[thank you to mentioning for the cover]

❝So many years of education yet nobody ever taught us how to love ourselves and why it's so important.❞

—Unknown

💧💧💧

my parents do this thing.

they build up my self-esteem, making me think that i'm actually worth something.

then...

they wreck it.

they bash me, point out mistakes from March twenty-two, nineteen-ninety-nine up till today. my grades, my attitude, my appearance, the way i do things; they completely wreck my self-esteem after raising it up.

honestly, that's one of the worst things you can do: build someone up only to wreck them in the end.

what's the point? if you're gonna hurt someone, do it in a less painful way (?).

my parents had only one motive behind destroying me.

they wanted a reaction from me.

you know when you're mad at someone, and you're yelling at them and then you realize that they're not getting affected at all?

do you know how angry people get when they're yelling at someone and the other person shows no reaction?

we humans need a reaction. we need a reaction from when we put down someone or do something.

and if we don't, sucks for us doesn't it?

second reason not to cry: people feed off of it.

they feed off the fact that you can get affected after being hit a few times.

so next time someone is yelling at you or putting you down, tell them to fuck off and show no expression.

do you really want to give them what they crave? when it ends up with you getting hurt?