Minho took a deep breath before saying, "No, Jisung, I can't do us anymore. I want to break up with you."

Jisung blinked and felt his chest tighten. He definitely didn't just hear Minho correctly. "What?" He whispered.

Minho looked down, "I want to break up with you Jisung. I don't want to be your boyfriend anymore."

Jisung felt his heart stop beating, he felt the world stop, it seemed like any second now, the world was going to end because that's what was happening, Jisung's world was ending. Minho hasn't called him by his first name in a long time and it felt foreign hearing him say it.

"You're lying." Jisung said, not sure if he was saying that because he believed it or because he wanted it to be the truth.

"I'm not. I'm sick of you and I don't enjoy hanging out with you anymore." Minho shrugged.

Jisung felt like a hand ripped into his chest. "Y-you told me that you loved me yesterday." He felt a tear leave his eyes which was the first of many.

"I only said that so you wouldn't be suspicious of anything. I did love you, but I fell out of it. It happens. I've been doing a lot of thinking and I've just realized that Hwajoon was right. I need someone who's a better fit for me, someone who isn't weighing me down." The gang member said nonchalantly. It seemed like he didn't know the amount of venom held in the words he had just said.

Fell out. Better fit. Weighing down. These words echoed through Jisung's mind and he wished he never heard them leave the mouth of boy he loves. He felt the hand in his chest harshly grab his heart.

"You don't really want this. You're doing this because you think it'll be safer for me to leave you." This had to be the only reasonable answer. "I told you that I don't care if it's safer for me to not be with you, I still want to—"

"Jisung not everything's about you. I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing this for me because I can't keep acting like I love you when I don't anymore. It's suffocating and a waste of my time. I don't think I can put this act up for any longer, it makes me sick."

Jisung felt the tears streaming down his face, pick up their speed as more fell. He closed his eyes, wishing to wake up from this nightmare. He prayed that when he opened his eyes he would see the ceiling of his room, but when he opened his eyes, he was still in Minho's car.

"If you mean it, then look me in the eye and tell me that you no longer want to be with me." Jisung said with his voice cracking. If he really loves me then he wouldn't be able to do that. Right? Jisung silently begged the other to not do it.

Minho sighed, he looked directly into Jisung's eyes. The gang member felt his heart break. He wanted to wipe the tears off Jisung's face and hug the love of his life and apologize for being the reason for the tears, but he stayed strong. "I don't love you anymore and I would love to stop being your boyfriend." He said without batting an eye.

Jisung felt the hand yank his heart out of his body. He wiped the tears on his face, but it was useless because the wiped tears were immediately replaced with new ones. "Okay. From this point on, we are no longer together." Jisung barely got the words out of his mouth. His voice cracked and was very shaky. He quickly opened the door of Minho's car and ran out, running into his house, never looking back.

Minho drove down the street and park his car on the side. He slammed his hands on the steering wheel. He ran his fingers through his hair in frustration and slumped in the seat, letting a few tears fall down his face. Jisung I'm so sorry, but I had to do it for your own good.

Minho drove home and didn't answer anyone's questions when he entered his home. He ignored everyone and locked himself in his room, crying for the first time since he was seven.

-

The day before

When Minho left the classroom after telling Jisung that he had gang things to do, he was actually finding someone. He didn't have any gang emergency, that was a white lie. Instead he stayed at school wanting to talk to the guy who's been creating trouble for him. He had the gang lie for him so he could do this. Minho stayed at school while the others went home.

Minho walked around the school campus before he saw the man he was looking for. "What the hell are you doing?"

Moonjin wasn't surprised by the voice, "Uh, I'm packing up?" He said while he zipping up his backpack.

Minho slammed the locker shut, "Cut the bullshit, what the hell are you trying to do."

"I don't know what you're talking about?" Moonjin smiled.

"I know you were the one who sent that envelope to Jisung." Minho said through a clenched jaw.

"Maybe I am, maybe not."

"You and I both know that you wouldn't be able to take Jisung as long as he's near me because I would beat your ass easily."

"That may be true, but what are you going to do me when I have Jisung in my hands? Nothing because I'll be able to kill him immediately." Moonjin smirked.

Minho slammed his hand on the locker, "What the hell makes you think that you'll be able to even touch Jisung?"

"You probably already know, but my mom and his mom are friends. I could easily ask my mom to talk to Jisung's mom to get him to tutor me or something." Minho stayed quiet and Moonjin continued, "But I won't hurt him if you do something for me."

"Why would I want to do anything for you?" Minho growled.

"Because Jisung's safety is on the line here." Minho glared at Moonjin, "I want you to break up with Jisung."

Minho scoffed, "I'm never doing that. I would rather die."

Moonjin shrugged. "Oh, but that's too bad, your life's not on the line, it's Jisung's life."

"How the fuck am I supposed to trust your word?"

Moonjin rolled his eyes, "Minho I don't want to hurt Jisung because I just want to hurt him. I only want to hurt him because you will be in pain too. That's all I want, to see you in pain and suffering. Forcing you to not be with someone you love is the best sort of pain and suffering one can feel. Seeing you weak makes me happy."

Minho rolled his eyes, not believing a single word. "Then what the fuck was the envelope with that threatening letter with pictures that you took when you followed them?"

Moonjin laughed, "To scare you. If you haven't noticed yet, I haven't followed Jisung ever since that night because I'm not interested in hurting him. But if it makes you feel better, I promise not to hurt your little Jisung." He said the last sentence in a baby voice, mocking Minho.

"Shut the fuck up, your promises mean nothing to me. I'm not going to break up with Jisung."

"Oh no? Hm." Moonjin opened up his phone and dialed his moms number, putting her on speaker phone.

"Hello?" His mom answered.

"Mom! I was wondering if you can talk to Jisung's mom and have her ask Jisung to tutor me tomorrow at our house? Tell them that I don't really understand what's happening in history."

"Oh sure honey, I'll tell her right now. She's actually next to me."

"Oh perfect! I can pick him up-"

"Alright stop." Minho demanded.

Moonjin smirked, "Oh wait never mind mom, I just realized I have something to do tomorrow."

"Are you sure? You should cancel your other plans, I think Jisung tutoring you is a good choice. I'm sure his mom thinks the same." His mom said.

"Yeah I'm sure mom. I can't cancel the plans."

"Okay... Bye honey." She said before hanging up.

Moonjin looked at the other, expecting him to say something. Minho closed his eyes, "Fine, I'll do it."

Moonjin smiled in satisfaction, "I'm giving you until tomorrow." He said before he left.

Minho drove home and when he arrived, he ran up to his room, locking himself inside. He didn't know what to do for once. Of course he had to break it off with the love of his life, but he didn't know if he would be able to do it. Minho yelled out in frustration and punched the wall. He paced back and forth his room, continuing to punch anything he could until his knuckles were numb.

He heard a knock on his bedroom door. "Leave." He demanded.

"Minho open this door right now before I do it for you." It was Chan's voice.

Minho breathed out in anger before he opened the door revealing a leader who wasn't very happy.

"What the hell is going on? Why are you punching my walls? God look at your hands."

Minho stayed silent and the older crossed his arms over his chest. "Spill."

Minho slumped on the floor in defeat. Tears brimmed his eyes, "I have to break up with..." He couldn't even finish the sentence, he couldn't say it out loud.

Chan's eyes widened. "What're you talking about?"

Minho explained everything that happened and Chan stayed quiet. "Minho I don't think this is the right decision."

"You think I want to do this? I don't have a choice. I can't risk Jisung getting hurt."

"Do you really think Moonjin will leave him alone?"

"I have to because it's the only choice." Minho replied defeated. Chan stayed quiet. "Hyung, I-I can't—how am I supposed to look at him while I'm breaking his heart. The only person that's hurting Jisung, is me, the person who he loves."

Chan sighed while he hugged the broken boy, "This is exactly what Moonjin wants."

"I'm going to school tomorrow at sixth period. I have to keep my time with him as minimal as possible or else I won't be able to, do it." Minho choked out.

Chan felt useless, he saw his best friend, his brother in such a state of despair and defeat. He's never seen him this hurt or this emotional in the many years of knowing Minho and there was absolutely nothing he could do about it.

-

Present day

When Minho was breaking Jisung's heart, it was definitely the hardest thing he had ever done. He would rather go through the years of torture he endured for the rest of his life than have to break the heart of someone he loved with his whole being. He couldn't even look at Jisung or else he would break and hug the boy. The amount of tears Jisung was producing was all Minho's fault. Whenever he heard the boy's voice crack, Minho wanted to punch himself in the face for causing that.

When Jisung asked Minho to look him in the eye and tell him that he didn't love him, the gang member tensed slightly. Jisung probably didn't notice from the tears that occupied his vision, but Minho was panicking. He didn't know if he was going to be able to pull through. He didn't want to see what he was doing to Jisung. He didn't want to see the tears he caused.

The only reason why Minho was able to do it was because it was for Jisung's safety. That didn't mean it was any less heartbreaking. When Minho made eye contact with the person he loved, he saw the absolute brokenness and the desperation of the whole situation being a lie in Jisung's eyes. He silently begged Minho with his eyes to not say those words and to hug him instead. And that made it that much harder for Minho to say the words, saying it felt like poison.

-

Jisung ran inside his household and shut the door, leaning his back against it and slid down. He sobbed his eyes out, gasping for air. The words replayed in his mind over and over again, 'I don't love you anymore and I would love to stop being your boyfriend'.

Jisung couldn't breathe, he felt like someone was standing on his chest, restricting his amount of air. He felt like his lungs stopped working. He felt so empty and like such an idiot. He knew that being with someone like Minho was too good to be true. Of course he would've figure out sooner or later that Jisung didn't deserve him.

"Jisung?" A voice called out from upstairs. Jisung knew someone said something, but his brain didn't process anything. It was all too much for him, his chest hurt, he couldn't breathe, and he felt dizzy. He heard the voice get farther and farther away from him. His vision became blurry and soon it went black.

-

The next thing Jisung knew, he was waking up in his bedroom. He looked around and saw his sister and brother standing next to the bed with worry engraved in their face.

"How are you feeling?" Jihyo asked softly.

Jisung put his hand to his chest trying to massage the pain away, but it seemed internal, "Exhausted. How come you guys are home early today?"

"We didn't have any extra practice today so we came home early. Just in time to send mom and dad off to the airport actually."

Jisung nodded, he was going to miss his parents, but he's been through this so many times it's like he's numb to the pain of them leaving for months again.

"Did something happen? You came home crying really hard and suddenly blacked out." Brian asked worried.

That's when everything came flowing back. The memories of Minho breaking his heart and not being fazed by it. The words that continued to repeat in his mind. 'I don't love you anymore and I would love to stop being your boyfriend.'

Jisung slipped out more tears. He hid his face in his hands and cried. He felt the bed sink down lower as his sister's arms wrapped around him, pulling him into her embrace.

They sat like this for what seemed like hours but it was probably only five minutes. Jisung lifted his head and let out a shaky breath.

"M-Minho broke up with me." Jisung whispered, more tears strolling down his face. Saying those words out loud made it real. He never wanted to say those five words ever in his life.

"He what?" Brian said in shock.

"Why would he do that?" Jihyo asked more to herself than to Jisung.

"I think it's time for me to tell you the truth." Jisung said and his siblings have a confused look. He took a deep breath before continuing, "You know Stray Kids?"

"The really powerful gang?"

Jisung nodded slowly, "...Minho's apart of it. He actually the strongest person in Stray Kids."

He heard his siblings gasp and freeze. Jisung quickly added, "I-I don't want you guys to think differently of Minho though even if he's in a gang. Stray Kids aren't that bad, they only hurt people who deserve to be hurt. They're amazing people despite of what they do. And Minho... He's truly the sweetest person and..." Jisung stopped talking as he felt a sob coming. "I miss him." His voice cracked.

Brian and Jihyo stayed quiet for a bit, thinking about what was thrown at them. They were probably interacting with each other behind Jisung's back talking about their opinion and reactions. The silence drew Jisung crazy though, he was preparing himself for their screams.

"Minho's apart of Stray Kids? Oh god the amount of times I've probably looked like a fool in front of him." Jihyo finally said in embarrassment.

Jisung furrowed his eyebrows, "You're not mad at me?" He asked quietly.

"No, of course not. I'll be honest, at first I wanted to clock you in the neck and ask you what the hell you were thinking, but then I remembered how polite Minho was and I truly believe he's a good guy. Even though he's in a gang, I trust your judgement, and if you believe that he's a good guy then I'll believe it too. Besides he's never given me a reason for me to hate him, except right now because he made you cry." Brian said and Jihyo agreed making Jisung almost cried of joy.

"Don't be mad at him. I had it coming... I still love him so much though." Jisung looked down as he felt more tears coming. Jihyo frowned and hugged him again.

"It doesn't make sense. I saw how he looked at you like you were his entire world. He had the biggest smile every time he looked at you and I could tell he really cared for you." Jihyo commented.

"Not anymore." Jisung peeped between sobs.

"Maybe it's for the best." Brian said trying to cheer his brother up, but it only made Jisung cry harder. The oldest panicked and looked at his sister for help.

"Maybe he had a very good reason on why he broke up with you because I seriously doubt that the reason he broke it off was because he doesn't love you anymore. You don't lose feelings for someone that quickly. There's definitely a better explanation to it, something that you couldn't know so he made that lame ass excuse. I call bullshit."

Jisung wanted to believe her, so badly because it made sense, but at the same time Minho said those words so easily, Jisung didn't know what to believe. There was one thing for certain though, they were no longer together because Minho broke up with him and that was enough to make him cry for hours.

-

Jisung soon after texted his friends to come over for support. They rushed over to his house without any clue on what happened. When Jihyo opened the door, everyone looked at her. They noticed the tear stains on her shirt and guessed that it was from Jisung.

"What's wrong with Jisung?" Seungmin asked worried.

"He'll explain." Jihyo sighed. "He's in his room." She said as she opened the door wider for everyone to rush in and run to his room.

They all stopped at his door, hesitating to walk in. They didn't know what to expect or what state they were going to Jisung in. The three friends all looked at each other before Felix opened the door.

Jisung was in his bed, all cuddled up in his blanket. He had a box of tissues next to him and a pile of used tissues on the floor. He looked up at his friends with a quivering lip before he weeped even more. Felix, Seungmin and Jeongin rushed to Jisung's bedside.

"Talk to us hyung." Jeongin frowned.

Jisung gasped for air, sniffing every two seconds, "He broke up with me." He sobbed.

Everyone froze when Jisung said it. They thought they misheard their friend because there was absolutely no way that those words just came out of his mouth.

They quickly recovered from their shock and climbed onto the bed, giving him hugs. "What happened?" Felix asked softly.

Jisung explained the story for the second time through his tears and sobs. When he was done, all three friends were thinking the same thing, there is absolutely no way that Minho lost feelings for Jisung. That was impossible. So he definitely broke up with Jisung for another reason, but what?

"I don't care what the hell Minho said because it's all bullshit. He still loves you and he probably broke up with you to keep you safe or for another good reason that he couldn't say." Seungmin said.

"That's what Jihyo noona said too, but you should've been there. He said that he didn't love me anymore without blinking an eye. He said it so naturally like he's been waiting to say it."

"Hyung I seriously doubt it. That's not possible for Minho to stop liking you out of nowhere. He truly loves you with his whole life which is probably why he broke up with you, to keep you safe." Jeongin said.

"No I don't think so, he even said that wasn't the reason." Jisung choked on a sob. "It was only a matter of time before he realized how much better he is compared to me."

The friends sighed. They couldn't do anything to convince Jisung. His stubbornness at this point was impossible to compete with and so the three decided that they would just be there for Jisung and to make him feel loved when he felt like he wasn't worth anyone's love.

They just hoped and prayed that Jisung would get better soon.

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i'm sorry for breaking them up😣

opinions on Minho's decision?

in the next chapter:
- why are you here?
- seungmin's done with the bullshit
- heartbroken

tell me what you think is gonna happen in the next chapter :)