Let me live
Let me be next to you

-white love

"I can't believe Kihyun ditched us and went to Soyou's party alone!" Minhyuk vented his anger throwing his sock over to the other corner of the room, then ran to get it back again.

"Yeah. He could've told us about the party," Jooheon retorted with a sigh.

"Let him be, guys. She's his crush, after all," I defended Kihyun putting my shoes on, getting ready for university.

"You're clutching on your stomach again. Are you okay Minjae?" Minhyuk asked me all of a sudden, and I realized I was indeed doing that unconsciously.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I shrugged it off but then a sharp pain stabbed me in the abdomen,  making me almost fall to the ground.

The guys ran towards me. "He looks really pale." I heard Wonho's worried voice but I was still clutching on my stomach in pain. The lower abdomen area of mine had been hurting for two days but being the stupid me, I had been ignoring it.

I swear if it was period, I was flipping. But it wasn't, according to the last time I'd checked.

Period is top on the list of things I hate the most. It's the only time that reminds me I'm actually a girl. Why can't guys get periods too!

"Why don't you stay at home today?" Shownu said in a worried tone. "I'll stay and look after you."

"No, Hyung." I shook my head at him looking up. "You can go. I'll call Byul if I feel really sick."

"That's a no no." Hyungwon shook his head wearing a 'know it all' expression on his face. "A guy like you alone here and you want to bring your girlfriend? Nope!" He crossed his arms over his chest.

"Just say that your parents forbade you to bring girls. Kid." I mocked as I got up slowly and took a seat on the couch. My face becoming distorted for the stabbing pain again.

Hyungwon tried to say something but Changkyun yelled before he could. "Then I'm staying with Minjae!"

"Then I'll stay too." Jooheon lazily took his jacket off.

"Hyung, did you forget it's the last date to give back the books you borrowed from the library?" Changkyun reminded him which made Jooheon quickly grab his jacket again and dash outside.

"It's not gastric or girls problem right?" Changkyun asked as soon as everyone was gone from the sight, looking away a little. In embarrassment perhaps, I thought.

"Nope," I responded taking another hit. It felt like someone was stabbing me with the sharp tip of a knife.

"Then can you go to your room and rest? I'll be close by." He took off his coat and went upstairs after I'd nodded.

As I laid on my bed, I tried playing with my phone but I just couldn't concentrate on anything else but the pain. I kept on fiddling with my cell phone, asking myself if I should tell my situation to Byul or not. But I didn’t want to make her anxious.

My whole body was covered in sweat. I hugged my stomach with both my arms this time. After dwelling with the dilemma I ended up sending Byul a text, telling her to meet me. I tried getting off the bed. But I fell on the ground with a loud thud right the next second.

I couldn't get up, the side of my head hurt for the sudden hit on it. But then I saw someone putting their hands under my body and soon I was on my bed again. It was Changkyun.

"Are you alright?" He said with worry written in his voice. I couldn't see him clearly. The pain was growing, making me feel like it was tearing me apart from the inside.

"I-it's hurting," I managed to mumble under my breath.

"Where? Since when?" He put a hand over my stomach, asking me in a hurry.

"For two days." My body winced as I curled up in pain. "R-right side."

"Lift up your shirt." He commanded, before I could ask anything, he yelled again. "Just do it!"

I lifted up my shirt a little, making my right side of the stomach visible. He crouched down on the floor then touched that area making me yelp in sharp pain.

"There's a bump. Let's go, we need to go to the hospital." He quickly got up then pulled me by my hand. Next second I saw my left hand wrapped around his shoulder. Him lifting me up and pulling me with his own strength since I couldn't walk properly.

"What is it?" I couldn't grasp what was happening here. He got to the garage in a rush then put me in the front seat of his car. Snaking the seatbelt around me he took a turn to take the other seat.

"I think it's appendicitis."

"What?" I screamed at him. "But we can't go to the doctors!" 

He took a look at me before he started steering the wheel. "The hospital we're going to is under my dad's company. Don't worry I'll tell the doctors to keep your gender hidden."

Relief washed over me but soon it went away as the throbbing pain came back.

"I hate how I get sick so many times!" A drop of tear escaped my eyes as I said with a sigh.

"It's not your fault," he said in response.

Everything was going too fast. It was surprising that I didn't faint due to the pain but I was on the verge of collapsing. We got to the hospital, the doctor checked me, I was sent into the emergency for surgery and it all just happened.

Still, before the surgery began and the anesthesia was put in to make my lower body numb, I was hoping that Kihyun was having a good time with Soyou. And perhaps, that he could confess today.

***

After I came to, I slowly opened my eyes. My body feeling numb, legs wouldn't move and I wouldn't dare to move them anyway. The strong smell of medicine hit my nostrils. Everything surrounding me was either white, gray or light blue.

I looked to my side and found Kihyun dozing off, sitting on a chair alone. "You!" My voice woke him up.

He looked around startled, then looked at me. "Oh, you woke up."

Stretching his arms out, he let out a small yawn. "They went out to get food. Everyone's here, your friend byul too." He then looked at me as if suddenly he remembered something. "Do you feel alright now? Should I call the doctor?"

"I'm fine." I motioned him to sit down as he got up to call a doctor. "Was Byul crying?"

"Yeah, she was." He gave me a small nod.

"How long have you been here!" Now that he had said it, only meant that he got here long ago, only god knew how long I'd been sleeping. "Don't tell me you missed the party!"

"I didn't. But I got off quickly. Still, I enjoyed so worry about your own ass now." He narrowed his eyes on me. That party was way more important than me.

"What about your confession!" My loudness made him clasp his ears.

"Who the hell even told you I was going to confess today!" he shrieked with his hands on his ears.

My mouth parted in awe. "But I thought you would."

"How could you think that I have that much courage already?"

This time I couldn't stay still. I tried getting off the bed and almost fell again but before I could, Kihyun rushed to me and helped me balance myself.

"You lost the perfect opportunity! Gosh!"

"Oh look someone's here. My cue to leave!" He said happily looking at the door then started walking away.

"Don't you dare leave now!" I demanded, he was long gone before that.

My anger faded away seeing someone taking a seat where Kihyun was seated before. Though I didn't know what I was feeling now, and what my expression was.

In front of me aunt was sitting, staring at me with her piercing gaze.

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A/n: the chapter was really short. Tbh the romance in this book is quite slow. I wanted the feelings to develop slowly but I don't know if people are still enjoying it. So tell me, are you liking this book? And the amount of romance?

Cause baby the romance will start working up like fire pretty soon ;) just wait and see!