I'm up playing games on my computer and its like 1:30 in the morning. Its Ash telling me that J might kill himself and she thinks that because he was posting things that hinted at suicide on SnapChat. So I get up and I talk her through it. We call his sister. She doesn't pick up. Then Ash texted someone she knows that determines whether people need to go to a mental hospital or not. 5 minutes pass and they don't answer. So by now its 2 in the morning. I'm still freaking out. I tried to call him but as soon as he heard it was me he hung up. Of course. So then I remember I have my old counselor's number and maybe they can do something. I call..they don't answer. So me & Ash wake up our parents. Mom doesn't know what to do because she doesn't know his family and Ashs parents aren't gonna do anything they say. J needs help. I know I'm only 16, but I know when someone needs professional help and when they don't. And it really pissed me off when I heard them say that they weren't going to do anything. So Ash says shes going to bed so I hang up and I'm starting to freak out. I paced my room for at least 10 minutes and now its 2:30. So I get on the computer and download a text app and text him and he says hes fine. I told him to promise me and his response is "I'm sorry but I'm not promising anything." I try to text him and he doesn't say anything. And its 3 now. I decided that I did all that I can do. So I fall asleep looking at the ceiling crying.

Everyone pretty much knows that the last two or three chapters that I wrote about that person was J. And If you didn't know, well now you do. I said I don't care but I do. I cant just stop caring about someone in a snap of a finger. That's not gonna happen. And when I called all he said was hello. I honestly wish there was something I could do to help him. I don't want him to kill himself. I don't know what I would do if he did. I'd completely lose it. I haven't talked to him today because I know hes not gonna answer me so I'm gonna see if someone can check his SnapChat and see if hes posted anything today. I'm sure I would hear about it by now but I don't know