im really really not excited to wake up tomorrow

yes its my birthday

but

i just dont want to

i know something is going to happen

I KNOW

yes yes that anxiety  

but 

i just dont want to be tomorrow 

i dont want to be there

i dont know why but i cant face people 

i dont want to wake up tomorrow

i always hype myself up for holidays but im really learning

i dont really like them

they turn out to be

disappointments 

i'll be ok. 

i need rest

yea

i love you all