"Happiness"

It comes in warm waves through my body

My breath stutters in my chest

I mimic the stars spiraling overhead

It infects my mind

I loose all coherency and sense

I am a car crash waiting to happen

It comes when least expected

It's coats my skin like a pseudo armor

I come with a new warning: Combustable

It permeates my dreams

Hanging on my lips, lingering on my tongue

I have become a marionette in my own life

It terrifies me

Sitting heavy on my stomach, squeezing my heart

I wish to be numb

It comes and goes

Like a bad lover I can't resist

I want this but I'm petrified of what I'll become when it leaves me alone and listless