2008

I ran over to mom and tugged on her pant leg. "MOMMY!MOMMY!" She did not even look down at me. She was carrying a laundry basket.

"What do you want Janiece? I'm trying to do stuff right now!" mom yelled at me again. I ignored her and kept tugging. I wanted to tell her about the show we were having at my school. "Janiece! Leave me be." she kicked her leg away from me. This caused me to loose my grip. I landed on the floor. Seconds later I feel the vibration of someone running.

"MOM,MOM! THIS DUDE NAMED SCOOTER MESSAGED ON MY YOU TUBE VIDEO he wants to meet up with me to get me into the music business!" My older brother shouted as he practically attacked her. And that's where it all started...That's when I lost the family I thought would always be there for me.

 Wait no, I lost them way before. I just never noticed it since I was only 8 years old. I should have still been able to guess. Ever since they found out Justin had a voice. I thought I would have team rooting for me at the school plays and choir concerts. But no. I Thought i would have an older brother who would help me from the bullies at my school. But no. They say family don't have favorites but that was pretty damn hard to believe with this family.Justin had always posted videos of him singing back when he was thirteen so his family and friends from afar can see it.Then he got a message from this dude who wants to be his manager and after that the next thing went to the next.he went to L.A,met famous people ,got signed,became famous,started going on tour and moved to L.A, and took mom with him leaving me with grandma and grandpa. Ever since he became famous I saw very less of my older brother and that always made me upset...he would only visit for Christmas but some times spring break but as I got older and older he was there less and less. But now here I am 15 years old in 2015 and my brother is 22 and he is all around the world and I have not seen him in four full years due to his tours and vacations. My mom hasn't spoken to be in four years. My dad hasn't spoken to me for well...life. I never met him.

2015

I walked over to the freezer to get some ice cream like i always do after dinner. I realized that my grandparents have been very quiet. That's odd normally they ramble about Justin Bieber.

"Hun we have something to tell you..." my grandmother started looking at me but not in my eyes. I study her lips as she speaks. "So Hun you know me and your gramps are getting old.." my mind automatically flew to death. They were the only ones there for me I cant live without them. They helped me through a lot, health wise.

"Are you guys okay? whats wrong? is it your back? what did the doctor say? I can quit the clubs and help tak-" I rambled Suggestions before they cut me off I was going crazy worried.

"We are perfectly fine Janiece!" My grandfather yelled trying to calm me down.But there was a look in his eyes. Annoyance?

"Then what's the problem?" I sit down with my mug of ice cream and looked at them, but they just studied each other. "Helllo....?" Trying to snap them back to reality where they left me hanging on a cliff.

"well Janiece me and gramps are going to go see the world... we want to see things we never thought we would see." my grandpa said cautiously as if i was going to get mad. why would I get mad? I smiled big.

"That's so cool! so why the glum faces?" I took a bite of my strawberry ice cream. My favorite.

"Your not going with us." I rolled my eyes. Is that really what the thought I would be upset about.

"Well duh i have school! I can stay at one of the girls houses-" Grandpa was quick to cut me off.

"Your mom requested that we send you to her..." He said quickly. Requested? Send me? i'm not some type of packet here!

"But she is on tour with Justin?" They both nodded at me.

"Your going to be on the road and then when the tour is over you will be able to live in L.A-"

"MOVE TO L.A? WHAT THE HELL!" They both looked taken back but also they looked prepared. "WHY! EVERY TIME YOU BOTH GO ON BUSINESS TRIPS I STAY AT MY FRIENDS-" I stopped myself and though about the fact i have never seen them work before..."Those were not business trips were they?" They both sat the in shame. But I still did not get the answer I wanted. "YOU LIED TO ME AND JUSTIN SENT YOU GUYS OUT TO SEE HIM DIDN'T HE!?"

"We jus-"

"just don't give a shit about me..." I completed. my grandmother looked sorry. They don't give a shit about me. no one in my family gives a shit about me.

"of course we do.."

"And all those times you were not here on Christmas... you were with him. You don't give a shit about me that's why your making me move to another country...away from where my friends are...away from where i WAS BORN."

"Hon I know its going to be hard but Justin.." Holy shit... Justin. Of course it was about Justin fucking Bieber.

"okay." I said in response before eating a big spoon full of icecream.

"okay? so you understand?" they asked and I nodded.

"oh yeah... you guys are old and want to travel the world and find pink ponies and happy skies with the money your precious grandson gave you...make me move to another country where i'm going to have to try all over again after I have been in this district since life... you guys revolve my world around Justin...what he wants he gets... YES I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU DON'T GIVE A FLYING PIGS SKIN ABOUT HOW I WOULD FEEL GOING TO A NEW PLACE WHERE I HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHY I HAVE TO READ LIPS AND WHY I STUTTER WHEN I READ OUT LOUD...so yes...I FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT THIS FUCKING FAMILY IS SHIT TO ME." I threw the mug that I was eating out of... it was the one I mad my mom for mothers day years ago. she never used it. I stormed upstairs and slammed the door. I looked at my wall coated with pictures before I slid down my door and cried.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOUR LEAVING?!" Kate screamed across the big table we had. I was going to reply with a smart remark but decided against it.I looked down not wanting to answer.

"What about us?" this broke me... my boyfriend Ty and I have been dating for a year but has been great friends for as long as I could remember. he was 17 and I was 15. freshman and a junior. he was a tough guy. but not to our group. It hurts to see him choke up that way. i've only seen him with water in his eyes a couple times. I tried to comfort him and hold his hand."We have been going strong for so long! Y-your gonna leave that?" He was starting to get mad at me.

"Calm down Ty we will all miss her." Nate said this trying to stop us all from going crazy.

"Babe I promise I will Skype and text and call you, all of you." I looked around the table and met the eyes that showed the same emotion as my eyes. Sadness. all 9 friends i have net from the past 8 years.

"When do you leave" Ty said lightly and glazed his thumb over the back of my hand. I knew he was trying to calm down.

"Yeah when?" asked Brenda , leaning on the table towards us.

"Three days.." I replied.

"WHAT!" Kate and Hannah's eyes bulged out.

"stop lying!"

"Janiece..."

"Cant believe this..."

Thees were the comments I heard from my friends around the table. Ty lets go of my hand and cover his face. I felt really bad. but I had to remind myself that this is not my fault. I still could not help but feel guilty.

"Well can we atleast spend our last days having fun?" Kate suggested trying to lighten up the glum mood. If it was possible.

"Babe..." I wanted to make sure he was okay. he grabbed my hand and stood up.

"We will be back please watch our food." he said before I stood up and followed him as he pulled me out of the cafeteria and into a classroom and locked the door.

"wh-" I began but he interrupted me and looked at me in the eyes. they were glossy and his face was tinted pink. like he was fighting against himself

"Please don't leave me..." he held both of my hands and kissed them. " Baby I can do better I promise I can take you to the fanciest place in town... I-I ill work extra shifts to buy you presents- just baby please ill do anything just stay with me baby. S-stay." two tear drops slipped from my eyes. He reached over and kissed one tear, leaving his lips there longer. I soon felt a drop of his tears. he pulled away and wiped his eye .

"look.. I don't want to but you know about my brother..." His face blew red and he knocked down on of the students desk making me jump a bit.

" I should of known it was about his ass!" I knew that he did not like him at all. He hated my family. All of them. He wished that one of the girls mom could adopt me.

" I cant do anything about it."

"What about the all the clubs you started.. hate free club..glee club?"

"I CANT...I cant do anything baby can't. you know if I could I would. You know. "He started to cry silently.. e e looked at me and kissed my lips. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling that could not last forever.

"We can do this. I will work more and get money to visit and we will be okay. I love you Janiece. and I know that people say teens don't know what love is but i don/t care. I know what I feel for you is stronger than some typical high school couple. I want you to always be the girl I give my hoodie to. I want to be the one to catch you off guard and wrap my arms around you and whisper how beautiful you are. when i'm older and my little one ask me who was my first love. I don't want to have to pull out an old album. I want to be able to point across the table and point to you. I love you and not for your looks but who you are. even though you look pretty stunning" I giggled as he smiled " I love you in the morning, in the day, in the hours we are together, and for the hours you'll be away. And no matter how painful distance would be... not having you in my life would be worse." he voice cracked at the end and i attacker him. hand in hand, We went back to the crew and sat down.

"You guys okay?" Nat asked patting Ty's back.
"Yea we are and we will be, all of us." I wrapped my arms around Ty and Kate.'
=AFTER SCHOOL=

"I HAVE AN IDEA!" I heard out of no where. I turned around and saw Brenda,Kate and Jared running toward me and the rest of the gang.

"My mom said we can all go to the six flags hotel!" Jared shouted at us even though I'm right next to him.

"WHAT?!"

"She said we need to leave ASAP and we leave Saturday at six... Janiece when is your flight?" Every ones eye were suddenly on me.

" 10 pm"

" isn't this a perfect idea!" Brenda screamed happily as she jumped up and down in joy. I laughed at her. She was always super exaggerated.

"Yea we can ride coasters and water rides and sleep in tier hotel!" Nat said while mocking Brenda.

"...and can be our last date" Ty said looking in my eyes until I looked down.

"We can stay there and have someone start to drive to the airport at 7 pm since its and hour ride" I suggested.

"Well then what are we doing.. lets go tell our parents and start packing!" Kate yelled. She was right but I then remember that I'm not packing a three day bag like they are. I'm packing my life.

"Its going to take me a while... I have to pack ALL my stuff."

"Well then lets just go to your house when we are done..mmkay?" Hannah suggested looking around at us for approval. They all nodded.

"Great.. now Hanna, Kate, Brenda, Jared, go get on your school bus before you miss it!" I yelled at them. They snapped to realization and rushed to their buses. i giggled at them and their frantic faces.

"Let's go" Nat suggested,He grabbed my hand while Ty had his arms around my shoulders. Nat always holds my hand cause we are cool like that. We have been like that before me and Ty started going out. We cleared it out long ago that we were just friends. Nat was a sophomore and Ryan was a freshman. I met the boys at a school dance. Ryan and Matt were eating pizza and looked at me crazy when I pulled hot sauce out my bag. I met Ty cause I saw he almost got into a fight and I stopped them with the help of Nat. We reached a corner where we had to split.

"Bye Matt! bye Ryan! See you guys Latterrr!" I waved at them

"Bye crazi!" Ryan kissed my cheek

"Luv ya sis!" Matt kissed my head being taller than me.

"Love you too!" We started walking while Matt and Ryan walked the other way.

"I cant believe your leaving us." Nat said as he squeezed my hand.

"I will visit. I wont give up on us." He let go of my hand and pulled me away from Ty to hug me.

"Please don't.." He begged hugging me tighter. I have been with him through everything. I was with him beside his mother's death bed. I was there when his father got beat up and arrested by a cop because he looked suspicious. And I was there when he got a cancer tattoo...and I got a hidden one too.

"Never"we pulled away and went our separate ways after I kissed Ty bye. I walked onto my block Taking in my home town, knowing i'm going to miss it. I walked up to my door , and went in. I saw grandma and grandpa sitting on the couch watching TLC. They heard me come in and looked at me.

"Hey honey how was school?" My Grandmother asked me. I almost thought she cared about me.

"The last day for me...what do you think?" I responded harshly while grabbing one of grandpas beer.

"Watch your tone young lady. What do you think you are doing with that?" Gramps yelled at me. I took a swig.

"Whatever i'm going to six flags with my friends and Jared's mom we are all staying in a hotel then going to the airport so bye!"

"That did not sound like a question."

"The point? i'm leaving anyway bye! oh and my friends coming over to help you kick me out!"

"Janiece Nico-"

I slammed my door before she could finish. I thought they understood me and how I feel about Justin having everything! Sure call me selfish but I just cant stand the fact that he dumps me for years but when he wants to see me again he makes me drop my life. He never even told anyone about me. No one knows but my friends that I am his sister. He doesn't know the shit I have been put through. I'm tiered of being the good girl. Its not fair. I'm done. I saw that on my bed was a suitcase and ticket. Wow. I started packing my clothes first and by the time I was done Brenda, Jared, Nat, Ryan,Kate,and Matt came and we all started packing my jewelry then my shoes. The rest of the crew came and we started packing the pics of us on my wall and my posters of drake and ect. Some of us even cried while we did. Once we were done we took them to the car I had two suitcases and a carry on bag and my purse. My other boxes were going to be shipped to the L.A house once we were done I looked at my grandparents.Then walked out leaving them speechless. Jared's mom took a pic of all of us in front of my house that I grew up in and where all of our sleepovers were,and yes the boys came too. The pictures took a long time because we kept goofing around. We all got in the van and took off sitting on each others laps.
Bye life. Bye.

"Yo this place is the bomb!" Hannah yelled with us girls by her side. We had finally gotten to the Six Flags hotel. The park is really cal La Ronde but its run by Six Flags.

"I know right? Im so hype." Kate walked slowly as she spoke.

"Shut up and lets go!" Brenda rushed us. The girls were taken back at Brenda's bossy tone.

"Okay geez girl!" We walked outside into the hallway and saw the  boys waiting impatiently outside the door Jared and Matt sitting.

"THANK YOU!" Ryan Shouted with a fist pump. I shook my head at him. Were we that long?

"What took you guys so long to change?"Matt stood up.

"HEYY! It's hard work to look hot!" I joked while all the girls agreed motioning to themselves.Ty comes up to me and put his arm around my shoulder.

"You do look hot." Ty teased looking at me up and down.

"Can we please gooo!" Jared wined clearly annoyed.

"Stop wining its unattractive." I Noted Making A disgusted face.

"Keep it up Jared i don't need my girl thinking your attractive." I Hit Ty after he said that.

"Your so cute when your jelly"

"I am not jelly"

"I was going to kiss you..." His eyes got wide.

"I'm jelly" He said automatically and I chukled and winked

"HEYY LOVE BIRDS!" Mecha yelled to us."THERE IS A FREAKING THEME PARK OUT SIDE AND YALL SITTING HERE FLIRTING!" I started laughing as Ryan,Matt,Nat,and Jared started to run to Mecah with the girls behind them leaving me and Ty walking far behind. Mecah came running back to us with Matt and they pulled us out the door. We had to WALK a MILE to the six flags park. Luckily the boy's carried the girls on their back. Once we got the the boys dropped us girls as they fell on the ground tired as we gave the gate men us girls tickets. The ticket dude looked about 17 and cracking up. Once the boys recovered they followed us after turning in there tickets.

"You know I would be lying if I said you are as light as a feather." Ryan told Kate. I noticed how the boys tried to stop him from speaking those words. Us girls shared a look before I punched his stomach, Hannah bit his arm, Mecha yanked his ear , Brenda slapped his face and Kate lastly kicked his nuts. "OOOOWWWW"satisfied. we turned to the boys. They looked away. We ran away from the boys and got in the line for the eagle and the line was very short cause there is like only 200 people here at six flags since it Thursday and thank got my friends parents are letting them skip school tomorrow after all it is Friday tomorrow.The boys finally caught up with us and the line only had 30 people so we were about to go on next.

"I'm scared." Hannah confessed. I looked at her confused. This ride was not the much of a fright.

"Why?" Nat asked the question I was thinking in my head. I mentally thanked him. Nat wrapped his arm around Hannah.

"Have you ever been on a roller coaster?" Matt asked. Hanna shook he head while look at the ground. Whoah really? I lifted my head from Ty's shoulder.

" WHAT!" Nat yelled in pure surprise, causing us to get strange looks. He unwrapped his arm and placed his hands on his face.

"Are... YOU KIDDING!" Ryan threw his hands in the air. Okay its not that serious.

"Guys shut up!" Kate must have also read my mind. There are many people in the world who have not been on either.

"Welcome eagle riders please sit in a seat while workers will buckle you in.Thank you and enjoy!" The worker said on the intercom.

"Lets go Hanna!" I said as I dragged her into the seat next to me while Matt was on the other side. The workers came by each every one of the riders to buckle us up so we wont DIE. I grabbed Hanna's hand and Matt's although I know Matt is not or is not going to be scared but I'm just going to miss him. We took off and Hannah closed her eyes as everyone else screamed. "Hanna, open your eyes!" I encouraged, you miss everything when you do that.She slowly opened them and then smiled letting screams poor out of her mouth. I screamed along with her a let go of her and Matt's hands putting my hands in the air with Matt following my movement but Hanna just held on to Mecah's hand while the other gripped on the bars."LET YOUR HANDS UP HANNA!" She  hesitated at first but finally threw her hands in the air smiley in accomplishment. I saw How much she started to enjoy the ride.

"AGAIN,AGAIN!" Hanna screamed as the ride was over,we were out of our seats. We started walking to the end platform.

"Sweet heart if you want to ride again you have to go back all the way around." She gave me a puppy dace and I giggled. She's so cute

"Actually there is barley any one in line you guys can go ahead." The worker told us. Hannah's eyes bulge out and she jumped up and down in joy.

"Wow" Maybe roller coasters are not healthy for this little one.

"Someone is hype on air." Ryan teased her.

"Shut up." She pushed Ryan towards the ride.

"lets go in the front this time!" I ran to the front row of the coaster. Ryan sat at the end then Hanna then me then Ty. We went but this time when the camera came Ty kissed me .The coaster came to an end and we got off. when we did i saw the worker run up to us. he turned to Hannah a little too overwhelmed by the big group staring.

"uuh..." he chuckled nervously. and scrated the back of his neck.

"Is everything okay?" Brenda asked him.

"Uhh y-yeah i was just wondering if i could uh g-get yo-our number?" He said to Hannah. That's so cute! Hanna blushed and looked down. we stared at her. god was she shy.

"Lord Hannah" Matt complained and pulled a marker out my bag. I always had a black sharpie in my bag. I love to draw on my self. Matt grabbed the guys arm and wrote Hanna's number and her name. "Text her your number and name." We dragged Hannah out as we teased her. We reached The Camera booth and looked for our picture.

"There it is!" Kate pointed out the picture of us kissing. It was so cute.

"Awww that's so cute" Mecha complimented while pinching Ty's cheek. He groaned and shook her off

"Can we buy that picture please?" Ty asked while pulling out his wallet.

"Aww of course!" The worker said.

"Two copies please!" I asked. When he handed us the photos I put them in my bag.

"So where are we going next. " Nat questioned I looked at Kate and we both ran having the boys followed us looking at the evil beast.

"What the hell is this?" Ty said watching as the rides spins very fast.

"BYE!" Me and Kate ran onto the ride since there was no line but the coaster was half full.
The rest of the crew slowly got on while me and Kate were ready to go.Once the got on we started going up and spinning slowly but then went faster and faster and we all went crazy screaming.once the ride was over we went on the bat man then the superman and then we sat down at the funnel cake store and we ordered three funnel cakes to share. TY STUFFED some in my mouth and yelled at him because I had gotten a big brain freeze. It was dark now so we went to the hotel and ate pizza in the girls hotel room with the boys and we all talked about our memories and we posted 224 pictures on face book that we took today. We had a movie Marathon and it was till 4 am and before I leave we are going to Ihop then sixflags to bounje jump and water rides then Saturday is my date with Ty and red lobster then to the airport sadly.

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