Fandom: Dear Evan Hansen

AU: Hanahaki Jared

Ships: TreeBros, Kleinsen

Type: Angst

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{Jared's POV}

Evan...

Evan Hansen...

One of my long time crushes.

I've longed to kiss him, to hold him, to cuddle him, ever since I saw him be a little more confident around me.

Everyday I woke up and told myself, "I'll confess today!"

But that plan was always thrown out the window.

Finally I was ready to tell him, I practiced what I was going to saw, I looked decent enough.

I turned the corner to see him with that freak Conner Murphy.

I saw Murphy signing his cast, his name was put hugely.

I could've done that..

My attention turned to Evan, I looked into his beautiful eyes and just saw something else alive in them.

Love......dammit.

He fell for the Murphy!

I felt my heart shatter into a million, my vision blurred and water filled my eyes.

I ran to the bathroom to bawl my eyes out.

But I chose the wrong bathroom to go in. Unisex.

I kept crying, I didn't care. Then someone came in.

"Jared?" The familiar voice said, Zoe Murphy.

She's been a good friend to go to about problems.

She wrapped her arm around me and I cried into her shirt. "What happened?"

I tried to speak but I couldn't, she just thought I was choking on tears but..it was something else.

{No POV}

Jared pulled away from the hug and started to have a coughing fit.

Zoe flat out thought he was coughing because he cried too much but it was something much worse.

Jared was finally able to gag out whatever he was choking on. A little flower petal, another came out. One was red and the other was blue.

The girl covered her mouth, she almost cried at this.

"Hanahaki." She simply said.

"What?" Jared looked at her, sniffling a little.

The blonde pulled her phone out and search it.

"Hanahaki is a disease born from a one sided love. The person who gets Hanahaki will start coughing up flower petals, this disease is incredibly deadly.

There are two ways to get rid of this.
The first is surgery, but when the flowers are removed, so is the feelings for the love interest.
The second is the other person falling for you."

Jared's eyes widened.

"We need to get you the surgery-"

"NO!" Jared cut Zoe off. "I never want to stop loving Evan. He's too perfect to give up!"

Zoe sighed and left him.

~~ Time Skip ~~

Jared, Evan, Conner, all the seniors! They all had graduated.

Evan and Conner had been dating for a while.

Whenever Evan and Jared would hang out, he would just list everything he loved about Conner.

Jared would just hold back the flowers and tears and smile only for Evan.

It has been about 5 months since they graduated. Jared lived on his own and kept in contact with everyone.

It was a normal afternoon of nothing when there was a knock on the door. He answered it and found a letter at his feet.

He took it inside and opened it.

"Congrats! You have been invited to the wedding between Conner Murphy and Evan Hansen!"

Jared just lost it. He cried his eyes out and suffered with the flowers coming out, eventually blood started it spill.

But like he cared.

He only lived for Evan's happiness.

~~ Smol Time Skip ~~

Three weeks later he attended the wedding.

Crying but remained to look happy as the two sealed their love with a kiss.

Everyone celebrated but Jared excused himself home.

He kept crying and crying, more flowers and blood went up his throat and slipped out of his mouth.

~~ Big Time Skip ~~

Five years.

Five years Jared dealt with Hanahaki. He was just at the park, relaxing and taking in the view.

When a little kid came up to him, he had brown long hair.

"Excuse me." He tugged at Jared's pants.

"Ya little guy." He smiled and leaned forward.

"Can you help me find my dad?" The little guy asked.

Jared nodded and picked him up. "Where did you last see him?"

"ALEXANDER!" A familiar voice screeched. (Yes I'm doing this)

Jared spun around and saw Evan running to him. "Jared?" He smiled brightly and hugged him. "It's been forever!"

"Dad!" The little kid clings onto Evan.

Jared felt the last shard of his heart vanish. "Dad?" He chuckled and put on a smile anyway.

"Yep! Conner and I adopted this little fella about three years ago." Evan booped Alexander's nose.

The two talked before Jared left for home.

He keeled in pain and sorrow onto the ground.

"This is my last moment. Huh?" He smiled, knowing fully well that Evan was still happy, and would be even if he was gone.

~~ Time Skip ~~

{Evan's POV}

I knocked on Jared's door to just hang out with him, something we haven't done in forever.

Nothing.

I knocked again. I knew he said that he was going home.

Nothing once more.

"Jared?" I called. "I'm coming in!" I opened the surprisingly unlocked door.

I looked down and saw a trail of flowers and blood.

I covered my mouth, hoping for the best.

I walked down the corridor, following the blood and flowers to his room.

I walked in and saw the worst.

Jared, my best friend since childhood, laid on the bed. Vines were growing out of his mouth, he looked deathly pale as open flowers and blood surrounded him.

I jumped when the bottom of his button up was forced open, a giant flower bloomed from there.

He held a note in his hand that was dangling off the bed.

I took it and read it.

"Do not read if your not Evan Hansen."

I'm Evan Hansen. So I kept reading.

"Dear Evan Hansen.

If your reading this then you probably heard I died.
I'm so sorry for this.

I only wished to love you, ever since freshman I realized I was so gay for you.

Everything about you was just so amazing and precious.

I love you so much that I just couldn't bare to get rid of this stupid disease called Hanahaki.

Ask Zoe about it, she knows.

Your wedding was the most heartbreaking, but the most beautiful. Seeing you so happy to be married to Conner, it made me happy.

And your kid Alexander. Such a sweet and beautiful boy. It broke my heart that he wasn't ours but as long as your happy.

Evan. No matter how far we are, no matter if I'm dead or alive. I will forever love you.

To the best of husbands and best of man, Evan.

I leave you eternally happiness.

Love, Jared Kleinman (that how you spell it?)"

~~ Time Skip ~~

I can't tell Jared that I don't feel the same way, but I don't.

I only love him as family.

But I still cry about his death.

"Dear Jared Kleinman,

I'm sorry for everything I didn't see you suffer thru.

Sincerely, Evan Hansen."

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End A/N: *sips tea* PFFFT- WHO PUT ANGST IN MY TEA?!