jjk:
i love you to hell and back

jjk:
you make me happy, you make me smile

jjk:
you make me cry and sometimes want to die

jjk:
but i love you

jjk:
and it's fucking scaring me because i haven't felt anything in a really long time. i'm scared that once you leave me, i will completely lose myself and my mind would fall into its deepest slumber yet

pjm:
who said i'd ever leave you?

jjk:
please don't say things like that

jjk:
don't you know how much you terrify me?

pjm:
i know

pjm:
i know because you terrify me all the same

jjk:
are you serious

pjm:
yes

pjm:
but not in that way

jjk:
what the actual fuck

pjm:
jungkook, i'm just terrified that i'll be the cause of all your pain

pjm:
i'm so sorry

jjk:
what are you talking about???

pjm:
i love you but not in that way

pjm:
i'm straight and i have always been

jjk:
what the fuck park jimin

pjm:
i never said i was gay

jjk:
yea, but you never quit calling me "baby" either

jjk:
and what the fuck was that "who said i'd ever leave you?"

pjm:
jungkook, i won't leave you just because i don't see you that way

pjm:
and i call almost all my friends 'baby', jungkook

pjm:
it's a normal thing for me

jjk:
for you

pjm:
other people usually call their friends that too. i'm not the only one

pjm:
i'm sorry if i ever played with your feelings unconsciously

jjk:
fuck jimin goddamn it okay it's not your goddamn fault

jjk:
it's not your fucking fault that you're straight and that you don't love me

jjk:
don't apologize because it only makes me feel even more pathetic

pjm:
i never want to hurt you, you know that, right?

jjk:
you don't hurt me, jimin

jjk:
i hurt me

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ㅡ this book is a sequel to beating heart, so if you haven't read that, i strongly suggest you do so first before continuing this one. this story might also have some triggering scenes. please note that i do not promote any types of self-harm in any way. i will make sure to put warnings in the beginning of the triggering chapters. and if i make any mistakes, please do tell me. it will help. just remember, i'm chill as long as you're chill. furthermore, this one will have very short chapters, so don't expect much ; a/n ㅡ

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, songs, places, events and incidents are either products of my imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any ressemblance to actual events are purely coincidental.

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All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, transmitted, or stored in an information retrieval system in any form or by any means, graphic, electronic, or mechanical, including photocopying, taping, and recording, without prior written permission from the author.

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