Finally after that huge intake I am ready to answer.

"I choose to take the right where there is nothing left."

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

"Ahhhhhh! What happened?"

And there I see everyone. My family, oh how much I missed my twins.

"You are awake! Thank God you are awake now!"

"I will go call the doctor, you stay here kids," and my husband rush right away to call a doctor.

"What happened?", I hurriedly and stoically ask the doctor as soon as he arrives.

"You were in a coma for almost one week. This is a miracle that you have woken up this early and energetically alive."

"It is doctor, it is."

I believe in miracles even when I was young. When I curse the world miracle is the one thing I hope for. It is what I hold into whenever all else seems to fail and go down or everything is messed up.

After another week was spent in the hospital in order to give my body the chance to be fully recovered and get a hold of my senses, also done are several tests to ensure my safety. I get to go home after that and now I am in our backyard lawn while my husband is cooking grill and my parents are playing with our twins while my sister and her family is setting up the table while I am taking photos of each and every one.

I chose the right one even if I did not exactly knew what "nothing is left" did mean because I know that going back to change my errors in the past would not be really that good. I cannot simply make myself choose the other one which is left and fix the damage because where is the fun in that? Mistakes are meant to be learned and I learned mine. Those are already part of my journey; at least now even if nothing is left I could restart anew, I had a change of heart, I have my family and closes friends with me, I have my self back, and I have Him. So what could I ask for? I think now I could say that I am genuinely happy; I am contented and I am not empty.

I chose to forgive myself too and heal in the process. I was born good and beautiful and I still am and I am going to keep choosing to love myself even more and to love life.