He likes his leader, a lot.

He doesn't know when he started feeling that way toward his leader, but he remembers waking up one morning with a painfully hard morning wood from last night's dream about the person lying next to him.

He doesn't understand why he would dream about their leader out of all people, and it's not some normal dream. It makes him question how he feels about Jaebum—the guy sleeping beside him and also their leader.

Maybe it's because he haven't been laid for a while, he tries to convince himself but it doesn't seem to be the case when he keeps dreaming about Jaebum and again, it's not a normal dream. Youngjae stops convincing himself as he acknowledges that he is in fact falling for his leader.

Youngjae can handle his thirsty ass self quite well, he still have some decency left in him to refrain himself from jumping on his roommate at night. That's why relieving himself every morning becomes a routine for him, he hates doing it but it's not like he has a choice.

It's suffocating, there's just so much space Im Jaebum takes in his system it's hard to breathe.

He's annoyed at how he gets affected with every single touch from Jaebum, every touch burns and Youngjae doesn't know how long he can take before he's completely burned out. He hates it how he gets self conscious easily when he feels his leader's gaze on him, he hates the pang of jealousy that rushes through him every time he sees another member getting close or touchy with their leader, his leader. He hates how he wants to just throw himself in front of the latter and let him do whatever he wants to. He needs space and sleeping next to each other in a single bed is not helping him, he can't start using the upper bunk now since Jaebum might start questioning him.

He hates all of it, it's driving him mad and, during mornings—hard. He hates himself (though that isn't new) for feeling that way. He hates it a lot, but those aren't enough reason to hate his leader.

Youngjae wakes up with a morning wood, he gets off their bed quietly not wanting to wake the other up and walks to the bathroom. He grabs his cock and slowly pumps it while he recalls last night's dream.

The way Jaebum kiss him, touch him, make love to him, everything; everything feels so real to Youngjae it almost had him believing it.

He bites on his shirt to keep it from falling, exposing his stomach. While his right hand pumps dick, his other hand roams all over his body touching the places Jaebum touched in his dream, from the back of his neck to his stomach down to his tighs. He fastens his phase feeling his release nearing, he closes his eyes and pulls his head back. The way he's biting on his shirt helps him prevent his moans from coming out as he finally comes in front of the toilet bowl, leaving spurts of his juice on the seat.

He feels tired as he lazily pump his cock riding the last bits of his orgasm. He cleans his mess and himself first before going back to their room to get some more sleep, but his plans change as soon as he's face to face with the subject of his desires outside of the bathroom.

"How long have you been there?" Youngjae asks trying to sound as normal as he can.

"Long enough to figure what you were doing there and to hear things," Jaebum replies with a scowl.

He finds me disgusting, how much more when he knows I get dirty dreams about him, he thinks to himself. He knows he's probably overthinking this, but he can't help himself.

Sighing with a defeated voice Youngjae tells his leader that he's a man after all and he starts to walk away.

"Youngjae wait," he feels a hand over his shoulder, he turns around.

"Is that why you're always up early?" Jaebum asks and Youngjae can't look at him. He wriggles his leader's hand off his shoulder.

"Don't touch me, you probably think I'm disgusting," he says avoiding eye contact.

Jackson passes by the two of them, probably on his way to the bathroom.

"Jackson! Let's switch rooms?" he says suddenly.

Jackson obviously not in the right state of mind to make decisions answers a soft "yea sure whatever," before going inside the bathroom.

"I know I'm disgusting, I'll leave you now. You probably wouldn't want to sleep with a horny teenager. Sorry if I disgust you."

That night, he cries in Mark's room as he tells Mark the reason why he wants to switch rooms. He tries to convince himself that it's for the best and it'll be easier to forget his feelings for his leader.

The first few days after Youngjae and Jackson's room swap is awkward, at least that's what Youngjae feels. He doesn't know how to act when Jaebum's nearby, but the unfazed look of his leader makes him force himself to go back to normal, like nothing's wrong. Especially since Jaebum has been more touchy and clingy around him.

Youngjae doesn't understand Jaebum's actions. He's pretty sure the latter is disgusted with him, but why is he acting like he didn't hear Youngjae jerking off early in the morning? Jaebum seems to be unbothered by that fact and Youngjae just doesn't understand why.

There are even times when Jaebum will jokingly complain how he misses having Youngjae as his roommate; and Youngjae's heart flips but no one needs to know that.

"Youngjae I think Jaebum likes you," Mark says one day while they lie on their respective beds.

"What makes you think that?" Youngjae ask, his eyes on his phone.

"I just do, I don't really have a reason you know."

"Then let's consider this conversation done, and don't bring it up again. I don't want to get my hopes up."

"Fine, but you'll be rooming with him again tomorrow at the hotel," Mark reminds him but he ignores the remark. He doesn't want to stress himself even more.

Youngjae's phone dings, indicating a text. It's from Jaebum (who's probably a room apart from them). Youngjae doesn't understand why his leader sent him a text.

Youngjae I miss you, comeback here

The text reads but Youngjae doesn't reply.