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two months later... JULY

Today's been a tiring day and what turned it to exhausting is the fact that I'm going home to an empty apartment. Not empty-empty, it's just that...she's not going to be there. I turned the ignition of my car off and sighed before opening the door, slowly exiting and then locking it. Why am I walking too slowly? Am I waiting for her? Maybe she's waiting for me up there or she's going to surprise me... Shaking my head, I looked up and cursed in frustration.

I turned the key in and unlocked the door. I went straight to the refrigerator and grabbed a beer. "I'm not thirsty but I'll probably drink this down," and I did, "huh, I'm right." One beer turned to another one and then another one and another one, "thish will be the lasht," I'm probably sounding like a typical drunktard with slurred words and tipsiness rolling of my tongue.

I grabbed three more bottles and walked to the couch, sitting down, removing the tie I'm using that you used to be the one removing it.

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"I bet you're tired than I am. Come here babe, let's remove this..." and with a smirk plastered on your face, you attacked me with hot and determined kisses. "Let's make a baby?" I chuckled and nodded, "sure, let's take this to the bedroom." I carried her to the bedroom, not bothering to turn the lights on and with our clothing removed piece by piece, so is our passion being released.

🎶 And I'm gonna keep on loving you
because it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on loving you 🎶

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A bottle crashing woke me to my senses. And then I threw another one. "Why did you leave?! I thought I'm more tired than you?! How come you said you're tired and you're done--how come it was easy for you, what did I do wrong?! Answer me!" Even though I know you cannot hear me and there's no answer going to be heard.

I guess this is another night that's going to be spent on crying and wasting hours.

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I woke up with a hammer in my head, the sunlight poking my face and I feel irritated. Did I cry myself to sleep again? Lame guy, stuck up on a girl that didn't care to look back and love me again.

I stood up and saw that there are bottles everywhere and some broken glass pieces. "Now I have to fix everything. Maybe a cold shower will help." But I know it wouldn't.