"... i'm sorry" Lisa had said looking down then looking at me "Why does everyone fight, it solves nothing!" I cried, i've been on this boat... this small small boat for it seems like years, as I look at Lily one of my other friends on the boat, I cuddle next to her wanting the pain to stop, because the tears kept rushing down my face, nonstop and everyone has just became quiet.

"Listen! no one wanted to be on this shitty boat! but we are and there was no need to throw maddie off!" Lily said with a tempered look as she shielded me with a hug as her eyes glowed a tint of red she then looked at me "Lily listen her sacrifice was in vain.. I" Kasi said trying to come up with something to say.

"she's in a better place.." Kasi said sadly looking down at the creaky ground "i bet so was... aj! YOU KILLED MY SISTERS YOU ASSHOLE" Lisa yelled, taking breaks only for sobs as she looked at Kasi, "WELL, I'M SORRY THEY WERE WORTHLESS. THEY WERE JUST EXTRA WEIGHT ON THE BOAT LISA, WHAT DID YOU WANT US TO? DROWN?" he screamed, looking at the person who caused this mess.

"Kasi!, Lisa! Stop fighting" I screeched as they then both faced me with a angry look "GET OFF!" they said pushing me into the end of the boat but being SOMEWHAT saved by Lily "You said you guys were captain! She doesn't have to if she does want to" Lily cried, shielding me "You guys are going crazy! All of this is so useless, you don't need to argue to make this right! Nothing can make this right." Lily shouted again.

I can't breathe.. I a just useless I never thought of me also being a waste of space to my friends.. But I guess I was never really useful.. If i'm not wanted maybe I should just.. Kill myself..even if I do feel like throwing up I have to focus on breath, "but the weakest must go..." I said stand up going on the stern of the boat and then looked at the people i've been with for a decade as I put my arms out and f a l l . . . . . . . .

I w a s n t r e a d y t o d i e H o w d i d my w o r l d c o m e F r o m h a p p i n e s s t o s o r r o w. All i see is darkness and me ringing in my ears, all i remember is nothing..

My suffering seemed to be gone, all i feel is the coldness of my old friends.

G u e s s i ' m G o i n g t o m e e t i n g m o m s o o n a g a i n b u t i n h e a v e n d a d i h o p e y o u 'r e n o t d i s s a p o i n t e d. 

so  i hope you enjoyed this thank for @SerialMatix for the help you are lovely as ever <3 anyways i hope you guys enjoyed! have a great day and a warmful hug!! byeee!!