Krystal P. O. V

I hauled a cap after reaching the airport of my home, my head hung low. I payed the driver after arriving home, dragging my suitcase and knocking on the door.

"Krysi! I thought you wouldn't come home until next week." Aunt Lisa said.

"Hay mom!" I said a small smile on my face, trying to hide the horrible feeling that brick is so hard to carry.

"You told Harry," she said, I nodded, "he didn't like it" she continued, I nodded my head yes again vigorously. She hugged me, "he'll come around baby, even if he didn't I'll never leave you" she said tightening an embrace around me.

I was thankful Andy had returned to Italy for his degree, so he wouldn't see how much of a mess I am. I agreed with Aunt Lisa not tell about Harry's breakup with me, I don't want to rub his good image for Maria and uncle Michael. I begged her to tell them he's okay with it.

Minutes were passing so quickly turning into hours, into days into weeks. Danielle had visited me last week, so as Mariam and Cece and my girls Selen and Gabi. Everyone had been supportive. But the support of a particular person was still missing.

**

I was eating popcorn and watching The Notebook I hate that movie, I heard the door bell ring shouting for someone to open the door I got up when the ringing wouldn't stop.

I opened the door not prepared for who it was.

"Hay Krysi!"

"H... Hay? Gemma! What are you doing here? C... Come in... Come in" I spoke, she entered rubbing her arms it was her first time visiting me. And I was very flummoxed.
Nevertheless, I led her to my room.

"How far are you?" She asked pointing at my womp.

"6 months," I answered sitting down. She raised her eyebrows asking me why didn't I tell her.

"What's there to tell Gemma?" I asked, turning the TV off.

"He misses you you know " she said.

"Gemma, he doesn't if he did he wouldn't have let me go, he would've came back" I told her.

"He wants to, he's just afraid of rejection...." She continues but I stop her.

"Gemma.... Gemma, this is me you're talking about and that's Harry. If he wants to do something he will. Look you don't have to speak for him. I... " I rub my forehead trying to contain my hormones. "I am trying to get him out of my mind. I don't need this, he doesn't love me.... He doesn't love me enough if he did and you know your brother so well you don't need me to tell you he wouldn't have broke his promise. Gemma please just have mercy on me, take it easy on my heart. I know you got good intentions, I can tell... Neither of you mean to hurt me but you're tearing me apart." I cried.

"I am so sorry Krystal, I just came to see you. I really don't want to see you hurting."

"You should've told that to your brother" I told her, she looked down. I smiled, running a hand through my hair. "Hay! It's okay. I appreciate you coming all the way here. Are you hungry? Cause I am! We are two now of savagely hungry animals all the time!" I joked. She laughed.

"I remember Harry telling me how good of a cook you're, I would like to see for myself" she said, I smiled. Telling her "I am quite the master chief aren't I?"

***
For weeks now I have been trying to shake that horrible feeling of being unwanted by the person I love.
I still can't believe any of it, it feels like a dream. Feels like something is missing when you're not around, why can't we just be together. Today, too; like everyday I feel the sadness of not being able to kiss and hold you.

"Uhm Krysi this package came for you" I heard Maria, interrupting my chain of thoughts.

"Really from who?" I asked, taking the two boxes.

I opened the bigger one to see a dress, I frowned at who might have sent that, Could it be?

"Omg! They're beautiful!" Maria said holding a pair of heels in her hand, which was in the smaller box.

There was an envelope pinned to the interior of the box I opned it reading out the seems to be letter.

Dear Krysi, you know I love you right! and you know I only want the best for you wherever and with whoever you choose. Yet, I want it to so badly be with a certain someone. That's why I am asking you to attend the Another Man Lunch event in London. I will understand if you don't come the plane ticket is inside the envelope. Please Krysi if I ever meant anything to you as a friend or a sister or just someone you met please come I want to see you. I miss you.

With Love,

Gemma Styles.

***
"I missed you so much!" Gemma soothingly hugged me.

"I missed you too" I replied hugging her tightly.

"I am glad you made it, let's go!" she said, pulling out of the hug.

"Does he know?" I asked not moving as she tried to pull my hand.

"Who?" She asked, I just looked at her knowingly, she's playing dump.
"N.. No" she said.

"Gemma.. He wouldn't want me there plus it wouldn't be right I.."

"Please Krysi let's just forget about him and have fun you and me okay and you look beautiful" Gemma said spinning me around.

I laughed bitterly, "thanks to you!" I said.

"Actually Lou helped a lot as well and she would like to meet you so come on! Harry wouldn't be here until later anyway you can leave before he comes if you want okay!" She said

I smiled walking with her to meet Lou Tesdail One Direction's stylist. I smiled as I saw her from a distance talking with some beautiful blond.

Of course; I didn't have a choice but to take that plane ticket and make my way to the airport 2 days after receiving Gemma's letter she practically begged me to come other than the fact she paid for a dress and transportation! Who am I to say no. Yeah, and Maria's constant nagging was a major reason too.

"Hi! I am Krystal" I greeted Lou.

"Hi sugar nice to meet you I have heard a lot about you" she said hugging me. "Congratulations do you know the gender yet?" She asked. I smiled sadly trying my best not to show and answered "No"

We stood talking a bit more, from my peripheral vision I could see a couple of men staring at me and pointing shamelessly.

"You got eyes on you bbe!" Gemma said nudging me.

"Shut up!" I said trying not to smile.

"Oh don't take pride, it has got to be the dress" she said, I laughed along with her and Lou who was listening.

"Pictures?" Lou announced, I nodded posing for outfit pictures

I tried my hardest not to pay attention to the most handsome boy in the room, for the past 30 minutes I had lost track of time with Lou and Gemma making all my plans of leaving before Harry comes disappear into thin air. Seems like he's enjoying himself, looks like I'm the only one who's hurting and burning from the inside. "Look baby that's your dady isn't he handsome" I whispered rubbing my womp despite all the overly whelming tingles I got upon seeing him.

I turned around quickly as he almost caught me staring right at him after a few minutes I turned back around to see him talking to someone who wasn't at all average looking.

Wow! I felt slightly bad I had him for two years when he was always surrounded by such great looking women ALL THE TIME!

I truly did try to indulge with Lou's conversation until Gemma comes back from where she was, she excused herself as the Magazine's editor asked her to join for a drink to which she was hardly able to refuse. I didn't know she was the one who wrote the articles in the Magazine. Would you believe me if I told you that I hadn't yet seen those pictures?

Of course not, because I did! I am really stupid. It's easy to predict what I might have done upon seeing them, let's just agree it was a pregnant lady hormones. Like what do I do when I see this?

I thought they were photoshopped! Oh well it wasn't very pleasant look I had on upon seeing those pictures.

He's truly another man, I thought as I continue to look at him as he drinks his champagne. Only... He looks distant, if I didn't know better I would say he wasn't feeling well, sad?

He smiled polity taking pictures with a few men.

It happened so quickly as I didn't have time to turn around as we locked eye contact, I don't know what it was we were several meters away his eyes looked dark I wasn't able to tell from so far away in the dime lightning.
I lowered my gaze expecting him to look away, but he didn't.

I didn't know what to do as I bit my lip nervously and fiddled with my necklace, his; it was a bad idea to wear it but I hadn't taken it off since Harry placed around my neck on my 18th birthday. I looked at him one more time to see him drinking uninterestingly giving short answrs to the couple of guys beside him. I lower my gaze nodding to Lou. She was standing in front of me now and Harry was a couple of meters behind so it didn't look like I was looking directly at him; but... It was. Lou wasn't stupid she knew I wasn't listening since he walked into the room.

I was pulled off by someone's hand on my lower back, I flinched at the foregien touch.

"May I buy the beautiful lonely lady a drink?" The deep voice asked.
I turned around keeping distance.

"Thank you I don't want, and I am not lonely my friends are here" I spoke take a step back. The black haired guy only took a step closer.

"I know, I saw the lady you were talking to make her way over there" he whispered in my ear.

I raised my eyebrow, "I have been infuriated by you since you walked in, if you haven't noticed all heads turned" he said.

"Thanks, but it was nice seeing you. I will be going now" I said, attempting the short steps to where I knew Lou would be.

"Harry! Gemma could we have a picture for the Daily Magazine!" I heard a loud voice.

I took that as my cue to get out as I wasn't comfortable around this guy.
"Why so fast?" he asked, I rolled my eyes. He's so clingy!

I looked around ignoring him, I felt his hand on my lower naked back again making me move away. "Please don't touch me again" I snapped.

"Feisty! I like" he said

I shook my head in disgust, is he stupid or too drunk to notice my 6 months basically 3 meters ahead womb!

Lou had returned and the guy who's name turned out to me Nicolas hasn't yet left instead he made himself my friend and introduced himself to Lou. His hand yet again traveling to my waist I moved his hand faking a smile and glaring at him. Lou had noticed and was giving him dirty looks.
His hand yet again moved to my shoulder I was about to turn and give it to him when The deep raspy voice I know too well to mistake shouted.

"What is wrong with you mate? I think she's made it clear enough! move out and don't you dare touch her again!" Harry raged.

A couple of people where now watching, I swore I saw Harry ball his fists his knuckles white. He wouldn't hit the guy would he. I was very embarrassed to stay any second either way so I just walked and walked. Tears spilling unknowingly.

Hallo beautiful readers, hopefully you enjoyed this chapter.

I'm not in a good place rn I'm incredibly not okay, I'm so sorry to hear about Louis's mom I wish I never idk.... I just need stitches and a lot of them to hold me together I just knew this on Friday. It hurts a lot to lose someone, it kills to lose a family member and it destroyers to lose the only person in the world who's capable of loving and giving so much with out waiting for anything in return THAT IS YOUR MOTHER. The one person who..... Just gave up almost everything... I want from everyone reading this to go to their moms right now RIGHT NOW GO HUG YOUR MOM AND TELL HER YOU LOVE HER. Goodbye is so close guys no one knows no one would expect!

May Allah bless and protect all of our Moms and family, Be nice, be kind. Because it's really gonna hurt when you're alone, and all you'll want is to feel again because there ain't NOBODY LIKE YOUR MOM. Make peace with people who matter the most to YOU.

Lots of love ❤❤❤

Mimi ✌

13th of Dec, 2016 @ 2:14 AM