legend :
italic - past or flashback
bold - uttered words, phrase, sentences
italic & bold - uttered from the past
italic (right side) - song lyrics
normal - present happening

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May

You cracked a joke and I laughed hard. Yet another day of happiness for the best couple in town, as how our friends describe us. I can see the way your eyes crinkle, as your lips curve to that widest grin, you're so happy to have made me laugh for the third time within the hour.

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MAY

"Excuse me sir? Here's your brewed coffee." The voice startled me and immediately pulling me out of my daydreaming, wasn't a daydream type because now I can feel the hollow again. "Erm, thank you." I nodded then the girl smiled and left.

Sipping my hot coffee, not minding it is already hot outside. I can see the couples that either walk hand in hand or almost carrying each other in their arms outside and as the silence grows, my heart feels heavier. I miss you, don't you miss me too?

🎶 blue jeans, white shirt, walked into the room you know you made my eyes burn 🎶

Oh would you look at that, Blue Jeans, your favorite song being played here.

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"Listen babe. Blue Jeans, I really love this song." I chuckled and said, "you love it when it's played here." You nodded and after finishing your special chocolate, sung along.

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You'd even hold my hand and urge me to sing with you. Frankly, I didn't know the lyrics and I still don't know. But now I can sense my feet thumping above the wooden floors. "I will love you till the end of time..." I sighed. This is going nowhere. I probably should go.

And without finishing my favorite order, I picked up my coat, stood up, and left. Crossing the road alone to buy a sandwich for lunch feels weird. I'm along crossing the road, I'm alone when I pay for that take-out sandwich, and surely will be alone when I eat it in the cafeteria of our office. Would I see you there? Eating alone? And maybe I can sit with you? "Wait!" I shook my head and when I look at the person across from me, it's not you. I lowered my head in shame. Am I hallucinating now? Dear god, I'm hopeless.

🎶 I would wait a million years
promise you'll remember that you're mine 🎶

That's the last echo from the inside of the coffee shop that I heard from your favorite song to listen to while drinking your favorite order before I made my decision that I should move on and cross the road.