Justin's POV (⛔️🚨 GHOST READERS PRESSING THE VOTE BUTTON WON'T KILL YOU, I'VE TRIED IT AND I'M STILL LIVING!!!!!! VOTE, OKAY????🚨⛔️)

"Are you sure we're gonna be okay?" I asked nervously, Jason's hand was resting on the steeling wheel rather then holding it tightly.

"Will be fine," he chuckles looking at the backseat. "Right my babies?" He asks the twins smiling.

"Yeah!" They both shouted.

"See, so chill out. But if we do starve before anything else happens, we could always have you for dinner." He smirks. "I mean I could." He teases licking his lips.

I gasp, pulling my feet into my seat.

"I mean I did it last night-" I quickly cover his mouth not wanting the kids to hear it.

It was snowing really hard today and Jason all of a sudden decided to have a rode trip with the kids, he thought going somewhere for Christmas would be fun, of all days he had to pick today. I'm not complaining, I love spending time together even if we are stuck in the middle of no where.

"Daddy, I'm hungry," I hear Drake whining. I uncover my hands from Jason's mouth to get some cookies for Drake. I open my bag that was under my feet giving him his cookie.

"Tank you," he said taking it from my hand.

"Son, how many times, have I told you it's 'thank you' not 'tank you'?"

"Many times dad but he doesn't listen," Cailin said proudly.

"You, shut up!" Drake yells to his sister. I glare at Jason because he's the one that taught them this. Jason tries his best not to look at my way.

"Drake, honey that's not a nice word. We don't say that, okay?" I look at the backseat giving him a little glare.

"But daddy says it," he points to his father. I roll my eyes mumbling 'he's all yours' to Jason, Jason sighs rubbing his forehead.

"Drake, tell me how old are you?" Jason asks looking at him through the front mirror of the car.

"3," he says pointing 3 fingers up.

"3 year olds aren't allowed to use that kind of words, when you get older you can start using them." I smack my head, glaring at him again. I have to take matters into my own hands.

"Drake, if I ever hear you say that word again. I'm banning you from seeing SpongeBob." I cross my arms looking at him. He didn't respond, he only copied my actions crossing his arms also.

"Aww, so adorable he's trying to look like his dad." Jason pinches my cheek.

"Jason, focus," I whisper to him.

"Oh come on, we're stuck in this snow. Better make the most of it. Right guys?" He asks the twins.

"Right!" They quickly shout answering him back. I playfully shake my head.

"Daddys! The snow is falling!" I hear Cailin yell making us all gasp seeing the snow fall on the car.

I suddenly wake up, looking around seeing I'm in our bedroom. Looking at my side seeing it's empty. I sigh loudly throwing my head on the pillow, pulling it.

It was just a dream, a beautiful, scary dream. I couldn't help to sniffle.

I look at the clock seeing it's only three in the morning. I couldn't go back to sleep even if I tried, I pushed the covers away, putting Jason's hoddie on. It was chilly in here. I looked at the window seeing it's a little open. I closed it going downstairs to make some coffee for myself but not before hearing one of the twins crying from the baby monitor.

"God, please give me strength." I whisper to myself.

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"When will they be able to walk?" Charlie asks playing with Cailin.

"Depends on the baby, some 8 months old and some are just lazy, they take longer." He makes an 'O' mouth understanding.

"Has anyone of them walked yet?"

"Yeah, sometimes they do but not very well. Drake is very lazy but Cailin has." He smiles standing up sitting down on a chair beside the table.

"Dude, look at my chin," he points to his chin, I look to see that there's little bit of hair on it.

"You wanna grow it?"

"Yeah, my brother said it makes you look old growing a beard but I wanna a grow one. You know I heard Chieyere saying she likes men with beard so I kinda wanna impress her." He says while tapping his fingers on the table.

"I always shave mine."

"Yeah, right I bet you can't even grow one." He whispers holding his hand on his mouth trying not to laugh.

"I can too. But I've never tired."

"Mmm, like I believe that." I shrugged not caring if he didn't believe me. "My mom and dad visited my brother yesterday I was even there. They didn't even care or gave a shit about me. They even got him a Christmas present and not even one for me." I frown listening to him. "You know what's the best part?" He smiles opening my laptop. I shake my head waiting for him to continue. "He threw the present away and them out of the door. His wife Natalie even laughed. I think that was the best part of 2016 for me." He blinks, sighing turning on my laptop.

"When is she gonna have the baby?" I ask trying to change the subject.

"Oh, in 2 weeks, I can't wait. We still don't know if it's a boy or girl. The baby's leg is blocking the lower area." I laughed seeing Drake whining tugging my pants.

"Hey babe, what's the matter?" I pick him up putting him on my lap but not before smelling something really bad.

"Fuck, what is that smell?" Charlie asks waving his hand, close to his nose.

"Someone had the time of their life, I'll be right back." I pick up Drake to change him. First I changed him throwing the diaper in the trash then second I let him go he wouldn't stay still for a second. He quickly crawled out of the room. I playfully rolled my eyes walking to the bathroom to wash my hands. I went back to the living room to see Charlie waving his hands.

"Did you know Drake means male black duck?" Charlie let's out a laugh. I look at him seeing him on my laptop with Drake on his lap.

"What?" I ask him being really confused.

"Drake's name means 'male black duck'," I stand up walking towards him to take a look at the laptop screen.

"drake/drāk/
noun

    a male black duck."

"I can't believe you guys actually named him that, poor kid I feel sorry when he grows up." I give him a glare.

"I didn't name him, Jason did." I take a seat beside him.

"Not surprised, he probably closed his eyes and picked the name." I couldn't help but let a chuckle out. But I didn't say anything.

"Cailin means 'girl', the name comes from the Irish origin, so I did my research for naming her." I happily sigh seeing Cailin crawling around playing with her blocks. "Why are you searching these things anyways?"

"I have to do my research, don't I?" He closes the laptop putting Drake down.

"Are you trying to take my mind off things?" I smirk leaning on the table.

"Maybe," he shyly looks away.

"Justin! I'm back!" I hear mom yelling from the front door, suddenly.

"Quick confusion, I've never seen your mom." He whispers.

"Oh hello," she waves looking at Charlie and me.

"Hey, mom this is my best friend Charlie." I smile introducing him. Charlie says a shy 'hello' to her.

"Justin, why didn't you tell me you had a girl best friend?" When the word 'girl' left her mouth Charlie frowned looking at the ground.

"He's a 'he' not a 'she', mother." I narrow my eyes at her.

"Oh, I'm so sorry, it's just that I saw your face and I thought-"

"I should go, I'll see you later." He stands up walking out of the room. I give a quick glare to mom passing by her.

"Charlie, wait," I make my way to the front door seeing him waiting for me.

"I'm so sorry, I-I-"

"Hey, it's fine. I'm used to it, I didn't walk away because of that I just don't want to hear the rants." He shrugs looking behind me.

"You'll be at the trial right?" I asked hopefully.

"Duh, it's today isn't it?" I nodded looking at the clock on the wall it said 2:45 pm.

"Yeah, at 4."

"I'll pick you up." I nodded, seeing him walking out of the door waving his hands. I waved back to him closing the door.

"Justin, did your friend leave already?" I hear mom ask having Drake in her arms.

"Yeah, and I better get ready." I muttered passing by her going upstairs.

"Wait, did you go to Toby's funeral?" She asks, I look behind me to spot her.

"Y-yeah but they kicked me out." She sighs shaking her head slightly. As if I wasn't feeling worse she just had to throw that in my face.

"The Christmas tree, looks good aren't you gonna add anything?" She grins pulling my arms.

"Mom, the trial is in two hours, do you mind I'm trying to get ready." I slowly push her hands away.

"I'm not going, someone needs to care of the kids." I shrugged not caring. She wasn't gonna show up anyways this was just an excuse.

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Jason's POV

I sat down on the bed of the jail cell. Looking down at my hands seeing how dry they looked. If I'm not mistaken tomorrow is Christmas. The first Christmas for the twins and I'm stuck in a jail for murdering someone by accident. It pained my heart that I couldn't hold them for one second in my life anymore, well until I get out of here but until then they'll get bigger. They'll barely even remember me, I'll never be able to see them have their first words or how they will be able to walk for the first time.

I'm torturing Justin through this as well. He deserves so much better in his life. All of them do, I wish I could go back and fix everything but it's too late for that now. Me even saying anything won't even do it. What is done is done.

I'm feeling a bit nervous about today, today is about what the future has hold for me.

I lick my lips seeing the gate open, I look up seeing that familiar guy that I allusion in my mind. I shake my head trying to get out of it but it wasn't working he was still standing there coming inside, this time I knew it wasn't fake because I couldn't shake the thoughts out or it was getting stronger. I didn't move a muscle just sitting down quietly, trying not to focus on it.

He sent me a smirk throwing a punch at my face. I groaned my back falling on the bed. I lost control pinning him against wall. This time I had to finish it, no more backing out.

I put my hands around his throat gagging him. "S-stop!" He shutters trying to get my hands off but it wasn't working.

"I'm gonna finish you off! Stop playing in my mind!" I yell to his face squeezing him harder.

He loses breath falling down, I look down at him smiling but then I feel something going inside me I look at the body in front of me seeing it's one of the guards, his dead body. I fall down trying my best not to black out then another needle goes through me hearing someone say 'stop', then the darkness takes me away.

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Justin's POV

My heart pounds out of my chest as the jury walks into the back room to make their final decision after the explaining Toby's mom and the Lawyers did.

I sat down on my seat at back looking at Jason. He's head was low and ashamed he was looking a bit tired and weird. I wish I could go hug him tightly right now telling him everything was gonna be alright and I'm always by his side, but I couldn't even touch him.

My eyes were so red because of the crying I did, I even got a headache from it as well. I keep praying silently for everything to end well.

"Jay, you're shaking." I hear Charlie whisper to me. I look at him confused seeing him holding my hand trying to hold back the shaking.

I swallow hard. "I can't help it." I whisper back to him. He frowns rubbing my hand softly. "I have hope you should too." He smiles leaning his head on my shoulder. I looked at him smiling, I looked at my hand seeing it stopped shaking. I sighed hearing the judge speak up. Charlie pulled away his hand nudging my shoulder showing me his crossed fingers. I sighed crossing my fingers as well.

Long minutes passed and my breath speeded up, seeing the door that the jury went opened. They didn't really take long, I could feel my hands shaking again, Charlie picked up my hand holding it tightly.

I swallowed hard prayed a little more seeing the judge take the paper and sign a few things. Handing the paper back, he speaks up. "The jury foreman will now read your decisions. Jury, is the defendant planned?" He asks looking at Jason. I pull my hand away from Charlie's I could feel my head getting dizzy.

"You okay?" Charlie asks rubbing my shoulder. I nod covering my face trying to calm down but it wasn't really working. I could hear them talk but I couldn't really understand what was happening, suddenly I felt something rise in my throat like trying to throw up.

"Jay?" He rubs my back trying to calm me down. I shake myself, taking deep breaths trying to calm myself.

"Guilty! On killing Toby Sivan and having paranoia. These tests that you gave today shows it. I sentence you two years in prison and two years in an up state asylum and without any bail if he acts up good in there his years will get less because it wasn't on purpose." My jaw drops as of what I just heard. The judge cracks his gavel in finality.

"HE DOESN'T HAVE PARANOIA-" I yell but Charlie slaps his hand on my mouth.

"Are you crazy?" He whispers giving me daggers.

"We apologize for his actions." I hear Mackenzie giving me a quick glare looking back at the judge.

"Court dismissed." He says, standing and walking out. I watch Jason taken out in chains. I could see him mouthing an 'I love you' to me. I sobbed answering him back.

I saw Kim crying in her wife's arm. I stood up quickly running out of the court. when I went out I kneeled down screaming as loud as I could. I couldn't even listen what was going on, on his trial because of my stupid stress.

What surprised me the most is that Jason has paranoia?

"How is that even possible?" I whisper to myself seeing people pass by me looking at me weirdly.

Does that mean the twins have it as well?

"Justin?" I hear Mackenzie call me. I look up seeing her kneeling down towards me. "Jason, didn't have paranoia, what happened? Was he hurting you? Or acting weird?" She rambles off questions as I shake my head to every question. "Something happened to his head, I'm sure of it."

"He did once tell me he saw something but I didn't think it was anything that important." I bit my tongue, pulling my hair also.

"When was this?"

"Before we went to Toby's birthday." I whisper, rubbing my nose with the back of my hand. She stays silent thinking a little. "I need to talk to him." I stand up to go inside but she stops me.

"You can't do that, try again tomorrow." I sigh blowing some air out walking down the little stairs it had. "Hey, don't stress out, okay? It will get better soon. You heard the judge if he acts better in there he'll get out sooner." She said nervously, I stopped my tracks looking at her.

"'if' he acts better right? Because we both know he won't." I roll my eyes walking away from her, not even looking at my back.

"Justin! Wait!" I hear a familiar voice call me looking at my back seeing Charlie. I nodded towards him telling him to follow me.

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Charlie dropped me off at home, as I was going to walk inside I saw a car parked with Brandon inside on his phone. I saw the front door open, mom coming outside giving me a warm smile with a bag of mine in her hand.

Why is she so smiley?

"Hi, my beautiful boy." She gives me a quick hug pulling away.

"Why do you have my bag?" I ask giving her a straight face.

"We're going home, remember?" She nudges my shoulder going to the car. I roll my eyes having enough of her bullshit. I shove my hands in my pocket going inside the house but not before her calling my name again.

I look behind me for a second. "What are you gonna do? Go inside and cry your eyes out again? Crying won't get you anywhere Justin Drew, so get your butt here so we can leave, you're a man stop acting like a girl and crying all the time." I scoffed ignoring her going inside, I couldn't help but sob a little.

"It's like I'm talking to a wall sometimes." I whisper to myself throwing myself on the couch.

"He's gonna be in that Asylum for four years. Are you really gonna waste your life crying over that or are you gonna live it at least till he comes back?" I hear mom softly say rubbing my hair.

"So you heard? All of it?" I muttered closing my eyes.

"Of course I did. Those two wouldn't tell me anything so I had to call them." I suddenly get up remembering I have kids to take care of.

"Where you going?"

"Where are the twins?"

"They're in the car, come on we're leaving." I groan loudly fast walking out of the house, opening the car's door to get the twins.

Brandon didn't even notice anything he was having his nap with a hat on his head. I shut the door hard on purpose to make him jump, and he did.

"Justin, what are you doing?"

"Mom, leave. I don't want to see you right now. Have fun with your husband." I didn't even let her reply I quickly walked into the house shutting and locking the door.

She shouted and pressed the door bell several times telling me to open up but I ignored her walking into the twins room to put them in their crib.

I take a seat looking up at the ceiling thinking how my life turned around in seconds. Just last week Jason bought a Christmas tree to decorated it and now he's not even here to do it.

Four years is a long time, but I'll stay strong for us because he's forever mine.

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