yea a few poems I made over the summer as a way to vent because this summer I was lonely
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Anddontbeweirdedoutbythisthing

I know this guy
Who I like
He collects gemstones
He wants opal
My birthstone is Opal

I really like this guy
I really really do
I really like this girl
I really really do
Turquoise
Ruby

Selenite
Rock
Selene
Goddess
Eleanor
Human
Somehow we're connected

The guy
Who wants opal
Finally gets a piece that he can take home
Because he can't take me
As much as he probably wants

Just stop
Stop saying over and over that it seems tough for me
Just stop saying that must be hard
You out of anyone in this house
Would understand what I'm going through
But you don't even help
You push me down further
Once I think you're going to help you say one of my worst flaws
And I am pushed down further.
I can't talk to anyone about how I feel in this house
I can't talk to you

They say
That when you're depressed
Talk to people that help
I want to talk to the people who help me
In person
Not divided by screens
Pixels
Words.
I want to see their faces
And hear them.
I want to hear the people
The people who help

I sleep weird
I take one cozy
Pillow and plop it under my
Main thinking seed
And I take another
Safe
Comforting pillow
And hug it
Until sweet sleep takes me

"Home is where the heart is."
My heart is far from this building

Stop acting like nothing is wrong
Stop it
Stop it
Just stop
Please

Im pathetic
Wanting someone to make me happy
Pathetic
I can't fight for myself

What do I do wrong
What am I that's wrong
What do I do that upsets you?
I need to know

You can't please everyone?
Well now I'm stuck trying
Failing
And crying

I want to be
Anything else
Anything at all
But a human

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I'm really freaking out to post this and what not