A/N- RIP Chadwick Boseman😓😓
In line with the travails happening in the world today, it's taught me that death is inevitable and we should live our lives well so that we can leave a good legacy behind. So people can remember us for the amazing people we once were.

That aside, a new update.
Enjoy 🥂

                                                           
Two weeks after Mason and I got back from our trip. I've spent my time in between school hours and visiting the hospital for different check ups to confirm if I'm still eligible for the surgery. Just yesterday, the team of doctors confirmed that they can give my case a trial.
My surgery was scheduled for Thursday. I didn't tell my parents about the whole hospital visits 'cause I didn't want to build their hopes up, only for us to be told that I can't be operated on any longer.
I decided to tell them today since it was confirmed yesterday that I can be operated on. So, I decided to tell them during dinner.

"So, mom and dad," I called them to have their attention, they stopped eating and glanced up at me, "I have decided to do the surgery. I've also been scheduled to be operated on Thursday and before you both have my head for not telling you before the surgery was scheduled, I didn't know I will still be eligible to be operated on." I finished.

Mom had an elated look on her face like 'Finally! She's doing the surgery.'
I decided to burst her bubble a bit by being honest. I didn't want her hopes to be dashed if the surgery doesn't go well.
"Mom before you get overly excited or anything, remember the surgery only has one percent success rate and even after that, during chemotherapy, something can go wrong." I saw the light dim in my mom's eyes but I knew I did the right thing. I don't want her to be too disappointed if I don't make it.

My dad cleared his throat. My dad unlike my mom masks his emotions well.
"We're happy you have taken this decision personally and anything that happens during the surgery and the treatment, we'll take it as the will of God." He smiled sadly.

I smiled back as we held our hands together as a family. I knew my Mom was going to tell my brother.
I decided to tell Mason this night when he comes over. We all know that he never sleeps. When he came over and I told him, he pulled me into a tight hug.

"I can't believe that you are finally doing the surgery. I'm so glad." He smiled radiantly. This is Mason's real smile in weeks.
"But you know..." I was saying when he interjected, "I know... I know. It's not certain. It may most certainly flop, don't get my hopes up and all that stuff you've been saying. I'm just glad you have a ray of hope, don't ruin it please."

"You're such a big baby. Don't worry, I won't ruin anything. I'm just trying to be..." I was saying again, when he cut me off, "Don't talk again Hailey. You just make things worse when you open your mouth."
I gasped, "You're so rude! How can you say that to me? I'm going to tell your mom you're being rude." I advanced towards my balcony to jump over to his but Mason held me down and started tickling me.

After bouts of laughing and pleading with Mason to stop before I pee my pants, he finally stopped. He placed his forehead on mine and held my waist.
"Stay with me Hailey. You have to fight this, okay? I can't imagine life without you."

I tried to tease him, "Don't be a Shakespeare Mason."
Mason shook his head, "I'm not trying to be. I'm serious when I say I can't imagine life without you."
My face spotted a frown as I said, "You have to learn how to let go Mason. What if..." He cut me short by placing his fingers on my lips, "What did we agree on being negative?"
I huffed, "Alright, I'll try."

"Better." He smiled and hugged me.
After some hours of watching some movies, I finally slept off. Before I drifted off, I heard Mason sniff, like he was crying.
He said, "Don't leave me Hailey. I don't think I can handle it if you leave like my dad."

A tear dropped my eyes as I drifted off. Why does it feel like rather than staying, I'm going to go.

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"So Marvin explained himself, now we're cool." Scarlett said smiling widely. If anyone would have told me that Marvin and Scarlett won't throttle each other during the project but would rather become closer, I would have sincerely doubted it.
In case you are wondering where I am, I am at the hospital. It's two days to my surgery and my doctor suggested that I stayed in the hospital. The first day, my family members and friends can come visit. The second day is for prepping and only few people can visit.

Scarlett and Brittany were the second batch to visit. The guys, that is, Ryder and Xavier already visited this morning. It was as non-emotional as they could make it be as guys. Just few drops of tears and some sniffs, then we were all okay.

Scarlett was telling I and Brittany that her and Marvin are now cool. She said he explained why he did what he did then. His abusive Dad just got out of jail and while he's not proud of it, he lost his cool and went to the nearest party to drink. While it's still not an excuse, he slept with Faye. He wasn't in the right frame of mind and when Scarlett caught him with Faye , he was really ashamed but he didn't want to show it so he said hurtful things to her. Seeing Scarlett flourishing without him by her side broke him down and he decided to right things in his life. He got to talk with his Dad who apologized and assured him he was changed. He wanted to right things with Scarlett, but when he heard her say venomously that she would rather die than have such a two-timer and conniving snake as a partner, he became defensive 'cause he didn't want her to know how much that comment hurt him. So he made the comment about her being his partner would be an elevation to her social class.

During one of their meetings where they were grudgingly and robotically trying to tolerate each other, he broke down in tears. Scarlett was freaked out at first and lost at what to do, but when he got a grip of his emotions, he explained everything to her and pleaded for her to forgive him and take him back. Scarlett told him told him that the only she could afford to do right now is to forgive him and maybe they can try to be friends but as for taking him back, time will tell.
I'm actually so happy that they reconciled. It's better to be in harmony than to beef with someone.

"So when is the Marvlett ship sailing again?" Brit asked, teasing Scarlett.
Scarlett blushed a deep shade of red as she said, "I don't know."
Brit and I raised our brows in mockery as Scarlett fidgeted, "I don't, alright? You all should stop making me nervous and sweaty."

Brit and I glanced at each other and started laughing. We knew it wouldn't be long before that ship sets sail and that's why Scarlett is blushing like an ambushed tomato.

"You both are bullies, big time bullies." Scarlett huffed.
We started laughing again and it wasn't long before Scarlett joined in. Their visit was really fun. I was so sad to see them go 'cause this may be the last time I'll ever see their faces again, but I'm glad our last time counted for something.
My dad and mom decided to come in at different times. My dad came in first.

"Hey kiddo, how are you feeling?" He asked immediately he shut the door.
"I'm hanging on Dad." I smiled.
My dad sat down on the bed and drew closer to me, "You know I'm not one for much talk but I want you to know that I'm really proud of you. And even though you may not stay as long as we wanted in our lives, I'm really glad you came to our lives even if it's for a short while. I love you so much my dear Hailey."

Hearing my Dad say this brought so much emotions. I sat up so that I was resting my back on the wall rather than in a lying position. I hugged him tightly as he patted my back.

"I love you too Dad."
My strong Dad, my Dad who's been my anchor cried. Not the wailing type but the silent sob-racking the body type. I didn't even know what to say as silent tears dropped from my eyes.
My mom's visit was less talk and more emotions. Her eyes were already red, meaning she's been crying.

"I promised myself that I'll be strong but my eyes is telling another story." My mom chuckled sadly.
I smiled and pulled her into a hug. I've been doing a lot of hugging this days and I think it has something to do with how close I may be to leaving this earth.
"And she says she's not like that." I chuckled.

"Whatever." Mom smiled an almost genuine smile, then she continued, "Your Dad said I should be mature about this and shouldn't cry so you don't feel worse than you feel right now. So I'm just going to say few things. I love you so much my dear and while I'm sad that this is happening and how helpless I am as your mother to help you ease the pain, I can't help but accept that anything that's happening is the will of God. I just want to let you know that you're the best thing that ever happened to me and the best daughter anyone can ask for." Mom said hugging me.

I hugged her tightly like she'll disappear soon. I just realized how insensitive I've been all this while. My mother is the most attached 'cause she carried me for nine months and watched me grow. It's never easy for a mother to lose her child, so I totally understand how torn she must be feeling right now. Like someone ripped something out of her hands without asking for her permission first.

"And you're the best mom I can ever wish for, no caps." I smiled.
She withdrew from the hug and wiped her face with her palms before she spoke, "And if it makes you feel any better, you do the best mom impressions."

I grinned at her, "I knew you were going to admit one day."

This moment right here, that I'm having with my mom, this is a precious moment. My only wish is that should I die in the course of either the treatment or a complication during chemotherapy, I want my mom one day to be able to remember me without tears in her eyes but rather, with her smile on her face.

That's one of my greatest wish.