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!! // TW ›

"CRAP, CRAP, CRAP." jaemin rambles as he sees his chemistry professor walk in the room. jaemin had borrowed jeno's notes to at least answer some questions for their recitation.

leafing through the notebook, jaemin was sucking all of the piece of information he can from speeding through the notebook. "put all of your notes away and let's start..." the professor announces before a trail of groans and complaints follows.

jaemin sighs and returns the notebook to jeno. jaemin sat up straight and looked confident as he knew the professor wouldn't call the 'confident' looking one as they knew the answers.

as jaemin tried to blend in with the smart students, their professor brings out index cards with all of the class's names on them. jaemin immediately deflated at the sight of this. "i'm gonna pull a random student and whoever is picked will stand up and answer the given question."

jaemin clasped his hands together, prompting his elbows on his desk as he pressed his forehead onto his hands while his eyes were shut tightly. muttering incoherent words, jaemin was praying to the gods above to not let the professor pick him.

the professor pulled out a card and held it out to read it aloud. "na jaemin." damnit god. with a scowl, jaemin stands up and lets his gaze pierce through his professor's figure. "mr. na, here is your question: what is the correct structure of IF7?" the professor lifts his head up from the flash cards he has and stares at jaemin.

jaemin had cold sweat dripping from his back and forehead as he stood still. his mind was panicking as he stood there embarrassed and had no idea what to answer. suddenly, dazzling in front of him was a girl covered with beads of light. jaemin's forehead was crinkled at her attire but then soon sneakily squinted his eyes when he saw her holding up a piece of paper.

written on the paper, it was the answer to the question: pentagon bipyramid. jaemin didn't know if it was the right answer but hey, answering something that is wrong rather than answering nothing is better, right? well, that's what jaemin thought.

"pentagon bipyramid," jaemin answers.

the professor nods his head. "correct. you may take your seat." a wave of relief suddenly crashed through jaemin's system. covering his gaping mouth, jaemin sat down in awe.

the girl in front of him gave him a quick thumbs up before facing the class. jaemin smiles, even though she didn't catch a glimpse of it, he still smiled. despite her blinding attire, she was kind.

she didn't even know her, and jaemin didn't even know her yet; she still helped him nonetheless. we all need a classmate like this. she was homie material, jaemin thought.

after the whole recitation, class was dismissed early. there were three sets of questions containing 20 questions each set, however, jaemin was called once. how lucky was that? but you know who else was luckier? the girl who sat in front of jaemin. she wasn't called whatsoever. now that's extremely lucky. "she should go buy a lotto ticket or something..." jaemin thought.

bad news for jeno though, he was called seven times and only managed to answer two. "damnit, i shouldn't have let jaemin borrow my notes." jeno mumbles as he hikes his bag over his shoulder and leaves.

jaemin, who was quietly packing his stuff, was approached by the girl in front of her. "hey, jaemin." jaemin's ears perked up at the mention of his name; especially when it came from an unfamiliar voice.

a single brow raised, jaemin looked over his shoulder and saw the shining girl across him. "oh," jaemin zips his bag closed and faces the girl with a smile. "you know my name..."

as if jaemin's remarks were like daggers, those words pierced through the girl's heart. she knew he wouldn't have remembered her, but after the exchange they had yesterday, she thought he would really remember her. "thanks for helping me back there, i really appreciate it."

jaemin threw his bag over his shoulder and waved goodbye at her. "i'll see you tomorrow!" about to leave, the girl grabs a hold of jaemin's left arm and turns it to her.

her name wasn't there again.

"i knew it was too good to be true." she smiles meekly as tears cascades down her cheeks. jaemin's eyes widen at the girl's sudden breakdown before he looks around. thankfully, there was no more students around so she could cry as much as she wants.

jaemin knitted his brows together as he queries, "what do you mean by 'too good to be true'?"

the girl gazes at jaemin and simply by her eyes; jaemin knew she was tormented. other than getting sucked into her eyes, jaemin took note of the fireflies on her. jaemin has found himself staring at the fireflies for too long before he pulls himself out from his trance.

"i'm hwayoung." as if the name dreaded him, jaemin started pointing fingers at hwayoung as his hand finds its way to his mouth.

"y-you're hwayoung! the girl who drew on me and told me to tattoo your name on my arm!" jaemin exclaims. "do you think i'm that gullible?"

not wanting to make the conversation any longer, hwayoung brings out a familiar looking notebook but was an unfamiliar one to jaemin. hwayoung shoves the notebook to his chest and jaemin was able to grab a hold of it. "read it." hwayoung said sternly.

skeptical, jaemin threw a questioning look at hwayoung before reading the contents of it. once again, the fragments of jaemin's memories were coming back to him. however this time, it had a new day written at the end.

the events that happened yesterday were written on the notebook. their conversation, and everything was all in there. jaemin shouldn't be convinced, but he was. with this notebook, it just ties all of the loose ends. but jaemin was a bit skeptical deep down.

jaemin shuts the notebook and hangs his head low. "i'm sorry if i didn't do it," jaemin mutters.

"hey, it's okay..." hwayoung pats his back soothingly. jaemin snapped his head up and thought of another rash decision. this rash decision was the one that'll prove the doubts he had were wrong.

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not thinking about it well, jaemin grabs a pair scissors and started carving "화영" on his exact same arm, and exact same spot where hwayoung wrote it. "jaemin, what are you doing?!" hwayoung shouts but jaemin motioned her to back away.

every cut on jaemin's arm was excruciating. blood was dripping from every slit and the only thing jaemin could do was breathe painfully through his teeth. only writing "ㅎ" was already painful.

with brows furrowed, jaemin shot hwayoung a look. tears were trickling down her cheeks as she covered her mouth with both of her hands. "write everything that's happening in the notebook now!" jaemin yells, startling hwayoung before she quickly grabs the notebook and started writing everything down.

jaemin wanted to get through this quickly, but with every slit, it makes it more and more painful and it causes him to go weak. tears dripping from his cheeks like waterfalls, jaemin was able to get through it and finished the carving.

jaemin couldn't help but stare at the painful sight. blood was oozing from the scar and on to the classroom floor. after hwayoung finished writing, jaemin grabs the notebook, shoving it in his bag and bolts out the room. not wanting to converse with hwayoung anymore to avoid anymore writing to be done.

once he stepped out of the classroom, like always, jaemin forgot everything. but the excruciating pain on his arm was still there. jaemin eyes blew wide at the carving on his name. "what in
the—"

"jaemin!" jaemin snapped his head to the side and saw his chemistry professor running towards him. "what happened?!" his professor asked, his voice coated with panic.

"i-i don't know! i-it happened so fast,
i-i—" jaemin was then cut off when his professor started dialing 911. his voice shaking and cracking as he called. jaemin couldn't help but let his eyes soften at his professor. he was truly nice. he even regretted not paying attention to him in the first place.

before he knew it, jaemin was already being rushed to the emergency room, and that's when his sight was engulfed in darkness.

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