Three days from now I'll be having a date with Ae bong, that's our agreement but I didn't agree that she's allow to do this kind of things.

"Guanlin, let's go to the cafeteria, let's eat together." As she smiled to me, I wanted to ignore her but he keeps nagging me to go to the cafeteria with her.

"Ae bong this is not part of our agreement, wha-" before I even finish my sentence, the girl in front of me dragged me out of the classroom, since it has come to this I just let her drag me until we reached the cafeteria.

She clings into my arms to show off to the crowd that she's mine, which is not even the truth, I sigh with what's going on right now and were this situation will bring me, but totally all wyes were at us now, people are muttering nonstop which makes me irritated.

"Hey, what are you doing right now?" I whispered to Ae bong, but instead of answering me she clings harder to me.

"Ae bong, answer me, this is not part of our agreement." I insisted Ae bong, she clicked her tongue and looked at me, I mean she glared at me but it didn't bother me and make face to her.

"Then this will be part of our agreement." She finally answered me, I mouthed a what to her, she pulled me closer to her and I can feel her breath on my ears right now.

"You're the one who wants to protect your little boy, right?" She whispered to me, while looking to someone, I traveled my eyes to the direction where she's looking and I saw Jihoon, looking at us, he awkwardly avoid our gazes making him stumble a little, it made me move automatically but I was stopped by Ae bong mouthing a no to me.

All I can do was look at Jihoon from afar, and there again, the reality hits me, that from the start Jihoon was always far away from me then that means in the end he will still be far away from me? I was the only who's hoping that something will magically happen, if Jihoon can't love me, is it possible that I can have feelings to Ae bong? Should I give her a chance even though she's a crazy psycho? It doesn't matter.

"Guanlin!" I come back to my senses, I look to Ae bong and my thoughts was going through my mind, I think I'll give it a try. I freed myself to Ae bong's gripped and put my arms across her shoulders while pulling her closer to me, that made the crowds attention look at us again, the both of us walked to find some seats which we're successful.

Ae bong and I act like we're together, minding our own world, I'll be lying if I said that I like it, definitely I feel so disgusted really disgusted with myself. Without us realizing it the lunch break ended. It made me feel quite relieved.

My day was a total wreck, I thought Ae bong will be persistent to go with me but she said she knows I have practice so she'll be going first, I agreed to her making myself like a very caring boyfriend saying to her that she should take care on her way home. After Ae bong was gone in our sight Daewhi was cringing all over.

"Your now going out with Ae bong? Seriously Guanlin what about the cute Jihoon? And didn't you said you'll die first before you'll date that psycho bitch?" He questioned me like this is an exclusive news that he had heard for all the rest of his life.

I rolled my eyes to him while I'm fixing my things up.

"It's not like that Daeshit, I'm not going out with her, it's all an act." I lazily explained to Daewhi, I thought he will stop being curious about what's going on but instead I saw his eyes, you know those eyes where they're shining, ugh.

"So what's the agreement, you should tell me, what, when, where, why and how, literally every little details of it!" He excitedly said to me, since his face was so close to me right now, I push it gently to make some distance between us.

"Well, she saw Jihoon at my house this morning, and she kinda blackmailed me... Uhh or not? I don't know, it's fvcking complicated dae." I summarized to Daewhi.

"Basically, this is all for Jihoon, again." I hummed to him as an answer, Saewhi and I started walking out of the classroom, while talking about the topic. After a few minutes I forcedly change the topic because I was tired talking about it, but before I even change the subject totally, Daewhi bid a farewell to me. I guess that's a great timing.

I proceed to my club and started my daily practice with my co-members, it was tiring as hell but I kinda survive but I was scolded by the coach that I'm not doing well today, damn it.

After the practice I kinda stayed at the bench while I'm rubbing my temples because I was so stressed with the feelings or with what's happening right now. I felt a tap on my shoulder and look who is it.

"Yo." He awkwardly wave a greeting to me, this guy.

"Jihoon." He immediately hit my head lightly after I said his name without being formal, I giggled a little Jihoon seats beside me and the two of us become so quite without any reasons, no, there's a reason but the two of us don't want to open and dig deeper what that is, maybe I'm scared or his scared.

"You didn't tell me, you've got some girl, huh." He finally spoken a word after a few minutes, I know this is coming, I have to laugh in front of Jihoon then say to him that yes it is my girl, Ae bong and I are going out but fvck I can't.

I didn't answer Jihoon and just stayed quiet, I didn't even look at his eyes because god who knows what will I do to him, and didn't I said to myself that I'll try to look at Ae bong and forget this gal over here? Damn why am I so complicated?

"Jihoon." I call his name, this time he didn't hit me but he looked at my eyes, the atmosphere has gotten lighter, I don't know why but it just happened, or it's just because of Jihoon, his eyes looking at mine like I'm the only one in his sight right now.

"You know, El paso means 'the path'." I started my another line for Jihoon, without me in a right state I started getting closer to Jihoon, while the other line was getting flustered with whats going on yet I keep going on.

"Hey." I cupped Jihoon's face to caress it, he wasn't flustered anymore, he become comfortable in a moment, I leaned my forehead into mine still caressing his cheeks with my hands.

"but can I add the 'with you' in my 'El Paso? That sounds great, right?" My words, I wonder if it's reaching Jihoon or not, but I wish it were, I wish he can feel how serious my feelings are for him, only for him.

"G-Guanlin?" He stutters, I looked at his plump lips that's very near, I traveled my thumb to his lips my attention where all on it, it was soft within my touch, how can this lips will fit in mine, or what's the feeling if it meets mine.

"The path with you, sounds great, totally great." I started to move again, gwttingg closer and closer for my aim, I can feel Jihoon's breath on my skin, it gives me the goosebumps how close we are right now, this only happens in my dream or imagination, is this my first kiss with Jihoon.

Would he hate me for it, despise? Or will he be conscious of me when I kiss him right now, I can't see his smile... Again?

With my last thoughts, I stopped and look at Jihoon, his eyes were shut closed I distance myself but still caressing his face, I saw him shaking, trembling with fear, again, this again, I made Jihoon scared, if this continue I will break him, if I do that then his smile will fade away.

"I'm sorry, we better go home." I didn't look at him and leave him out there alone, I gripped my hands while cursing myself.

I'm scared to lose Jihoon, what's worse is if I'm the reason if he'll disappear. Fvck feelings, fvck love. I better go and think about my date with Ae bong this saturday and everything will be over.