jugyeong nods and enters her number into the phone for her classmate in front of her.

"are you on stargram? what's your username?" sooah bombards the new student from across as she keeps asking questions. jugyeong is overwhelmed by the sudden interest.

"i don't have a stargram account." jugyeong states to sooah.

"why not? are you trying to be mysterious?" sooah asks, as she doesn't understand why one wouldn't have a stargram account. haeun at this point is amused by the conversation. sooah is just phone obsessed.

"followers will pile up the second you create one." the second girl adds, saying her beauty will gain her tons of followers.

"i love the color of your lips, which lip tint do you use?" sooah continues to pester jugyeong with her questions, curious about the girls makeup now.

as jugyeong tries to answer the question by pulling her lip tint out, she drops it. it rolls across the foot and stops at someone's foot. it happened to be soojin's, she picked it up for her and handed it back.

"hey soojin! she's one of my best friends, kang soojin. the other one is behind you she's jung haeun." sooah starts and introduces us. as she says my name i wave to jugyeong as she is looking at me. sooah goes on to finish what she was saying.

"i've been calling them the queens of our school, but that might change now that you're here." sooah still goes on about her beauty, while talking about how i was the queen basically in her eyes because of my beauty.

"ahh sooah you know i don't like to flaunt my appearance, i don't need complements. stop calling me the queen of our school!" haeun exclaims jokingly to the girl for the name. although it was true that she didn't need compliments or people telling her she's pretty because her own self worth is more important.

"i will continue to haeun, anyways i guess you guys have competition now." sooah says disregarding the words that were just spoken to her.

"don't pat my behind like that." soojin adds on sitting down on the desk next to jugyeong's desk.

"jugyeong right? it's good to meet you." soojin now turns her attention to jugyeong now.

"same here." jugyeong gives the same enthusiasm back to soojin, before sooah goes back to drowning the poor girl in questions.

"you're gorgeous though. are you a kpop idol trainee?" jugyeong nods no in reply to sooah's question.

"she talks a lot, doesn't she? i hope you don't find it annoying." soojin starts to tease sooah about her talkative nature.

"yeah don't let her talk you to death." haeun laughs along and jokes with soojin as well, only to receive a hit to the arm from sooah who stood for a moment only to sit back down in her seat.

"it's fine," jugyeong turns her attention towards haeun and soojin. haeun decides to get up, and take a walk to clear her mind more before class resumes again.

LATER IN THE DAY the three girls, being haeun, sooah, and soojin, walk up to jugyeong as suho walks away from her. haeun pauses, she has a choice, stay with the girls which she has all day, or with suho who she hasn't properly communicated with all day.

see haeun felt as though she was always on the outskirts of her friendship with soojin and sooah. yes they were all close but the other two were closer to each other than to her. and even jugyeong would be better fit as it's already showing in their actions. she chose to walk with suho instead. maybe that would be better suited for her at the moment.

they walk in silence at first. the silence is never awkward between them and is sometimes needed. they were both just people who thrived in a silent environment. haeun is the first to turn to the boy beside her, she's trying to rack up the right words to say in her mind.

"i'm sorry we didn't get to walk this morning," haeun turned her head awkwardly away from suho. "i was running behind and woke up late."

"oh it's fine" -suho paused halfway through talking as if trying to figure out how to word this- "i enjoyed the silence this morning."

this led haeun to think, as this turned the conversation awkward really quickly. most times they didn't talk much in their walk anyways, but with haeun left to think it made her wonder if she was the problem here.

"oh." haeun softly blew the words out her mouth. the two stood their in a now sour silence

suho not sensing the awkward tension between the two looks towards the girl and finishes the short conversation at once, "look i'll talk to you later, i have work to catch up on."

the lengthy boy walks away leaving haeun confused as the boy was always on time with his work. haeun stood frozen in the hall watching the boy turn the corner and disappear from her sights. she had just wanted to talk to the boy, and he seemed to want to do everything but that.

AFTER SCHOOL the girl was sat in her room trying her best to do her work well, her dad was never one to be happy that she was ranked sixth in her school, as she should be able to get better grades and at least rank in the top three. she sighed deeply trying to concentrate her best when she saw her phone buzz.

sooah had added jugyeong to our group chat and haeun could see the conversation two of the three other girls were having. they had hung out today oh how she wishes she could've gone with them. even if she had chosen to go with them over suho, her father would be livid if she spent her day having fun rather than studying. she basically couldn't have a life until she got better grades. that was a rule she didn't follow very well when he had business trips or was rarely home, but today was a night where he actually was spending time in his home office rather than at his big enterprise.

she gently picked up her phone and responded back 'oh i wish i could've gone with you guys i'm at home studying rn :(' after hitting send she sees jugyeong's stargram user, and decides to go follow her. then she set her phone down and let the vibrations continue. she knows they probably gave responses of 'it's ok' and 'you'll come next time!', but she knows the lies behind those words. she sat and tried to focus on her work again before realizing she needed a snack or drink to tide her growing hunger.

with her father home that meant she had to follow the rule of not having a proper meal until she finished studying for at least four hours, but looking at the time she knows it's only maybe been half of it. her stomach rumbled, and she knew she had to at least have something small.

haeun tip-toed out of her room and past her fathers study, where the door was thankfully closed. she then made her travel down the stairs, avoiding the two creaky steps, and finally went through the halls to her kitchen. she could smell the amazing meal her mother was cooking in the kitchen and felt sad knowing that by the time she would even eat it, or not depending on how her dad felt by her studying, it would be cold.

haeun grabbed one of the bottles of banana milk from her fridge, and took the mini straw with it. she quietly made her way back to her room where her awaited studying was sprawled across her desk. the girl plopped herself down at her desk and continued her studying for the night.

THE NEXT MORNING was unlike the one before she woke up on time this morning for starters. haeun quickly showered before starting to put on a different variation of her school uniform. this time she wore the same grey pleated skirt that reached her mid-thigh, with the long button up white shirt- only this time it had slightly puffed sleeves, then she threw a burgundy vest over it that had a scooped neck line, putting her thin tie over it matching her vest, lastly she wore grey ankle socks that had ruffles on them before putting on her black mary janes to finish the look off.

she put her hair in a low pony tail, before doing her same routine of bringing her water downstairs and leaving with an apple. when she walked out her front door this morning she saw suho leaving his house at the normal time. she wasn't sure if she should walk towards him and start their walk as normal or not, but ultimately she decides that she will walk to school with him. when she mets him as he walks past her front door she gives him a small wave and smile which he returns and they walk in their own quietness like they do most mornings.

suho and haeun made small talk as they walked to school and into the building as well talking about different things relating from school work, to comics, and even different things they had done recently. they made their way through the halls of the school building eventually turning the corner right before mr. han's room. though as the two turn the corner jugyeong is right there and turns around as well, making them all come face to face. haeun watches as jugyeong always stumbles over herself before reaching a hand out to help stabilize her back on her feet well. jugyeong waves at haeun which is returned.

suho and jugyeong awkwardly stare at each other which is stopped when suho brushes past and haeun sends an apologetic look before continuing on too. suho stops at the classroom door and listens to his surrounds as jugyeong and haeun wave to soojin down the hall. confirming the sound is a camera clicking, suho accidentally bumps into haeun as he storms towards two girls slightly down the hall. he even ignores the wave of soojin who walks past him.

"delete it," suho responds in a cold monotone voice. he states the girl down and she acts innocent and surprised he walked up to them.

"what?" haeun cringes as the girl stutters over herself and her words, she also clings her phone closer to herself stupidly.

suho grabs the phone and holds it up before continuing, "delete it before i throw this." he now slightly shakes the phone while still staring her down.

"i'll delete it. i will, so give it back," the girl responds all embarrassed, but also scared that she got caught by suho. suho just gives the phone back and walks into the class room like nothing happened. jugyeong, soojin, and haeun all look at the event that took place before soojin walks closer to the two girls.

"he's so scary," jugyeong lets out the breath she was holding in, "you're dead if you anger him."

soojin continues stating the obvious that any student at our school should know, "did she know he hates being photographed?" they all turn to look into the classroom from their spots in the hall, "still he has such a nasty temper." soojin finishes

"exactly, it's a miracle when i get a picture that he's in. it's very rare to find any pictures of suho at all," haeun adds onto her point. both haeun and soojin turn to jugyeong at once.

"let's go," soojin starts.

haeun then finishes for the girl, "yeah come on jugyeong." then the both of them head into the classroom for the school day to start. before jugyeong rushes behind them.

━━━━A SPEAKS
i really need to make a new gif for this now that i've changed my user...anyways sorry for such a long time before updating i really need to work on writing chapters...also sorry for lack of dialogue i suck at writing dialogue so that's something i'll work on for upcoming chapters! also sorry if there are spelling or grammar mistakes i haven't gone back and looked at this fully i will another time. anyways i hope you enjoyed and hopefully i'll update again soon!