finding love.

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" Weird.. Lan Zhan hasn't reply to me yet.. ", Wei Ying mutters to himself, causing Huaisang to look up at him tiredly.

" Maybe he hasn't read it yet. ", He reasons, and Wei Ying shakes his head.

" No.. He just left me on seen.. Do you think he's mad at me? ", Wei Ying can't seems to sit still on his seat. ' Is he really angry at me because of yesterday? ', He bits his thumb nail, nervously.

" How should I know? Just ask him once he arrives. ", Huaisang turns his back against Wei Ying, resting his head on the table. Huai Sang is acting weird today. He also looks really tired lately, he comes to school with bags under his red eyes. Doesn't he get enough sleep lately?

Wei Ying nudges Jiang Cheng's back with his foot, causing the latter to look behind him. Wei Ying motions him to come closer, Jiang Cheng did as told and lean his ears closer to Wei Ying.

" Do you know what's the matter with Huaisang lately? ", Wei Ying whispers to his brother.

" I don't know. He refuses to talk to me, telling me he's feeling tired. ", Jiang Cheng eyes his usually talkative friend worriedly.

" Maybe he got some problems at home.. Let's try to talk to him at lunch okay.. ", Wei Ying suggests, looking at their tired friend with worry.

" Yeah, let's do that. ", Jiang Cheng nods.

" Good morning, Wei Ying, Jiang Cheng, Huaisang! ", Wen Ning greets them, cheerfully. Wei Ying flashes him a smile, " Good morning, Wen Ning! "

Wen Ning returns the smile and plops himself next to him, causing the boy to look at him in confusion, " Why are you sitting on Lan Zhan's seat? Not that I don't want you here. Is he absent? ", Wei Ying asks the boy beside him worriedly.

Wen Ning raises his eyebrows, " What do you mean? He's here the whole time. ", He points his finger at Lan Zhan, who is seated on Wen Ning's seat at the very front row.

" He asked me if he can changed his seat with me yesterday. ", Wei Ying listens to Wen Ning though his eyes was focused on Lan Zhan. " Maybe he has problem focusing since he sit at the very back of the class, so I just agreed. "

" Oh, is that so. ", He quietly replies.

" Ah teacher's coming. ", Wen Ning quickly takes out his notes from his bag. Wei Ying eyes Lan Zhan, who's clearly avoiding the latter. ' Did I really upset you by not coming? ', he thoughts silently, resting his face on his palm.

I'll talk to him later, and explain everything.

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The trio sit on their usual table in silence, which is very very unusual. Both the talkative persons in their group seems to have things troubling their minds. Jiang Cheng felt uneasy upon seeing his bestfriend and brother like this.

He slams his hand on the table, causing them both to flinch and look up at him.

" What's wrong with you both today? You guys are so quiet. Even a person who likes silence like me find this one's unbearable. ", He frowns, crossing his arms staring at these used-to-be-talkative friends of his.

Wei Ying sighs, running his fingers through his hair, " Apparently, I made Lan Zhan's mad and he seems to be ignoring me. I'll talk to him later. We need to discuss something more important. ", Wei Ying turns his gaze to the sad fella beside him. Huaisang eyes them both in confusion as to why his two friends are staring at him like that.

" What? "

" What's been troubling you? ", Jiang Cheng asks, scooting closer towards him.

" What do you mean? "

Wei Ying slams his hand in front of Huaisang, " Don't you dare playing dumb with us, Nie Huaisang. "

" Wei ge- "

Jiang Cheng slings an arm around the latter shoulder, " Do you think we won't notice those bags under your eyes? or how you come to school with red, puffy eyes? ", Jiang Cheng states, worry laces in this tone.

Wei Ying smiles gently at Huaisang, " You're our bestfriend Huaisang. We are worried about you. Please open up to us about what's troubling your mind. "

Huaisang cracks out a smile, genuinely thankful for having friends like these two. He let out a dry chuckles, " Really? Am I really that obvious? ", He asks as he wipe his already red eyes, causing Jiang Cheng to quickly slaps his hand away. " Your eyes are red already, you want to make it bleeds ah? "

Huaisang flashes a grin at Jiang Cheng, which the latter gladly return. At least we manage to get that stupid grin on his face again.

Huaisang takes a deep breath and starts speaking up, " I-I.. It's my brother.. ", He starts. " He told me he's diagnosed with the same heart disease as my grandfather.. ", His nose becomes red, as tears starts pooling up in his eyes.

" He told me.. when the time comes.. I will be taking over our family's business. But I don't want to.. ", He brings a hand to his eyes. " I know I'm being selfish right now.. but I really don't want to do that.. I always want to pursue my dream to be an artist. I confronted my brother about it yesterday.. and you know what he said to me? ", He let out another dry laugh.

" What a stupid dream. What being an artist's gonna bring to you? Do you know how many delusional people trying to become an artist are homeless right now? ", He shuts his eyes close. " He even snapped the brush he bought for my 13th birthday in two, right in front of me. "

" Huai- "

" I just don't understand.. why he wants me, to take over Qinghe's? I'm just a stupid boy. Who only knows how to draw, I don't know anything about being butcher, hell, I can't even bring myself to hold a knife! "

" Huaisa- "

" Those thoughts about me pursuing my dreams, taking over the Qinghe's, and my brother leaving me forever.. ", He sobs quietly into his hands. " They keep me up all night, I can't even get a blink of sleep. All of this is driving me insane. "

" Huaisang! "

He brings his hands to his ears, covering them as he shakes his head, " I don't know.. I don't know anything.. I don't know what to do.. ", He cries, hands trembling terribly. Jiang Cheng grabs onto his hands stopping them from shaking and causing the crying boy to look at him.

" Don't say that. ", He scolds the the shorter boy. " Don't ever call yourself stupid. You're one of the most smartest people I know. He doesn't approves your dream? Ha! Then to hell with it, prove him wrong, show him that an artist can also be successful. "

Wei Ying drapes his arms over the shorter boy's shoulder as well, " Yeah! No matter what choices you make, we'll give you our full support. "

Huaisang looks up at them with his teary eyes, smiling widely, he engulfs the two in a tight hug, " I'm so happy having you guys as my friends. I'm feeling a lot better right now. "

" Huaisang! I can't breathe- ", Wei Ying choke out, causing Huaisang to let out a laugh and hug him even tighter. The boys burst out into a laughter.

Lan Zhan stares at them with a straight face, fixing his gaze on one boy. Who do you think you are to him Wangji? He looks so happy, even without you.

Out of the corner of Wei Ying's eyes, he saw a familiar brownish head staring at him. He looks behind and their eyes met. Lan Zhan's heart skips another beat as he quickly walks away from the scene,

" Lan Zhan! ", Wei Ying yells, Huaisang immediately let go of Wei Ying.

" Go after him. ", Huaisang tells him, to which he nods at and run after the taller boy.

Lan Zhan walks inside an empty classroom, hoping for the shorter boy to lose him. He's still not ready to face him after seeing him with the girl yesterday.

" Lan Zhan! " He can hears the boy calling him from outside. He flinchs in surprise and accidentally knocks over one of the students plastic water bottle. It hits the floor with a loud thud.

" Lan Zhan? Are you in there? ", He walks inside the classroom, and his eyes met Lan Zhan's back. Wangji silently swears under his breath, ' Why are you chickening out now? '

" Lan Zhan, why are you ignoring me? ", Wei Ying starts, walking towards the latter. Lan Zhan takes a step back from Wei Ying, he knows that if he opens his mouth right now, he will be saying things that will surely ruin their friendship.

" Lan Zhan.. look at me please.. ", Wei Ying pleads at the boy. The taller boy bit his lips, holding back the tears that's pooling up in his eyes.

" Just let me explain- "

" Just go away, Wei Ying! I don't want to see you right now! ", Lan Zhan shouts, it came out a lot harsher than he meant to.

Wei Ying stops in his tracks, staring at this friend of his with wide eyes. Lan Zhan has never raises his voice at him. A lot of emotions running in his mind at that very moment. Sadness, guilt, confuse.. but there's one emotion that's still unstable and overpowering his mind since yesterday. Anger.

" Ha! ", Wei Ying let out a dry laugh. " Hey, Lan Wangji. ", There's not even a little hint of playfulness in his tone, making Lan Zhan's heart drops.

" Why are you being so childish, right now? I'll tell you I'll explain everything. But how can I, when you don't want to even listen to me? ", Wei Ying scowls. " We'll plan it next time! I already told you something came up, can't you let this one slides? "

" Something more important than me? ", Lan Zhan quietly let those words left his quivering lips.

" Hell yeah, why else would I cancelled our plan if it's for somethings minor? You're only thinking of yourself, you know? Imagine you being in my place, and an emergency comes up. Would you still continue that damn meet up? ", Wei Ying wasn't thinking, those words left his mouth out of anger. He doesn't even think the outcomes of saying these things. He choose to let out his bubbling anger since yesterday at the poor boy.

The taller boy just stands quietly in his place, his heart is aching so much, Wei Ying's words just stings.

He sighs, frustratedly, " Still ignoring me, huh? Fine! So be it! ", Wei Ying slams the door to the classroom closed, leaving the quiet boy inside.

Without knowing he will regret saying all of those things to him.

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lmao, i'm so cruel.

©KEWLGHOST