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When I leave at our house I didn't feel or see a glimpse of Jihoon's presence, maybe he's out to meet with his friends, or he wanted to be alone for today because pf what happened between us.

With my thoughts that's going around I suddenly stopped walking sighing, why am I thinking about him when I'm going to have a date with Ae bong, this is irritating to the extent, Jihoon himself is totally irritating that I couldn't get my head forget about him.

When I already reached our meeting place, and realized I was too early before our time to meet up, I fished my phone into my pocket to check my messages while leaning on the wall that's behind me, When passing through my messages I saw Jaewhan Hyung's contact that has sent me something.

I clicked it without any hesitation and saw him with Minhyun hyung having a grumpy face while not facing the camera, while Jaehwan hyung have his fingers in two peace sign then smiling like there's no tomorrow, I think they're date is going well.

I wish me and Jihoon could be like this too.

Realizing once again and my smile fades away, stop thinking about Jihoon, he doesn't understand you and he will never. Taking away my phone in front of myself and waited patiently for Ae bong which made me annoyed because why's that girl is taking so long, it's passed our meeting time.

I was continuously tapping my right foot again and again to keep myself calm, and a minute after Ae bong has finally showed up, she was wearing a miniskirt and a sweatshirt that's in pastel color it was tucked in, she was pleasant to look at.

"Did you wait long?" She started our conversation, but hearing her voice with kust seconds it made me want to throw up in her face, I'm going on a date with this girl in front of me, I don't want this.

"Let's go." I coldly answered her, and started walking leaving her behind but she catch up to my pace clinging into my arms, I let her do what she wants and trying to be considerable since this is a "date".

"Where do you want to go first?" She asked me yet I didn't answer her.

"Well then let's eat first, is that okay with you?" I hummed to her, not to make her look more miserable than she is now, she immediately pulled me to make our pace more faster, she surely is excited but it was the opposite for me, I was empty.

Ae bong and I was going to different places, I tried to accompany her in the way she wanted and forced a smile just to make her think I'm enjoying this, it was hilarious that this guy she's going on a date right now is gay for another guy.

I got myself in the process of our date flying my thoughts to Jihoon again, but this time I can't reject myself anymore, My mind was captivated by Jihoon again, even though he didn't even do anything, but at the same time I was feeling down because of what between the two of us.

"Guanlin, Guanlin?" Ae bong called me, making me snapped and go back to reality.

"Yup?" I answered her, she then holds my hand but this time I rejected her, she was disappointed and her face suddenly change into anger.

"Why are you rejecting me?! This is our date Guanlin! Hold my hands our date isn't finished yet!" She continuously ranted at me, while she was ranting I saw Jihoon with my peripheral vision which made me look at it immediately, but I'm not sure if it was him, my feet suddenly moved on its on trying to find the figure I have seen earlier.

Where is it, where is it? I keep thinking while moving so fast, keeping my pace more faster totally forgetting about Ae Bong.

I said I would forget him, I said I will try to be with Ae bong yet what am I doing just seeing his figure when I'm not even really it's him, I don't understand myself right now, did I indulge myself too much in Jihoon that I gotten this far to like him this much?

I don't know, I just like him, no, I love him.

Then after a long time finding the figure, I finally saw him, Jihoon, it was really him, I felt my lips curled up and was about to approach him and I was about to call his name, but then the time stopped, my movements stopped.

I saw a man beside Jihoon, and they were so happy.

With that one sight I saw, all of my feelings are shattered, then I asked myself.

What am I even doing in here?