50- Confessions
Louis walked back to their apartment his boots making a crunching sound as he walked on the gravel filled side walk.
He couldn't help but feel radiant and cheerful, knowing that he was returning to the apartment, returning to his home, to his Harry.
Niall's words echoed in his head, "You need to talk to him Louis, tell him everything, tell him exactly what happened and exactly what you feel, don't back off and don't assume anything and think he doesn't like you unless he says it himself."
He could do this.
As soon as the key clicked in the lock, he heard footsteps within the apartment.
"L-Louis?" Harry said from somewhere inside, his voice shaking slightly with hope and fear of disappointment.
"It's me Haz." Louis replied walking into the apartment.
For a moment, there was silence and then out of nowhere, Harry came rushing towards him, colliding into him and hugging him tight, holding on for dear life to the back of Louis' collar.
Louis had to hold onto the door to steady himself and then he was hugging Harry back, hugging him equally tightly, his senses alive now that he was with Harry.
"Please don't ever do that to me again Lou." Harry managed to get out and then he broke down in Louis' arms.
"I'm sorry Harry, I'm really sorry for doing that to you."
Harry stayed like that for a while, the side of Louis' neck soon wet with Harry's tears. He didn't want to let go, he never wanted to let go. He wanted to stay in Louis' embrace forever because when Louis held him like that, he felt like he had a place in this world, he felt like he belonged.
It felt like home.
Louis held him through it, rubbing his back soothingly, wanting to comfort him somehow, anyhow.
They stood like that for a while, until Harry pulled away slowly, a confused expression on his face.
"It's okay Lou, but what even happened to you? I mean one minute everything was alright and the next minute you looked so hurt and you rushed off.. I didn't even know what I had done, I searched everywhere for you, I was in despair."
"You really don't know why I reacted that way?" Louis asked softly.
"No Lou, I really don't."
Louis breathed in deeply.
This was it. It was now or never.
"I'm in love with you Harry."
Harry felt like his heart would combust with how fast it was beating, his breath hitched at the back of his throat and his eyes widened.
Louis was in love with him!? Louis was in love with him. Louis.
Harry stood there stunned while his mind raced in a thousand different directions sparking and sizzling as though there were explosions going off in his head.
"You love me? But Louis, I thought you said you were.." he said when he had finally found his voice.
"I know, I know Harry but I don't know something changed and I realised I was falling for you, that got me thinking.. remember when I asked you how you realised you were gay? I also did some research and stuff, and well, I'm gay. Also, I'm in love with a curly haired lad with the most beautiful green eyes I've ever seen."
"Oh Louis, if only you had told me before." Harry whispered.
"I tried Harry, I really, really tried. But you went on that trip and then you were asleep in the car when I picked you up, the next morning you were away with Natasha or whatever her name is and in the evening.."
"Louis do you know why I went to meet Natalie? Why I did what I did?"
"I don't know Harry. All I know was when I saw you with him, it felt like my whole world was falling apart."
Louis the whole reason I met her, the whole reason I was with that guy, it was because.. because I was afraid I was falling for you, falling hard and fast and I thought you'd never feel the same way. I thought it'd be best if i tried to move on.. It was because I realised I was in love with you Louis."
"You're in love with me?" Louis asked, wonder and disbelief clear in his voice.
There was really no better option than to kiss the flicker uncertainty right off Louis' face, so that's what Harry did.
He stepped closer to him and littered Louis' cheeks and chin with soft butterfly kisses until Louis was blushing and laughing, his eyes crinkling and shining with pure, uncondensced happiness.
"Louis Tomlinson, I am truly, madly, deeply in love with you."
Louis let out a deep breath.
"Harry Styles, the feeling is mutual, we've discussed it."
Harry smiled and smiled until his face ached from smiling, his heart had never felt lighter, he had never felt this happy as slowly the broken pieces of his world began to piece themselves together again. His life was far from perfect, he knew that, but with Louis saying the things he was, he was almost convinced it was.
"Now kiss me you fool." Harry whispered softly and teasingly.
Louis moved closer, cupping Harry's face with his palms.
Harry immediately noticed the hesitation and worry in Louis' expression. "Lou? What's the matter? We don't have to if you don't want to, there's no hurry."
"No Harry, I want to, I really want to, in fact there's nothing I want more than to kiss you but I've never done this before, with a guy, with someone I care about, someone I love, the kisses in my past meant nothing but this one means a whole lot to me and I don't want to mess it up."
Harry didn't say anything, he just leaned in and softly pressed his lips against Louis'.
He kissed him slowly and softly, his insides slowly melting. When he kissed Louis, he felt like nothing could ever go wrong, he felt calm, he felt safe, he felt loved.
Louis felt like his whole body was on fire. His face was flushed and his body longed for more.
So this is what he'd been missing out on so far. This is what a real kiss feels like.
Louis tentatively opened his mouth slightly, winding his arms around Harry's hair, gently tugging at his curls.
It didn't take much long after that for the kiss to turn from a chaste, gentle one to a passionate one that set fireworks exploding in both their heads.
When they finally broke off the kiss, Louis looked up at Harry and it was as though someone had finally broken the one tiny wall that separated the two of them. He could now see the side of Harry he would have never been able to see as just his friend. He was now able to see the love in his eyes and he hoped Harry could see that love reflected back in Louis' eyes as well.
When Harry looked at him, all he knew was that his world was falling into place, because with Louis looking at him like this, with Louis by his side, everything made sense.
Author's Note
I'm so sorry I made you'll wait 50 chapters, I hope it was worth the wait, if you'll liked this chapter, please comment and vote, it makes my day :)
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