Jessica's point of view

A person should know when they are going to die, I strongly believe so. It doesn't sit right with me for me to die not knowing.
I open my eyes and everything comes rushing back.

He said he loves me

I grip the end of the sheet and I heard a beeping sound.

Hospital

"Welcome back to the land of the living." A young nurse said smiling at me.

The door opened and in walked a doctor with a notepad, he was almost pushed down by them.

Them

All of them

When did I have so many people around me? I can't quite remember. Yeah right at my job.

"Oh my God," That familiar voice said and she walks around and stood next to me.

"I'm not paralyzed you didn't have to come," I shoot out at her.

Where did that anger come from? I wonder.

She bowed her head and I turn away from mine, just to see his pair of eyes. My heart did a leap I almost choked, I could swear it was in my mouth. I squeezed my chest as my heart pick up speed and heat rise to my cheeks.

The doctor turn around and looked at the machine and I turn my head back to my mother.

"I'll give you guys some space, remember that this is a hospital, you guys shouldn't be around her for too long, in here isn't too big as you can see," said the doctor firmly,  signaling the nurse and they left.

"I'm sorry, I wanted to see you," She laid her soft hand on my cheeks and I shiver. It felt so familiar yet strange.

"For so long? this long? when am on death bed mother?"I pushed her hand away.

" I'm sorry, I've tried really, I've been helping Jacqueline with her children so that I could come over and help you."

"It is the truth," Dad said stepping forward and I could see how embarrassed mother was.

"Mhmm, Don't worry I always forgive but I don't forget."

"Can you at least allow me to hug you?" She asked and I could feel tears coming.

Since when has she asked to give me without doing it? I'm I that careful?

"Yes of course," I said hugging her like my life depend on it, squeezing my eyes shut afraid Trevor will see the tears but he did because I broke down crying. I could hear the other's feet shifting around.
How awkward it must be for them.

"I'm sorry you guys, I'm back to normal now I guess."

"You better be normal and tell me who is this Mr.Handsome over here," Mother said pulling away, sniffing and smiling at the same time.
I should have known this was coming.

"See you are even blushing already, Is this the young man you were telling me about Jack?" Mother asked twisting her body around, Dad quickly covered her mouth.

"I told you not to say anything woman." He hissed at her and I grin despite the nervous air.

"This is Trevor, Mother."

"Is he your boyfriend?"

Boyfriend? Did we even talk about that? No, we didn't

I couldn't even look up, afraid to disappoint her.

"It's alright, you can talk to me, I mean he is your father type of guy, isn't he? One of those badass?"

Oh shit

"Oh, oh, sorry, I didn't say anything bad did I? Is he your son? I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend, I'm just nervous. I don't want anybody hu-", but dad interrupt her and pulled her out of the room.

" I'm sorry," I muttered.

"It's alright, I'm a mother I understand, it's good to see you are well," said Trevor's mom. She kissed me on the cheek and walked out.

Ricky and a lady stood in the corner, Brie was jumping on one leg, while Mary was holding her up. She bolt from Mary's arm and hugged me almost pressing me into the bed.

"I'm alive!"I said laughing. They all come and joined Brie, even though Brie was hardly giving them space to hug me. Ricky introduced his lady friend and  I smiled at her.

" It's your turn now brother, come on, don't just stand there looking like a statue that they polished and leave in the market overnight."

How can she say such things? How can I face him? The first man to say he loves me, does he even knows what he said? I mean the way I was shocked I even lost control of the car. Not that I'm blaming him, it wasn't his heart that jerked and caused my nervous system to break down. It was mine.

I bowed my head and looked down at the pattern of the sheet. Zig-zag, all zig-zag which represents my life, there is not even one straight line.

"I don't think now is the right time."

"You are even leaving without saying goodbye?" Mary asked in disbelief and I looked up. He is really tall. They step aside and Brie winked at me and step aside as well. I never knew he was this tall until he walked over and lean over me.

"It's good to see you breathing again." He said slightly brushing my cheeks, sticky they were and I realized they were from my blood. He didn't even change his clothes.

How did I lose so much blood?

I slightly touched his chest and my fingers stick to it.
I felt him shift under my touch and his heartbeat was firing away under my palms. I snatched my hand away as if burned.

"I won't disturb you anymore, okay?" He said and surprised, he kissed me on the forehead in front of everyone.

I heard my heart beeping on the machine and I try to smile but my cheeks couldn't move muscle.

Beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep

The doctor came rushing in, just as Trevor lifts his lips from my forehead, I could still feel the kiss still there.

"You can't be kissing your girlfriend when she is on a machine, her heart rate is all the way up. I'm sorry but You'll have to leave," The doctor said and my heart beat away faster. A couple of security walked in and ushered the others out.

I could hardly breathe as I watched him walk out the door, walking away from me. His walking away just didn't feel right. The kiss on the forehead...He didn't even look back.

The kiss on the forehead! He is leaving!

"I need to get out of here-I need-to-Please-doctor-he is-" I fought for air but I was held down by more doctors and nurses that came in. They clasp an oxygen mask over my face as I grasp for air.

"I'm begging you please Miss, keep calm, you've lost a lot of blood, got a few stitches to the head and you need a lot of blood to return to normal, you can't get your heart rate going up like that, it will affect the brain."

He is leaving me!!

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How broken Jessica feels right now is unexplainable. I'm so sorry for her. Especially since she is pretty banged up.

Surprise:Do you guys remembered Regina Belmont?The girl that was chopped to pieces at the hotel?
Did you noticed that Jessica's mom had the same name?
I couldn't come up with a other name that fits her, so I used the same name.I bet you guys forgot,but that's okay.What matters is that you are enjoying the story.

I cant' believe Trevor is leaving tough, with just a silent goodbye. I guess everybody has their own heartbreaks.

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